Why I Cut Off All My Hair: Pixie Haircut Curly Hair

Officially getting my hair cut tomorrow and why is it like flourishing? It'S like girl, don't do it? Don'T you see, you see us long, strong and looking amazing and immaculate? Don'T do it, don't do it, but i'm gon na welcome back we're gon na get right into it. Today we are talking about why i cut my hair okay, so i cut my hair labor day weekend, i'm about a month and a half now out from having my hair, be this short y'all. So here's some video of me before i even cut my hair. Like the day before i cut my hair, like going through some of my thoughts, i have been wanting to cut my hair and do a shortcut for like oh, really, honestly, a really long time. Like i remember when i really first wanted, like the pixie cut, it was back when, like halle, berry catwoman, she came out stunt, and almost i mean you stunned. I mean she was killing it with that cute little baby like that was like the first time. I'Ve ever seen like a pixie cut was like yes and then my parents, my mom, went and took me to get my hair cut and i got a mushroom cut and then, after that, like i got old, lady rollers and old lady curls, and it was not Giving it was not giving and honestly like, i cannot remember what my natural hair looked like, because we always like straightened it. So i'm so excited, and i'm so curious to take this like next step in the chapter like with my hair, to like actually do a natural pixie cut because like as much as i love my hair and like when she is giving she is giving we see Her she is giving right. I love her and, like honestly, i have. I have cut it myself for like the past seven years, but like i want a break. Okay, i'm gon na say i'm gon na say what like every natural girl is like coming out to say i'm gon na say what like every natural girl is coming out and saying. Like i'm tired, i am tired of detangling. I am tired of like the manipulation, like i'm kind of trying to get all the frizzies down like i'm tired of like trying to get my edges together and slicked and, like i am tired, it is being natural is a lot of work, even if you have Short hair, i know it's like still not going to be like super super easy but like i am tired and like half the time, because i'm so tired, it just goes up and like my top ponytail or just get slicked back into a bun because, like i Don'T want to deal with it, i don't like, and then i really am like lazy half the time. So it's like, i should wash it and then i don't and then it gets matted and then i'm spending like three hours trying to detangle all of this and it's like i'm ready, i'm ready to cut it off. I know i was having like second second thoughts, because she's looking really glamorous and like they're looking like girl, you really go. I'M really gon na. Do it, i'm really gon na do it. So this is the last like day. You know i washed it out yesterday and i really enjoyed them today because we're getting them cut tomorrow and i'm gon na bring you with me. I'M going to see miani and i'm super excited and like, even though that was a whole ordeal that i will talk about after the cut um, so yeah say, say goodbye because she's not gon na look like this for a while. Like honestly, i know it's gon na take at least five years to get it back to like here, because it is, i know it doesn't look like it guys, but like like it's down to my boobs and obviously you know like shrinkage is real. Like it's long. It'S so long, but like i'm good like this, has been fun and like i have really really like grown into my natural hair. I would say over, like the last like year and a half with like ovid like the last two years. I'Ve definitely like really really experimented. I did the braids, i did the passion twist like i did all that and like it was fun, but i was tired, you know, and that was like and even like the brazen stuff that was supposed to be like low maintenance. Like that was like high maintenance, it was like crap like they're, starting to look frizzy like my scalp is like in need of like like mouth to mouth, because it's dry, and it just is like awful and like all of that was just. It was just work. It was just work and i'm ready for it to just be like nah, i'm just gon na wake up get a little wet. Let the curls do what they do and i'm excited to see. I'M excited. So this is my like pre pre haircut thoughts, pre haircut vibes - and i will take you with me to the salon tomorrow. Life is is just always mysterious and surprising. You never know what's around the next, you never know. What'S around the next y'all, i know i could be this bad with your hair. I know it. It'S cool! It'S cool, hey, bro! So now that i'm about a month and a half out, i'm not gon na say i'm not gon na go back, but it's really crazy because one of the things i have seen a lot of people mention - and it's so real - is like this weird sense of Like freedom, okay, so when you have like the desired curl pattern and you have long hair, there are so so many people who place emphasis on that. It'S really hard not to feel like also tied to that like it was really really hard. You know for me to realize just how much of like oh i'm bad um maddie was tied to the fact that i had longer curly hair and i really doubted whether or not i would still vibe with myself when i cut it and it's crazy. How much more like feminine, i feel, which i'm not sure is like an experience everybody has, but i don't know why, but like with the short hair, i feel way more feminine than i have felt in a really really long. Long time, though, like okay and it's and it's so crazy - it's like so hard to like to say because when she cut it when yani cut it like and after i let it sit for a while, it felt like such a big weight had been lifted off. Of me, in so many ways it was just like you know. Oh you only cute, because you got long hair like oh i'm only gon na love myself, because i have long hair like oh, my god. What is everyone gon na think about? There was just a lot of weight and association. I felt having having long hair and a weird amount of like guilt like it's like, like so many people, but oh my god, you know what i would do if my hair was that long and oh, my god, you can never cut your hair and i really It was like crazy how much that repeated in my mind that, like it really made me freeze for such a long time, because i've been wanting to cut my hair since, like 2019., like i was talking about this in 2019, at least you know, and maybe even Before that and like two years, it took me two years and it just was like why. Why did i let something like that take so long like it? I'M you know what i mean and like now, you know in a weird way. It'S just like. I feel more decisive, it's so i don't. I don't know how to explain. I really don't know how to explain it, but it's just like all right, like a lot of things that would like him and ha over for, like obviously months like weeks months years, it's like no i'm gon na. Do this, i'm gon na do that. I'M gon na do that because i feel like this was such a weird hurdle for me to have to get over like and again it seems so superficial. I know it does. I know it seems so superficial, but it's so wild and i'm not gon na say i'm never gon na go back actually like i know i want to maintain this for at least another year or two i plan to actually get it trimmed, maybe a little bit Shorter up top um in november, because i tried look side note, your natural hair people be having me out here, struggling okay, because you know how many videos i watch trying to get those finger waves like i also excited i'm gon na cut my hair. I don't do those cute little fingerways always see the amount of gel the amount of like, and i've made like four good attempts at it and like still no - and i can't decide if i cut my hair a little bit short because i really wanted to try The faker waves - i really do, but i also don't want to relax my hair like. I don't want to do that again, so i was like dang like how am i gon na, so i will say that was the one that was one thing. I was really really like nervous about because, like i kind of mentioned, like i kind of mentioned before my hair's, been so long with all that weight like, i really didn't know what my true curl pattern wasn't. Even this, like you know, it's fairly long still right like, but it shrinks up so so much like. I was so surprised just how much shrinkage i had you know and then how much my curl pattern like. I have a strong curl pattern like, even though i know my hair is like a desirable curl pattern like i have tried so many different gels, and so many different like holding mousses, to try and get those uh to try and get those finger waves. It ain't going, it said, nope new girl, not for you, so so i feel, like it's been really really fun kind of discovering rediscovering my hair and the style because, like like i mentioned, i don't even remember feeling it like this, like just feeling it like this. Even when my hair was like really short when i was young, it was it's just crazy and i talked about this in some of my other videos. I have really kind of suffered from like dry, scalp and all that kind of stuff. So i really was hoping that also when i cut my hair, my other goals, really to like figure that out like what the heck is going on to really figure that out like to really figure that out like what the heck's going on by scalp like. How can i get it nice and healthy and not so dry, and all that kind of stuff, like one of the things i always knew being natural, is like what works on other people's hair won't work on mine, so i will say there were like the finger Waves, some disappointments from like oh, i could try this and i could try that and i was like nah nah, but the other nice thing like one of the things i was mentioning is like it was just so much work and i was tired like to comb Through my hair, now like in the shower, like literally, i could just spray it and actually comb through in like minutes minutes not even like a couple like under five minutes. That'S how quick and it's like, i was sitting there spending so much time. Detangling. My hair, like trying to like stretch out my hair and like do all this stuff, and i'm like all i needed, was to cut it, wash it and add a little bit of mousse and just let it do what i do. You know you know that seems so silly to say, but like like one of the like one of the other realizations that i did want to talk about too, is like there really is no break for natural for girls, with natural hair for girls with naturally curly Hair and i don't think enough, people respect or talk about that like as we're like. Oh there's, all this luxury and black women in luxury and like getting your hair is a luxury but like when you have natural hair. It'S so difficult, like the amount of friends that i was like. Okay, who do you recommend to like do a curly haircut, knowing they had natural hair like and i'll, be like? Oh girl, i had to go to a friend or i have a family member like there's. Nobody out here, like i literally, got a best three recommendations of like natural hair stylist in the detroit area and then on top of that, like they were booked for months and months out. So it's like i had to know i wanted like. I was trying to get an appointment at the beginning of august for my birthday like mid-september, and places were already booked like all the way through to basically october and like that's so wild like, and i was thinking about how wild that is like. I could easily find someplace who will press out my hair, give me a silk press and give me a haircut like that, but to get a pixie cut on your own natural hair to have somebody do a rod set to like do all that. You there's no spontaneity, there's not like. Oh, i really want to get done up and i'm gon na go to the salon like today tomorrow, whatever and find somebody like you have to know that you need a break like a month, two months out, even to get an appointment at these places, and i Feel like that to me, was really really disheartening and sad to see because as we're seeing a lot of in social media, there's a lot of natural hair like burnout. Because of that it's like dude. It'S a lot of work and there's never a break from it. Like when you go and get your silk press, it's a break right like it's super easy when you go and get braids like it's nice and easy, and even though like for me, obviously maintaining like the really big brace, was a lot of work. If you get like the smaller braids, they last a lot longer, but it's like it's like dude, there's no break when you're natural there isn't and so like to go from basically spending hours on my hair to spending like less than an hour like, and it's so Crazy and then even to refresh it, it's so much quicker like if i was like dang i want to like do some twists, or i just want to like refresh my curls, with my hair being as long as it was like that it was hours. It was like dang, i thought that was going to take me like an hour and it's like you in there like two three, like you know what i might as well just wash it all the way over and like trying to detangle all of it like it Was so so frustrating so like if you're on the fence, all that to say all that to say if you are on the fence cut it cut it off cut it off, it'll, grow back and worst case. If you hate it, while it's short, you can wear wigs, and that is the next thing i'm like really excited to experiment on, like i already have my eyes on like two different wigs and i'm like okay, i, like cute little bob and there's like little wavy Stuff, like i see why people do it, it's just easy and it's and it makes sense, especially when it's like you know, you're, like i'm, trying to do everything right, like you guys know, i'm a content creator and i i have a day job, i'm an engineer By day, like i still do i do almost i take my i take my own photos. I do my own videos, i do my own editing like i do my own social media. I do my job like i do everything i wanted a break, and this i didn't realize how much this would make me realize. Like yeah bro, i need to go ahead and just start outsourcing a lot of other things in my life and i'm good like it's. It'S really hard to describe, but honestly, like they're right when a girl like cuts, her hair, there's a there's, a different energy. There really is, and that's not to say, like it's superior to having long hair. It'S absolutely not right, and it's not to say it's. It'S not work because there is work, but, but i don't know like i i feel like. I want to rock this, at least for like a year two years and kind of see where i go from there like, i might grow back out and i might not. I don't know, that's it. That'S why i cut my hair. I know i had gotten like a lot of questions like where to go and all that stuff and i will link if you're in the, if you're in the detroit area like where you should go, who i recommend or who is recommended to me but, like i Said you're gon na have to like you know, be on it because as soon as their like schedules open up, they book pretty darn fast. So with that, thank you so so much for watching. I will see you next time. Bye,