Cutting My Own (Mini) Bangs! *Ashamed Of My Actions*

Welcome to dumb idiot hours who wants to watch me ruin my life. I asked you guys if i should get bangs some of you said no most of you said yes, some of you were very supportive in the comments section. I have kind of a small forehead and i don't think bangs are necessarily ideal for me, but uh. That being said, yolo though, i feel like the time that it's taken me to even okay, stop the time that it's taken me to debate whether i want bangs. I feel like i could have got them and have them be grown out by now. I'Ve been like debating this for like low-key years, because some people just look so cute with bangs, i'm probably not going to be one of them. This is my hair like this. Is this my hair right now? In case you were curious, so i've cut my bangs one time before. In my life, i cut my own bangs when i was like 15 or 16, or something - and i did like really thick blunt bangs - that went like below the brow like here and they were just like so like thick super thick and blunt at the time. I really liked them. I like wanted that look. It was what i was going for. I don't even really remember being nervous to cut my own bangs back then. I was just so sure that that was what i wanted. I think, and then they grew out into side bangs like pretty quickly because they were already pretty long. It was like kind of no big deal, but this time i feel like it's a big deal. I'Ve never had short bangs before, like above the brow like ever, and it's a big deal. You guys, i'm like significantly nervous. That'S a big triangle. I don't like it. I don't like it is that a small enough triangle should be even smaller. I don't know what i'm doing here guys i don't know, so i i think i want them to go like pretty far instead of like having these face framing pieces, but actually i don't know, let's figure it out later. Am i really doing this? I don't think i actually want to do this. Do i i don't know what if i just use these scissors, i feel like i would get so many hate comments. I don't actually have hair scissors, but i do have nail scissors. That'S what i usually use to cut my hair and it's worked fine so far. I'Ve never done it for bangs, but i mean i think it's going to be. Okay, i'm definitely going for a specific type of bang and that is kind of like a little tiny short bang kind of like a choppy bang, even like maybe like a kind of punk. Looking bang, i don't know, i feel, like i see these girls that, like punctures or i used to you, know before like social distance, and they have these like super short bangs, and they just look so cute and punk and cool, and i wish it was me. I hope that i look edgy and cool. My biggest fear is that i'm gon na look too like cute, not really going for like a cutesy vibe, because i already have a baby face. You guys tell me why i'm almost 25 years old and people sometimes think that i'm like a teenager, if you guys, are not new to this channel. You know that i'm like captain, i don't give a [ __ ] when it comes to my hair. I never get nervous when i'm dying at a color, because i know i can always like tie it a different color. This is the first time i've been nervous about anything to do with my hair in like a really long time, but it's okay, it's good. I feel alive. Okay, let's just start okay, let's just start. Oh my god, you guys, let's start like this all right, i just like gave up halfway. Oh my god, look at this we're starting long! Okay, because i don't want to go too hard too fast. That'S still pretty long, in fact like i could quit now and everything would still be fine. Actually, if i wanted to back out, i would just have some like super short layers. No we're gon na keep going, though, are you guys having fun? I'M not. Nobody knows. I'M doing this like in my real life, by the way they're just bangs, you guys it's really like not a thing they're gon na grow out. You know what, if i just like, left them like this, i feel like i'm dancing around what i really want to do right now by making jokes. So, let's like actually do it like face you guys instead of the mirror, so you can see what i'm doing. I'M trying to like cut sideways so that it's not too like blunt of a line. Okay, i need to like make them shorter and stop being a little [ __ ] about it. That'S like the worst look on me in the world. Why did i used to love side bangs? I don't know no rag rats right, guys! No regrets, okay, not ideal, not great, okay, we're getting there we're getting there. I definitely don't want them to be this long, as you can see like i'm already starting to look like cute. I hope that when these are like shorter, i look more edgy than cute, because i don't you know what i mean. Do you guys know what i'm saying by that? Like i don't? Maybe it's all in my head. Why is there like a space in the middle, that's kind of weird? Oh, did i do something wrong? It goes like this. Maybe i just need to style them. I don't know like i didn't style, my hair at all i just showered, and then i just got out of the shower. There'S not really any going back at this point. Why did i do this like? Why did i just go for it? I don't understand why. I did this, i regret it honestly. I regret this already. I wish i could rewind time. Let'S do like one piece at a time there we go it's way easier, one piece at a time: that's how you do it well. That was like way too short. All right cool love that for me, no, no, oh, my god! I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. I regret it. Why did i do this? Why i hate this? Oh, my god, you guys! I regret this. I regret this. I regret this regrets. Okay, we're gon na do more because i feel like i didn't do enough and i feel like it's affecting things um, because you know what i mean. Why did i do this? Who does this i'm like getting dizzy? Am i having a panic attack, i'm like getting really really dizzy? Oh okay, okay, okay, i'm here i'm on the ground. This is officially the worst thing i've ever done. I mean i kind of like the choppy look. I know that's not everyone's taste, i kind of like that. You can tell i did it at home, but that's not what i hate about it. I just hate, like the just like the way that the way that um it looks on me, so it needs more pieces in the center because these are like going. Why do i hate myself? I could have like not done this. Should i go um, i mean this is the length that i was going for like it's not like. I cut them too short or anything, but it just doesn't look on me the way that i thought it would, if that makes sense. So it's not like. I didn't ask for this. I like cut it pretty much exactly as i was envisioning, but i hate it. They look like weird on me like they look um. It'S so weird like this is exactly what i wanted. It just doesn't look as good on me as it does on others. Somebody please end my suffering. It feels like there's like a feels like there's something on me like on my forehead. It feels like there's like a fuzzy worm on my forehead. I just like. I don't like it well. Okay, literally, all i have to do is push them aside and, like my hair looks the same so well, i mean to a degree but like this would be pretty easy to conceal anyways, no we're not concealing them. You know what maybe it does need a few more like pieces of hair. I like it choppy you guys. I know like not. Everyone likes choppy bangs, but i'm feeling the choppy vibe right now. So the more i stare at them, the less i hate them, which is good, but it also feels so weird like it feels so i haven't had bangs since i was like, as i said, 15 or whatever, and they grew out really fast and i never cut Them again, since, should i cut this one too? Let'S do it it's like in my face anyway, so why not? Okay, it's not the worst thing ever so, the more that i look at them, the less i actually hate them, but i kind of lost my layers because i cut like the the first layer. I cut it, so i'm gon na redo some of my layers. Okay, see what is this, why does it split like that in the middle? Maybe i just have to straighten them. Oh, this is gon na. Take a lot of getting used to i'm not exactly what you would call happy with, but at the same time i don't know, i'm kind of glad that i did like try it and i am planning on touching up the color right after this i'm gon na Re-Dye the black, should i do anything to the bangs like, should i have like a streak of blonde in here or would that just make it worse? Oh you guys. Oh, i regret this. No, i don't. I don't. No regrets! No regrets, no ragrets, no rag rats. I feel like it's kind of edgy in, like a purposely ugly type of way, like it's definitely not traditionally good looking, but it's like the ugly pretty you know, i'm like not even thinking about what i'm doing right now like my brain, is turned off as i'm Like cutting these layers, my brain like doesn't exist. I'M just trying to give myself more volume like around my head, because i don't know i feel like i need it just like grabbing random pieces and making them like really short. Will they survive the sample life? Will they? I don't know what you tell me: okay, what do you guys think i'm gon na style this and i'm gon na see if it helps to like straighten the bangs i'll? Let you guys know okay, so i styled it um here it is. Basically, i love it and hate it at the same time, certain glances in the mirror, i'm like oh yeah, i like it and then certain glances and, like that's the ugliest thing, i've ever seen, here's the thing like, i feel like the style itself. I really like um, i really like that. It'S more edgy and kind of like ugly pretty. As i said, i definitely don't mean that as a bad thing, i love ugly, pretty i just don't know if i pull it off. I wish i was like one of those people, that's just like, naturally beautiful i would do so many more like edgy things. I would just like, probably shave my head immediately. I feel like some people pull off ugly, pretty better than other people right now. I'M feeling a little bit ugly ugly, you know what i mean, i don't know. I really don't know how i feel about it. I definitely love and hate it at the same time, maybe i'll just wear pigtails every single day of my life and then everything will be fine. I feel like i'm just subconsciously, trying to be ash nico because i don't have a personality of my own and i just copy other people's personalities. Anyways, i'm gon na go. Maybe i'm gon na like thin these out, i'm gon na leave it alone. For now. I can't stop like touching them. Oh my god, you guys feels like there's a worm on my forehead. Oh man, i'm gon na go i'm gon na go. I i kind of have nothing to say you