I Have Alopecia. I'M Bald Now. My Hair Is Not Growing Back!
I have Alopecia. I'm BALD now. Hair NOT growing back!
I alopecia Universalis, the most aggressive form.
I forgot to mention it in the video.
Watch me cut my hair https://youtu.be/JPtQLyvPXhM
This video was recorded and uploaded march 13, 2020. Just two months before my hair loss, i've always had a fear of uh developing or being diagnosed with having alopecia, not that having alopecia is the end of the world. A lot of beautiful women out there that are rocking. You know ball heads, but my dad has alopecia i've never seen him with hair, so i don't know the texture of his hair. I don't know what his hair even looks like i've, never seen him with hair. He'S always had a bald head, so i'm thinking, okay, i am getting alopecia here. It may appear as if hair loss started around my edges and it didn't. Hair loss actually started behind my ears and it took on like this circular pattern. Just around my ears. It was bare skin. Let me tell you how i first discovered i had alopecia. I had been wearing the same messy bun for like damn near two weeks. It was hot outside it was at the height of the pandemic. We were on lockdown couldn't go anywhere, so i really wasn't doing much to my hair. I may have readjusted my scrunchie, but as far as taking my hair down and combing and brushing through it, my hair stayed in that same bun, and that was pretty typical of me. I mean i maintained a very low manipulation, hair care regimen. I just kept my hands out of my hair, so once i styled my hair, i left my hair alone. So anyway, i was working on a computer planning. My hair always played in my hair and my hands brushed up against the back of my like. I might have been playing with my ears or rubbing my ears or something, and i just remember how i was thinking. I don't recall the back of my ears feeling so smooth like i just kept rubbing the back of the ear area and it just felt so. Damn smooth like there was no hair there, so i just kept rubbing that area and then i went on to the other side and i'm rubbing the area over there and i'm like i really my mind's playing tricks on me. Like i don't recall, the back of my ears feeling so exposed like it just felt very it felt bald. So i ran to the bathroom picked up a mirror turned around braced myself. Then i looked it was i gasped, like i became paralyzed with fear. I just stood there numb because i knew immediately when i saw that my ear area was bald and no hair and it was in this circular pattern. I knew exactly at that moment what was happening. I knew i had alopecia, it happens and i just sat there in silence and took a moment to process it, and i had to just take it all in so you want to know what i did next. I calmly went back to doing whatever it was. I was doing on the computer, i don't know - maybe i was in shock um, but my hair remained in that same messy bun for another week. This is all the hair that came out within the past hour. This all fell out within the past one hour. So i was like you know what just go ahead and cut it, i'm over it cut it, get get it over with just in case you're confused. My hair actually fell out the second or third week of may 2020. Now, up until now, only seven people knew about me having alopecia it wasn't anything i wanted to talk about. I certainly did not want to share it with the world. It was one of the most humiliating, embarrassing experiences of my life. I never felt more alone and isolated because i don't know anyone else with alopecia other than my dad and i haven't talked to him in years a big part of my physical identity was gone. You know we all relate to hair. We all identify ourselves by our hair, so it was just something that i really had to take time to adjust to and get settled into before i presented my new self to the world, i'm fine! Now i find great comfort in having my own hair. It'S one of the major things that helped get me through this having my own hair allowed me to feel like myself and look like myself, and that was very important to me. I just had a fear that once i got alopecia, i wouldn't be able to find a good hair vendor or find quality hair, and in my past experiences i bought low quality hair for premium prices. So at this stage i had already lost 50 percent of my hair. You could see all the balding you could see all the spacing in between the parts i was holding onto my strands an additional two weeks until i got an opportunity to film, so it was basically just a bunch of loose hair sitting on top of my head And my hair was just dropping out just hair everywhere, so i actually could not wait to cut my hair. If you pulled on the hair hard enough, it would have just came out. I really didn't even have to cut my hair. I could have just yanked out the strands really, but that would have looked pretty brutal. I wanted to make um the cutting process as organized as possible, so i can preserve my strands or preserve my hair. I was pretty anal about how i decided to cut my hair, so i have been anticipating this for many many years since the anemia video. Actually, that's when i think that's when i really became aware. That'S when i really became aware that i was going to get alopecia, it was never a matter of if it was always a matter of when i knew i was going to get alopecia. Otherwise, i would not have been so anal about collecting my shed hair alopecia wreaks havoc on your hair before it falls out. So i wanted to keep all of my shed hair, which was healthy when the event did happen. I still had healthy hair like this is from my shed hair, and it's very it has a lot of luster to it. It'S very thick hasn't been affected by the alopecia, because this hair here has actually been collected in 2015.. Actually, the hair that you saw me doing my experiment with this: is it right here so my shed hair has not been affected by alopecia. I'Ve tried to drop subtle, hints about my conditions, slowly, spoon feeding, you bits and pieces of information over time, because i knew some of you weren't going to take it very well and trust me i i understand i understand the attachment, because we've had this online hair Love affair for over 10 years, so i definitely get the emotions behind um. Some of your disdain, for you know me cutting my hair, but it was not a choice. Cutting my hair was not a choice. There was really no option. I tried to soften the blow by letting you know that i'm planning to cut my hair in the future. I talked about collecting my shed hair. I even mentioned making a wig out of my own shed hair, so i was just dropping little. You know little tidbits here and there. So i'm sorry, if some of you guys are disappointed but listen life throws us. Curveballs life is unpredictable. I'Ve been thrown one of the biggest curveballs of my life. You have to adjust to any new reality. That comes your way. I persevered i moved on and i hope you are willing to move forward with me. I have a lot of information to share with you.
Comments
KiKi L: How could we be disappointed?!? Absolutely NOT! We're extremely proud of you for even deciding to share this intimate moment with us. We appreciate you for that!❤
Malia H: Hi, I also have alopecia. I am 14 years old and I went from having thick curly hair to none. This is my first time coming across your channel and I think I was meant to see this video. Tysm ❤️
Malibu Dollface: So sorry this has happened to you. We as people of color are very much attached to our hair for sure, In beauty school is where my education about alopecia began & the understanding of how it can affect ones life from different triggers. I know it’s cliché to say but YOU are beautiful!!! Hair or no hair. Much respect for this honest & powerful moment! ❤️
SoSheDid2: Yes, life does throw curve balls. I remember 10 year ago joining all these blogs and youtube channels being obsessed with growing long natural hair. I was also buying all these hair products until I saw your videos, but then I would think to myself that I should not be too attached to hair because what if I lost it to something like cancer, and sure enough, I was diagnosed with breast ca 10 years later and had to undergo chemo and lost all my hair. I am glad I eventually stopped obsessing over my hair I wear a lot of wigs too. Now I have to focus on what's really important and that is my health and living....Sorry for you hair loss, I really enjoyed, and still do enjoy watching your videos over the years.
chal3t: Been dealing with AA since HS and it’s always been a struggle. Any high stress event can trigger loss cycle. Remember you are beautiful no matter what and you’ve got lots of support!!!
amma2x: My daughter developed circular patches at around 8. We aggressively treated it for years(shots, creams, steroids) with everything the dr could throw at it. When she turned 12 every single hair on her body fell out. So traumatic for her & the family., especially at that age. That was almost 20 years ago, the hair never grew back. Today she is a beautiful, confident accomplished woman with 2 beautiful kids. . I really worked hard to teach her that you just keep moving forward with what you have. Wishing you well on your continued journey.
trhg000: 90 percent of my hair fell out 11 years ago (2011). It was due to stress. So, I can relate. My mother cried and so did I. But God had a plan for me. He had me to go totally natural. It was an adjustment because I had to learn to take care of my 4c hair. He showed me what products to use along with styling. December 2013, my cousin installed my Sisterlocks. I'm now 8 years into my journey and my locks is past mid-back in length. People are intrigued and ask me questions. But praise be to the Most High! Stay encouraged Sista.
Chanel D: i was watching you as a senior in HS, you helped me realize how anemia was affecting my hair, gave great tips (paper towel rollers!!!)and your vibe in general was just bomb. i LOVED watching your videos because you were someone who looked like me on YT. 2020 was truly hell for everyone. but i’m never disappointed. i’m almost 30 now, and still support you and am glad you decided to film and share this video i went through a wave of emotions watching, something about this was so freeing.
Jessica Washington: I just want to take the time to say thank you for being transparent and vulnerable with us. We as women of color get so attached to our hair. I’m just grateful you allowed us to be apart of your journey. Keep shining queen
sunnysideup: I have been following you since I was in high school and I’m 29 years old now. You have helped me so much over the years. I know it can be very hard to have to cut your hair off as a woman in this society. I appreciate your transparency about this issue and we all are here to support you on your journey so long as you’re open to sharing. ❤️
ALEGNA CREATES: Thank God as an adult I am not attached to my own hair or anyones on Youtube to the point of being traumatized because you lost or cut your hair. I lost my hair due to chemo last year (after 8 years natural) and I rocked that wig and headwraps until I had some peach fuzz back *lol Girl we will still be watching. It gives your channel the opportunity to morphe into the next phase in your life. You're still beautiful and I look forward to what you do next.
Teemgee: I had covid Februar -March 2020. It was before it was known that covid could cause hair loss. As I took out my braids so did the hair in my hand. It started to grow back a little after a few weeks then it came out even more and that time I had bald patches. Turns out I was severely anemic. I did have some clumps left then one day I really asked myself why was I holding on to this little bit of hair. It wasn't serving any purpose because I was wearing wigs. I finally shaved it all off and it was a relief, now I wear wigs and wraps. I can't ever wear my hair in a short buzz cut because there are bald patches all over my head. It's an adjustment, even after I did it I still was not psychologically ready. It's been exactly a year and I'm honestly ok with it. Stay strong
Chazi Lee: You've been such a big impact on my natural hair journey love ! I've been natural since 2012 and remember watching your content in the early years. You've been an inspiration to myself and so many women. Thank you for sharing your journey with the world.
Kittysstringsandtingz’s Exotic Lingerie: As a melanated woman with natural long hair I MOURN THE LOSS WITH YOU HOLDING BACK TEARS WATCHING! What I got out of this is no matter what your accustomed too NEVER BE TO COMFORTABLE respect change and when it comes embrace it with Grace and Elegance as you did! Thank you for sharing n I’m traumatized just from watching and it’s not even my hair but MY HAIR IS WHAT MAKES ME UNIQUE IN APPEARANCE AND NO HAIR MAKES YOU UNIQUE TO WITH OR WITHOUT IT GOD IDENTIFIES YOU AS SPECIAL! Now imma go cry in a corner cause I’m the empath who can’t see people go through pain and I feel your pain sincerely! Now I can’t stop crying LOVE YOUR LIFE AND JOURNEY THANK YOU FOR BEING BRAVE! I gotta dry my face imma mess!
MrsPrissy: Thank you for your transparency. By revealing this on your platform; you will help a lot women that may be going through this, but yet don’t know how to accept it or deal with the hair loss. Let your experience be a truck and your knowledge be wheels to drive us to a better understanding of Alopecia. Your hair style ROCKS!!!!!❤️
Lotus-Flower: Sis, Thank you so much for sharing this very intimate season/time with us. We're here for this new journey; looking forward to see the testimonies that will be birthed through this experience......We'll Stay Tuned.
ajcruel: Most of us have setbacks, but you've given a lot of us so much motivation and information, I know you'll come back strong as ever, and we're all still here waiting to see what you've got next for us...❤
Tanya: I’m proud of you being so authentic and honest. You’re helping women of all colors come to terms with alopecia.
blkhollywoodnatural: I was definitely missing you! I am glad to know that you are okay. We’re ready to go on this next journey with you!! So, glad you saved your hair. Can’t wait to see your completed wigs. ❤️❤️
Star Elise: Thank you for sharing this with us. We all have to realize “it’s just hair”…..I recently shaved my hair off due to damage from coloring and it was SO LIBERATING and I felt so beautiful
TeinciLove: I am glad you made this. Last year, I was very sick with a rare condition. The doctors warned me I would most likely lose my hair and nails. I have longer hair (and you were an inspiration!) and I realized how attached I was to my hair. I realized how much having long hair affected my self-esteem. So thank you for being brave and sharing. It is so difficult emotionally.
Tye pretty girl: I cried watching this, I've binge watched your hair videos for so long. You are so strong for sharing this♡
Chick N Coop: I had to just face facts that it's happening to me too due to PCOS. I still wanna hold on to what I have by trying to cover, get coverage...but, I DEFINITELY appreciate your journey. Hopefully, one day, I'll find this type of courage. We aren't our hair.
Robin Heater: Omg! I cannot tell you how much this has helped me. Anyone that is disappointed with you, is crazy!! You are beautiful no matter what your hair looks like. Thank you for sharing something so personal
Shae: I feel like I caught the hints over the years and even still it's shocking lol. I'm sorry you have to be facing this. Thank you for sharing with us how you're going to face this new journey. I already know you can rock whatever hairstyle, so looking forward to it! Also, thanks to your anemia videos from a while ago, that was the first time I really connected that my terrible anemia was what was causing my hair issues that I was facing at the time. I look forward to video two, because whatever triggered this had to truly be major. Blessings to you!
brenee82: My mom lost all of her hair when she was 12. I’ve never seen her without a wig or a scarf on. I didn’t even know she wore one until some kids teased me about it in elementary school. A lot of people throw on wigs and don’t think much about it, but it’s a lot to deal with when you’re trying to hide something that’s out of your control. I’m glad you’re talking about this because a lot of people suffer in silence and end up holding themselves back from living trying to hide it. I look forward to following your journey!❤️
Queen E: I never comment but I have been following you for years. I’m so proud of you and how brave you have been during this whole ordeal. I am still a big fan and you will always be my number one hair guru. Life has happened and you are setting a great example by moving forward. Much love to you and can’t wait to see what you do next on your journey.
Macy Apple: I remember the anemia video and it was encouraging that you bounced back from that. I had the same issue at that time but struggled much longer with shedding and sometimes want to cut mine off. When I saw this video in my feed my heart sank with sorrow. Thank you for sharing your hair journey and experiences. Hair loss videos videos are not as popular but just as helpful for so many. I’m sure you will have continued and new support of your channel or future endeavors. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe you will be the new face or CEO of a hair company!
Original Goddess: Peace Love and Light I’m glad you had the courage to take that step Sis. I also suffer with Alopecia and with educating myself I found that it’s a under going issue in the body. The nervous system is compromised meaning I was eating foods that caused my body to be full of acids which caused my hair to shed and bald in different areas. Also stress is a major factor. So I changed my diet completely to plant based and fruits. I take a lot of holistic herbs and my hair is growing back. Don’t give up.
Ulonda Brazzle: I have been following you since the beginning and last year I was diagnosed with CCCA. We’re in this together, sis!
Shaquita Briellard: I'm so proud of you for how well you took it. I did take the hints and have been sending well wishes. I appreciate your willingness to share something so personal. Much love and hugs! ❤
Kayla Nicole: You have influenced so many things about my hair journey and how I care for my hair. Your decision to not follow everyone else’s hair rules was the greatest impact of them all. I’m tuning in. As always
BusiChanel: My love, I have been a follower of you since in my early 30’s and we are with you, my daughter is affected by this. My daughter dealt with alopecia all through her early 20’s. She would have huge clean bald spots in her head. My mother told us that she suffered from it in her early twenties. It’s been over a year since she has had an aoloecia episode. We have come to learn that it was triggered by hormonal and immune response.
Rai.SoLovely: You’re so beautiful. This is both the beginning and an end of an era (I’ve been watching you since like middle/high school). I’m proud of you for embracing yourself as you are. It’s such a journey. It’s crazy your foresight in this situation and how you prepared for it! That’s a whole other level!
Jettie: I’ve been watching your channel since 2010. I was living across the bridge from you , and felt so inspired by your videos. You’ve taught me so much about hair over the years and I appreciate you sharing so much with us. I can’t wait to watch your new videos ! Thank you
Anne Smith: Omg! My heart breaks thinking about how you must have felt when this was all happening. Thank you for sharing your story. With or without hair, you are absolutely STUNNING inside and out. Sending you so much love ❤
Andrea: You’re still crushing all of the beauty goals! You handled it like a boss. I admire your centeredness.
Ene: You are a brave and lovely woman. I've had alopecia since I was 12. It's been 24 years of hair loss from my scalp, eyebrows, eyelashes and body. It's brutal for a woman going through this. I'm proud of your courage in dealing with this and sharing it with the world.
Aicha Gamal: I am proud of you on how you approached the matter and mentally preparing for this. I know events can get the best of us and it's the way our body reacts when something affect us (every time I get mad about my situation, POUF ! No edges ! Even after I grew few of them last summer with Minoxidil). I hope you continue to inspire us because alopecia doesn't minimize your worth not a slight bit ❤❤.
MorganCultura: Your channel has been a blessing to many, myself included! I have watched you for years and the education that you have provided throughout the years has always been so appreciated. The learning continues and I am ready to join you on this journey. You are inspirational and your transparency beautiful. Thank you for sharing of yourself for so many years. We are with you!
Chocolate Kool-aid: OMG, my heart goes out to you I’ve been watching you since like 2014, I cried when you was cutting it. It’s ok sis we love you and you’re beautiful and an inspiration to us all
Ms Ms: I am not disappointed at all, just sorry you went through a traumatic event. You're beautiful with short or long hair. I am very happy that you are ok. We're here for you.
Shina J: Hello sis, I just found you as a suggested watch in my feed. I have been living with alopecia for over 10 years. I appreciate you putting this video of your reality up for all of us. I'm sorry that you also have to go through this. I'll be following you now. You've helped me emotionally just watching you handling your hair. Thanks sis. My name is Shina, I'm from Philly but currently living in Henrico VA.
Dawn Hewitt - The Gluten-Free Girl: I totally feel you, I have struggled with alopecia areata at least 6 times in my life it is soul crushing. In my particular case I finally discovered that I have chronic inflammation which manifests as graves disease which can cause alopecia. Working on healing the inflammation is resulting in healthier follicles thàt can once again produce robust strands of hair. I realize everyone's situation is different tho and that the most important thing is to be able to be at peace with oneself despite whatever our hair is doing. You are brave and strong!
Pr3tty Plus: We still support you percent. Your hair may grow back, as I have seen in other persons dealing with alopecia; but even if it does not, your continued journey is still worth sharing 1) for your own therapy; 2) for those suffering from alopecia; and 3) to bring about greater empathy and social awareness. Thank you for always being so open and honest with us.
Scorpio10 L: You handled this amazingly and thank you for having the strength to share your journey … as long as you are ok and pushing through it that’s all that matters
Waina Way: Hey happy to see you back. I’m been following you cause like you I inherited alopecia from my dad and his side of his family as well. Thanks for sharing your story. I’m just trying to plant my seed to do the same. So far I’ve only shared my story with close friends and family. ❤️
uhhuh hunnie: I have been subbed to your channel for years!!!!! Love how you’re handeling the change! I’m learning to preserve and adapt to change currently in my life! This video is just another sign to keep going! Thanks for sharing your journey with us! You’re still beautiful’ ❤️
Londa Fine: You’re so brave and I am so sorry you have to go through this, and we’re not disappointed with you at all. You’re an inspiration and role model to many going through the same thing you just helped someone girl. So don’t apologize to anyone because you owe no one an explanation you’re so beautiful and we love you. Thank you for sharing your experience, God bless you.
Temniy Shokolad: I freaking love you! The way you have prepared yourself for this and the thoughtfulness that you put into presenting this to your fans is beyond beautiful. Although I don't have this condition, I am still here to support you through this. And I agree, when life takes us in a direction that we may not have wanted, we adjust and keep it going. Your community loves you and you are not alone in this. Keep your head up sis. ❤️
April D: Girl you killed it as always! You inspired me to go natural, and to aim for waist length. This wasn't a choice you had to do what you had to do. Your good spirit and your knowledge is what I've always loved and I will still be tuning in Thank you for always keeping it Real Sista I admire you for that cause you could have just stop YouTube and we wonder what happened to you.
Tamika Scales: Jada Pinkett has been sharing her journey with alopecia and I can’t think of any other black women as of late who has done so but I think it’s an issue some of us are or will deal with that we don’t talk about enough. I think education and awareness are so important. Thank you for sharing this with us
nharp374: Praying for you girl! I love your perseverance and attitude. Very inspiring ❤️
Lovely T: I have been watching you for years. I appreciate your transparency, your content and for you being you! I appreciate your positivity! I am definitely not disappointed in you! Thank you for sharing your story and journeys with us! Wishing you much peace and blessings!❤️
KidzRRelevant2: From a proud alopecia victim (since 18 now a senior) I am blessed and inspired today after watching this powerful video! You are helping more people than you will ever know...Ms. Tina
DPrincess28: Wow sis. I've been following you for years and never saw this coming. You are absolutely beautiful, and I greatly admire your courage, strength, and resiliency. You are NOT your hair! Lots of women suffer from alopecia, and it is absolutely devastating. You handled this like a G, and will serve as a great blessing to so many others. I still look forward to following you on your journey, whatever that may be. You are a YouTube O.G., and I appreciate the way you've remained humble, true and authentic since day 1! Love & blessings always.
LORI COLE: So very proud of your courage in sharing with us all. I’m praying for you regarding the PTSD. I recently had a horrific loss in my life that I’m still trying to process. Different experiences I’m sure but definitely sending love and prayers your way.
Janet White: Oh wow, my heart actually raced when I saw the title. First, I have to say thank God it's not something worse, even though I understand the shock and hurt given what you and your channel represented in the last decade. Most of your subscribers hung on your every video. We were with you on that journey then, and we'll be here on your new journey now. Now some of your old vids make sense, why you never took the whole natural hair movement too seriously and just enjoyed your hair. ❤️❤️
rose violet: Alopecia is the devil. My mother has it too from years of stress, health issues, and I constantly worry about her and as well for my hair too. I lost the hair around my edges from anemia deficiency and it's slowly but surely still trying to come back even after being natural for five years. You can't always tell someone "It's just hair," because you never know how a person may feel in this point of time. Hair is a part of our identity. You wouldn't tell a person who is about to lose a leg that "it's just a leg?" I'm sorry that you have to go through this, sistawithrealhair.
itsnotme itsyou: I'm so sorry this happened to you. I've been watching you for years and this scares me because I struggle with trichotillomania and I mainly pull out my edges and I'm very bald in some areas currently. I always do this when the stress from school is high but on school breaks I let it grow back in and its taking longer than ever to now which had me searching up articles on hair loss and how to know if it's permanent. I have waistlength transitioning hair (stopped relaxing in 2020) and I'm extremely attached to it despite the fact that I pull out my edges. Seeing this vid is like a warning to me, I legit felt my stomach drop looking at the thumbnail. Wishing you all the best for this new chapter in your life. Will be here to witness this new path in your journey.♥️
noooooooooooooooooo: I just discovered this channel and you are absolutely beautiful before and after your experience with alopecia. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, it’s a privilege. The fact that people might have been upset about you cutting your hair due to these circumstances… shoot even if you didn’t have alopecia is dare I say crazy! You cutting your hair is your business. While you’ve been sharing your beautiful journey with the internet for what seems like a while, you should be able yo cut your hair and not feel any anger/disappointment directed at you from complete strangers. Like you said life happens. I know we as black women have an extreme attachment to our hair because of our history especially in this country. But we have to interrogate that especially if those feelings are leading you to be upset with this woman clearly dealing with trauma in the way that’s best for her!
Sonya Barnes: You are beautiful with or without your hair, and thanks for being so transparent in sharing your journey!! Have you ever considered dietary changes that may be beneficial for alopecia? I’m studying integrative nutrition and got into it from researching my own issues. Happy to help if you’re interested!
almondyJoy: Sis, we are all called to new beginnings. We live our lives in seasons and this is just a new beginning of a different season for you. Own it...control it and rock it! I am so proud of you for having the courage to be transparent. Love you sis and God bless you ❤
Luan Minitti: I don’t want this to come off as rude and diminutive but I’m so glad it’s just alopecia. Of course, I can’t imagine the stress you went through following your discovery and I applaud you for being able to achieve true peace with your life moving forward. I was concerned the matter was life-threatening. A woman posted a comment on your previous video explaining her experience with family members going through chemo and you hearted the comment. I was very concerned you had received a cancer diagnosis and did not want to tell us because you did not want to upset us. I actually lost a little sleep last night thinking about your pain and praying for your safety. I’m so happy you’re okay and I’ll continue to keep you in my prayers and my subscription list. Looking forward to this next chapter :)
LaMonica Johnson: First and foremost I am so thankful that it isn't a life threatening situation, and that your health for the most part is okay. I'm very thankful for that. I on the other hand had completely forgotten about alopecia being a cause for sevete hair loss. I will say though...girl, you ROCK! I told you before you are what? You are a strong WOman! Don't ever forget that when you take a glimpse in the mirror and start feeling sorry for yourself. You coming forth with this information will hopefully inspire someone else with the same condition to know that it's not the hair that makes them but what's inside of them, inside of their heart. That what makes them is how they treat others, being kind and generous. That what makes them is how hard they try in life, not just in the face of others but when no one is watching. Coming out with no hair and remaining strong, being humble, and knowing that God is the one who shows grace and mercy everyday. Sure some are going to criticize you but this is YOUR life plain and simple. Thank you for showing us that when faced with adversity, we do have choices. You, being so brave, made a difficult one. But that's just it too. It was YOUR choice. We love you girl and we hear you once more. Roar on Sista!!
JustThatGirl: Thank you so much for sharing this. I've been feeling down about my hair and this helped me feel better. I'm in awe that you had the foresight to save your shed hair! Such a brilliant idea Please don't apologize, this is such a personal thing and we're fortunate you even decided to share it. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this and I hope you find peace with the situation.
Michelle: **New subscriber here** Thank you for sharing this video, I’m not sure how it landed in my feed but I’m glad it did. This was heartbreaking & encouraging to watch. As women we love our hair & admire others with full beautiful curly or straight strands. To wake up one day with close to nothing is a terribly tough pill to swallow. I’m currently experiencing hair loss due to PCOS & postpartum from birth. Those that are familiar with PCOS are aware of the changes that are associated with PCOS. I look forward to learning more about your journey & so glad to see this type of transparency on social media. Blessings to you hon
Jess Alexander: I've been following you for the beginning and admire how strong you are and decision to remain transparent. Our hair carries so much of our identity we all would take this news dif. I lost a huge patch of hair (bald/only skin) in the center of my head after holding on to a traumatic experience i let plague me. I'm dealing with it and have found strength in it & seeing other strong beautiful queens prevail!
Swann Smith: I've been following you for a while and this was in fact a shocker. The way you handled this is so impressive and encouraging even for people going through other life issues. Thanks for sharing and encouraging others!
RaShonda Danielle: I had a friend dealing with this… we prayed and fasted. I’m happy to say that her scalp has been healed and her hair is growing! I believe can be your testimony, too
Liz: Just want to say I admire your strength Sis. You said at the end that life throws you curve balls and is unpredictable but you have to learn to adjust to the new reality, . If I were to gain anything from this video this it is. Love your positivity and I appreciate you❤️
flava1969: I have enjoyed your videos throughout the years and my grandmother had alopecia and always wore wigs. I often wondered which side the genetics would take with me my Dad who has male pattern baldness or my mother. i want to send you so much support because I have a friend who has gone through this journey and she is very uncomfortable. I recently lost a ton of hair after many years in a stressful line of work especially at my last permanent job plus a personal relationship. I was stunned at the hair loss because I could never tell it was always left in its natural state. I tracked my hair through so many photos of the back of my head. I felt so obsessed. Now when a stylist informs me they need to cut. I am okay because I am so detached from it. I think because I am bit lazy in that department and books are the only thing that motivates me. Lol. I never enjoyed doing my hair and have always watched your informative videos. You are so beautiful and we are proud of you. I do follow Dr. Berg and as soon as I watched your video this popped up. Wow. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iS00UfjoMXo. I Dr. Berg's videos have helped me lose weight, begin the journey of growing my hair back and getting healthy internally. I wish you the best and I will definitely keep watching you. You have an important message to share. I appreciate your bravery. You are inspiring and you are not alone. Best
Marie Smith: I have never identified myself by my hair, I chop it off all the time out of boredom. But I can empathize and understand what you were feeling when you discovered having alopecia, as well as trying to learn how to love yourself in the new view.
Monica Hicks: Thank you for having the courage to share your hair journey. You are an amazing woman! To be able to endure this while being cognizant enough to plan, prepare, adapt, and share your adaptations with us is remarkable!
Crystal B: So sorry to hear this. Glad you’re doing better now. Looking forward to following this next chapter in your journey ♥️
Latriise: Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry to hear this happened. I went through a health crisis in 2016 that caused about 70% of my hair to fall out (as you know, large clumps of hair being pulled out with little effort is very disturbing). And even when it started to come back it's never been the same. Then I had another crisis in 2021 that caused 60% to fall out (just as I had been getting my hair closer to normal). I cried, of course. But like you said, we have to be able to move forward. The calm strength you showed in this video was very encouraging. I've been watching your videos for many years. And it's your personality and creativity that keep me coming back. And neither of those things have changed. So, hair or no hair, I'm going to continue watching and supporting.
kxlot79: So brave to share such intimacy with the internet!!! And your persevering confidence inspires millions that they are beautiful regardless of the external packaging! Looking forward to *ALL* your new content, OG!
CarlaBurrel Music: I’m just glad to know your ok. The last video broke my heart hearing the heaviness in your voice. The same thing actually happened to my mom after the loss of her mother. It was devastating as well. I’m glad to hear you in good spirits. And I’ll be coming along on this new journey
Cenique: This is powerful! I hope you realize just how amazing you are! You’ve helped a ton of people being transparent opening up and sharing your journey. We are here for you no matter what. You are Beautiful inside and out, hair or no hair!❤️
Alitra Wynn: Great video, as usual!☺ Thank you for sharing your story. Seeing you handle this the way you have will be a strength for someone else. You don't owe anyone an apology for what you do to and with YOUR hair, period. I like when you are able to and do post regularly as I enjoy your videos a lot! Thank you for sharing your story with us!❤
Kesha Hunt: So many women go through hair loss for different reasons, I recently started losing hair too and cut it bold a few months back and turns out I have PCOS but I have been learning so much from research and different ways to get your hair back and healthier, most of what I have learned that's starting to work for me now came from another YouTube channel titled HairScripts by Bevy who shares tips and info on growing hair based on facts/studies no matter what caused it to fall out, it all starts with working from inside and outside
TheMb2114: You are the reason I know how to do my hair. Thank you for your strength and courage to share this with us. I’m sure this is going to encourage someone and I hope whatever trauma you went through is a thing of the past. You are on beautiful no matter what your head looks like
T W: I have to admit, I was a little panicked at first when I saw your previous video. I feared the worst. Not that alopecia is not terrible, but I was scared that it was something worse. You have always been hair AND beauty goals for me. I admire your courage. Thanks for your inspiration, you (still) gorgeous lady. ♥️
DevaJones03: I remember when ayanna pressley talked about her alopecia and when she cut her hair. My first reaction was damn she's even more gorgeous without the hair. I had the same reaction when i saw your video. I think sometimes women and men have an unhealthy attachment to things. Hair being one of them. Im very interested to see your journey going forward and the valuable info you provide. I think it's much needed this topic isn't talked about enough. Congrats queen no sorrow from me glad you're back and keep the crown held high.
BELIEFS MANIFESTED : Wow. I have watched you for years now...about the time you first started. I am so sorry you're going through this. You are so brave and mature about this. I'm proud of you. You have turned into another Avenue in your life's journey, and we will be here to experience it with you, Sis.
Homegirl Locker Room: I have been batteling Alopecia anemia since I was in the 5th grade. I had long pretty hair just like you. I was teased so bad when I would try to cover my bald spots with my hair pulled up in a ponytail. Your story has encourage me to embrace it and live in it.
MsLiddy: Sista, you are beautiful and strong. I've been dealing with alopecia since 2012. I remember feeling like a dog chasing its tail. I would see bald spots then the hair grew back, and bald spots would pop up somewhere else. I began getting shots in my head and after a while I just told the doctor that I wanted to stop. I accepted the fact that alopecia was a part of my life. Thank you so much for sharing.
Dorea Fitzgerald: Thanks for sharing with us. My now 10 yr old has been going through this since early 2020 and it was hard being the one to see her hair coming out in clumps on wash day and hiding my sadness from her. Thank God I have instilled confidence in her because it’s not a big deal to her. We made a drastic diet change and see a dermatologist who specializes in hair loss who prescribed a topical jak inhibitor. She went from about 70-80% loss to having a mini fro within a year. Healing it starts from within for some. Good luck on your journey and you are amazing!
Darlene M. Scott: Sometimes alopecia occurs with autoimmune diseases. I have an autoimmune disease and alopecia and lichen planus of the scalp. I have bald spots on the left side and I cut those locs off (about five of them). Eventually, I might have to shave one side of my head or the whole thing and your video is so inspirational. Thank you for your transparency. I think that you sharing helps us to all come forward. Thanks sis! You are still amazing and beautiful as ever!
T Bott: So many women are going through this more than we know. Thanks for sharing your experience! God Bless your journey! ♥️
Bijyo: Stress is such a silent attacker and silent killer in some cases. I was in a stressful living arrangement a few years ago but thought I was fine. The random bald spot I developed at the front of my head told me I was NOT fine. I would say the same about the autoimmune disease I suddenly developed the lockdowns. I definitely believe stress was a major factor in that. Sigh. I have long hair that I am VERY attached to because I feel it is like the only thing in my life I can do right and that I can count on. Truly, if I were in your situation, discovering that my hair was falling out, I would’ve suffered an absolute meltdown—the likes of which would’ve had my neighbors calling the police to stop the screaming. You are a very strong lady. I’m happy that you have the comfort of still being able to wear your own hair. God bless ❤️
Woman Meets World: I have alopecia as well and I am so confused . My hair still grows but like the crown of my head and edges are extremely thin Thank you for sharing this journey. It helps me feel less alone. Sending love ! I've had anemia my entire life and I don't know if it is just that or stress and other factors. Thank you again.
ਪੋਸਟ ਮਲੋਨ ਇੱਕ ਅਜੀਬ ਗਧਾ ਹੈ: i have alopecia and i thought my world had ended and I had to snap back to reality that there are others out there worse off than I am at that moment and time...Cancer, Aids, all types of terminally ill diseases that won;t live to see the next day and here I am healthy and they would trade with me with a snap of a finger of what I am going through just to live ..PERIODT!!! Mine started when i hit menopause...but now its growing back longer but the edges are still bald...as long as you have your health you have many options out there for your situation..Love you and you look beautiful...
JLOVE🤎: I have had alopecia in the past and I was devastated, so I know that dreaded feeling and it is a long waiting game wondering if your hair will ever grow back but you are beautiful and there are so many alternative hair options that you are rocking beautifully life has to be lived beautifully and you can inspire others that although you may be losing your hair, you must never lose who you are because you are brave, courageous and you have helped many already. I have admiration and respect for you x
Dominique McDonald: Hi there. I also have alopecia and it is rough. I know that from a societal standpoint it is much worse for women to have to deal with it but as a man it has taken a psychological toll on me because like you said our hair is such a huge representation of who we are. Thank you for sharing this.
Rose-Angelie DePond: I found your videos interesting when I was just starting to grow my hair, even though my hair type is different. Now it's long but I never ever straighten it though. Well for anyone reading, it's been proven that heat styling can cause permanent follicle damage, so it's best to leave your hair in its natural texture. If the follicles are damaged, the hair may not grow back. I'm saying this so it might help someone.
M. P.: Hi Sissy, I am sorry this happened. We shared similar experiences with the anemia. At that time, my hair literally turned a different texture and started coming out right after getting my iron infusions. Those of us who love and admire you are still here and stand with you. You are resilient and will bounce back from this. Keep Rising! ❤❤❤
Kiyoncé Kartier: I remember watching you way way way back in the day and wanting hair like yours. Okay, you have alopecia now..so what?! Lol happy that you’re embracing this. Good thing is that with alopecia, you don’t have to worry about wig glue taking out your hairline and that within itself is freeing lol
Naturally U Neik: Appreciate you opening up. I've had very thin edges (about 1' to 2' inches of my hairline since I went natural. Currently 6 years natural. One side is much thinner than the other to the point where my scalp is completely visible. I tried almost every natural hair remedy and still failed to thicken my edges. At the age of 25 it makes uncomfortable. But also I realize the hair practice mistakes I made that got me to this point. High School years I was reckless with my relaxed hair. Tight pony tails and buns, straightening certain parts of my hair every week. Not even realizing that my hair my receding and thinning out. Though I haven't done those tight hair styles for the past 4 years, my hairline is still thin.