Ponytail Wig - Brooke & Bobbi By Envy - Self Esteem & Quit Trying To Love Yourself!!

Good morning, friends and family in the YouTube world, it's Jacqueline Hill Bennett, I wan na say thank you for tuning in and for taking time out of your day to watch me ramble on about my world, okay. So I'm here for two reasons today. The first reason is to correct the error I made in one of my previous videos when I reviewed this wig, this wig is called Bobbie, not Brooke. When I reviewed her the first time I kept calling her Brooke reason that I did. That was because, when I went to Lady Day wigs in Manhattan and asked for Brooke the sale lady came back out and gave me Bobby and since Bobby looks so much like Brooke, then I just went with it, but I'm not mad about that because you know I'M happy with that way. This big is really nice, I'm enjoying it. It'S nice, fluffy and bouncy Bobby is a little longer and I do like long wig, sometimes but um overall, I'm happy with this purchase. The other reason is to do the ponytail tutorial that I promised you in that same video, okay. So, let's be good you're, probably wondering why I took my wig off to do a ponytail tutorial, I'm using an older way to do my ponytail and in fact I'm using Brooke. So you get to see Brooke but she's old. Now, that's okay! She still looks good she's still, a dull girl brush her out real good um. Let me talk again about these high-end. Talk a little bit again about these high-end, wigs synthetic wigs. I really like them. I really like them. This wig is over a year old and she's, still in good condition. If I had bought like a free trash, some other, you know lesser brand, it would have lasted me like a month, maybe two and max okay, that's not true, because every now and then we do come across for some of you, a Harlan one to five. It just lasts unusually long, okay, so this is what Brooke looks like after a year now of weird she's, not so bad. I like her even at a year and a half old okay, but I'm not gon na take so much time up today. I don't even have that much time I have to get going, but okay, so I'm gon na glue her down, because I cannot really style big until she's glued down and, oh, my god, it is so windy. Outside this morning I took the kids to school. I sure wish that glued my hair down that time. Fortunately, I didn't run into any accidents cable past before it was for your mouth, for our winds just took my hair with it. Okay, so really fast! Oh, you know something. I talked to a friend of mine yeah couple days ago, Adrian hey Adrian, what up hopefully you're watching I talked to AJ a couple days ago. He calls me up and he's like, oh my god, Jackie I'm, so Oh you're tying my wrist. That'S why I use. I like to use these fabric hair ties because they don't pull the hair out and you know wigs are a little bit fragile. So you know your hair is really fragile. You'D, never want to rip your hair out so yeah. I use one of these guys from goody and anyway, so she says Jackie, I'm so proud of you. I remember a time when you so I'm brushing on it and it looks crazy right now. I don't care we're not going to concern ourselves with how crazy your fake it look at this point, we're just getting it into that ponytail. I didn't move it down enough. It'S coming off, so he says I'm so proud of you. I remember a time when you would never take your wig off in front of anyone and I'm I'm eating up his compliments because everybody likes a compliment right, but I just thought I'd think about like what changed he's right. I remember time when I would not dream of showing anyone. My own bald head, these straps tight little bit, but so I thought about it for a little while, why am i showing the world my bald head? That'S weird! I'Ve been bald since I was 12 years old and I never show people my wig, I made my bald head and also now I want to display it to the world right. Okay, so I thought about it and I realized the reason why I was okay. I am now okay, showing you guys. My head is because I stopped trying to love myself. I stopped. I gave up my quit trying to love myself, and I know that sounds crazy, but I'm gon na explain it to you. Rather than love myself, I decided to be responsible for myself. People talk about Lo and self-love, like it's. This magical thing that you're that that just makes everything better. You know this love thing: love is patient, love, it's tolerant! Love is kind of fair. Oh no! I ain't not tolerant with my husband, and I know I love him - I'm intolerant, sometimes I'm not the absolute beast, but he's not always tolerant with me either, and I know he loves me. Okay notice that I can be very intolerant of my children and I love that my crazy. I used to always go around saying how you know I like this. I I love this person, but I don't like them like speaking about a certain family member or something like that. Okay, so now she's all the way up, and yes, she was crazy in the back. Look at that. That'S nuts right, but don't worry, you're not gon na leave it like that. What you're going to do - and hopefully you can see me, can you see me? Let me use minder to find out if you can see me. Oh that looks crazy, okay, but we're gon na fix that okay. So what you're gon na do is you're not um, pulling down the here's. Your first you're pulling down the unit get then you're get all the way down as well as you can get her all the way to the nape of your neck. As far down as you can and as you pull her down, the hairs are naturally going to pull out. So they look at that. That'S my tab! Now, if I thought about it, I would have sold much my elastic closed. That'S okay! I'Ll! Just talk for under okay, so I pulled her down as much as possible. Now I'm going to start pulling those hairs down a little bit just a little bit, not a whole lot. So that's nothing! Look! I'M going for with a whole lot of here! Okay, pushing it out pulling and it's not taking a lot of time. It feels it feels a little annoying and time-consuming, but really isn't. Spending seven minutes on your hair is really nothing. It'S fine, okay, so she's looking better! Now, let's keep pulling down that unit and there she's pretty much up in a ponytail now right. However, it's a little messy up here right, so we're just gon na go in and I hope you guys can see and pull pull it taut taut, I'm using! That word brush her hair brush. Her sides hold out something to the front now to be fair. I did trim away some hairs long ago because I like to always have something thinner in the front now. Obviously, this is not the best ponytail I've done, because I'm rushing I'm rushing. I don't want to keep you guys or glued into my TV channel for that long, but it's certainly good enough to take me outside jogging, which is usually when I wear my hair like this. It'S when I'm going to the gym or my jogging or on a windy day like today, because I don't want my hair everywhere and if it's windy, you guys really don't have to worry. Once you put on this glue, you are in a good place, but you got to get to look. You know be having your big slick, it'll open, please, okay! So there's our hotel, Kezia good. Okay. So what I was saying about love so yeah love is patient. Love is kind, love is gentle. You know all these idioms don't use that word right. Anyway, all these descriptions of love - I don't know what that is. Obviously I don't even know what love is. I don't even claim to know what love is. I have five children who I am responsible for I, like them, they're kind of cool kids. You don't know saying I have a husband who I'm responsible for I like him. I admire the guy. I don't really know what love is so for me to sit up here and spend five 10 15 years trying to love myself. I was wasting my time. What I needed to do was be responsible for myself and that's why I decided to show you guys what I look like with no hair. I owe it to myself as a responsible person. I owe it to myself to stop. What am i hiding for hey? It'S hard, don't hide, don't hide, I mean yeah, you want to wear your wig and that is a form of hiding, but don't don't let it consume your life. We'Re like you can't you've got a clothes, / curtains and you won't let your boyfriend see you. Don'T hide you owe it to yourself. Forget loving yourself, you don't have to like yourself. You don't have to like the way you look, I hate being bald. I hate it. I hated it when I was 12. I hate it now that I'm 40. I would much rather be able to just wake up in the morning and you know be like one of those girls who, just you know, has hair swinging all over the place and I'm so dope. Huh. Look at me yeah! Well, that's not me and as a responsible person, I'm not gon na I'm not gon na wallow anymore in that misery. You know I'm saying I'm not gon na allow myself to wallow in that misery. The same way. I don't allow my kids to wallow in their misery and I won't allow my husband to wallow in his misery whenever he's miserable and it's funny, because he's hardly ever miserable men have a different way of seeing love like loving themselves for men that I think they All know that love is responsibility, the ones who don't know that love is responsibility. Those are the guys who are having kids and they're not taking care of them and their kids are all confused and they said daddy doesn't love me daddy, doesn't love. Me then, doesn't have the capacity to love you you know, then. If he had the capacity to love you, he would be responsible for you, because love is responsibility so quit trying to love yourself. I wasted a lot of years and enduring a whole lot of punishment from out external forces, because I was busy trying to love myself this society, this psychological society, that constantly talks about self-love and insecurities owed insecure person. She is she's insecure. She, you know, she had hard time growing up and you know her mom was mean and her dad was was asking, and you know and her teachers are always told us. She wouldn't amount to anything and so therefore she's insecure, and you know she doesn't love herself when you realize that there's no, I mean. Maybe there is some, but maybe there are some people who aren't just and I think I've come across them in life. These people, who are just so fortunate that they just have this innate love for themselves, they wake up in the morning. They feel great they're, always happy. They don't allow anybody to do them wrong. You know um, but that's not me and that's and a whole lot of people are that way. That'S why so many of us are in um unhealthy relationships. So many of us abuse substances, so many of us don't aspire to our dreams as we should it's, because we're busy leaning on this idea of self-love and leaning on this idea that we are insecure and so we're trying to battle our way out of this insecurity And trying to get this, this fake love for ourselves like one day, we're just gon na look in the mirror, we're just gon na love the way we look, we're just gon na love, her big fat bellies we're just gon na love, our whatever you know the Bald head we're gon na love, we're just gon na love our hairy faces. You know you may never love it. You may never even like it, but you have to take responsibility for your happiness and that's why I'm here, because I'm taking responsibility for my happiness. I hope that made sense guys and I'm not gon na taking it in your job any more of your time, because it's 16 minutes set minutes and 53 seconds into this show so have a nice day guys and be responsible for yourselves quit trying to love yourself. If you don't love yourself already, you ain't gon na, never love yourself, but you can be responsible for yourself. I love you, even though I don't know what that means, but