Chit Chat Grwm: Taking Breaks | Putting Your Mental Health First | Choosing Yourself Ft Sowigs

Take it away, take it away feeling too good to me. Hey my lovers, hate my loves, hey, my loves. Welcome back to my channel, i'm vivillo k. If you are new - and you are all welcome - welcome, we only have two roles in this family. One you have to subscribe and two, please don't skip ads so yeah. I missed you guys. It'S been a while, since i said hi guys, hey my loves, like it's been a while um i've been quite sick, i've been suffering from tonsils and i don't know if it also turned into a flu or whatever, but yeah i've been getting a lot of bed. Rest sleeping drinking medication, drinking the pills that is supposed to pop them, whatever i do not know, but i feel a lot better and because jobby job money's got to be made. So i really have to shoot this video and i was like to myself um. I'M not in the mood to just sit here and just do a hair video, so i thought why not do something and it's been a while, since i also talked to you guys, like a little girl church, you know like so yeah. I just wanted to come on here and just chat to you guys, i'm not feeling well guys. I'M not gon na lie physically mentally everything. I just feel like i'm in the pits i am down. I i am i'm just down. Everything is just done. I feel like i'm, i'm also suffering from yeah and fatigue in april. I don't know if i'm the only one that's getting there um. I was looking at la mesa's statuses and she wrote that we can't complain for being overbooked or having a lot of work, because we prayed for days like this and then that's when i woke up. I was like you know what people stop being ungrateful. I know you're sick and all that you're in the pits, but i prayed for such days whereby i know i have work whereby i know i money will be coming in so without any hassles and daily daily. I thought i would just come and talk to you guys and she, like you, know, just like a sister talking to you guys, whatever, if rakadi and my sister a little sister big sister. It doesn't matter but we're just gon na chat. But we do not just chat because we're on the job um, i'm gon na - be reviewing hair from so wigs, and this is how the paintings came, don't mind, my nail came out and they were kind enough to send me. They are body wave guys. I love body waves so much, but maintaining them for me is a lot and it also came with this limp flat on how to take out the hair and, let's see the hair itself, how it looks um. They also gave me a little pin there and this is a 20 inch, brazilian virgin human hair and it's a body wave, i'm glad it's long and it's a 4x4 as you can see, it's machine made pre-plugged because honey i'm not about to go in and do I love that the clothes are all ready, so i'm scared that if i comb it out, i will take out the curls and i will have to redo the curls and, to be quite honest, i don't want to do that. So i'm gon na have to be super careful working out the curls and i love how neat it is on the inside super neat and, as you can see, it has adjustable bands to fit your head size and yeah guys um. As we all know, four by fours i'm making a comeback, because life is just too hectic to be laying everything but yeah they're, making a comeback, and i love that so yeah without any further ado. Let'S get into the video now that i've showed you guys, the hair and everything about the hair will be in the description box, how to purchase the hair and if you watch until the end, i have a discount code for you, as always so yeah um. First things: first, i'm gon na put on a wig cap over my hair. My hair is so clean. It looks so good, it's insane, so i'm just gon na put on a wig cap. It'S so tight, it's insane just so that the hair is laid because i do not have my cornrows and i'm just gon na push it a little bit. Just like that. Hey lion gang hairline gang, as you can see, i'm kidding i am kidding i'm kidding. What'S next um yeah and then i'm gon na go in with my got to be blasting free spray just so that i can yeah. I don't want to use glue because it's a 4x4, so you can get what i'm talking about so yeah guys - and i say this is a chitchat um. I think the most important thing i want to talk about is taking breaks, knowing when to take a break in life and knowing when to rest like. I think i suffered from that for the longest time, because i've been so obsessed with taking out content or there's got to be content. I'Ve got to be busy with something i've got like it's been something. That'S always on my mind. I have to be busy with something and over time i feel like it messes up with my mental health, because i'm so caught up on trying so hard to push out content, but don't get me wrong. I love creating content and as much as youtube is my only not really my only source of income, but i feel like it's the only big income that i have through the hair videos. So what i mean by that i mean that me doing these hair videos. It'S what the mo it's where the most money comes from. I don't i don't know if it makes sense but yeah besides the vlogs and everything but the hair videos, it's where the money, the most money comes from. So, as i said even now, i'm for not that i'm forced, but because of it's my job, i really have to do it and you have to be grateful for such things and keep on pushing but also know when you need time tourist um. I have not done anything in two weeks i think, or a week the last. What is that, why such sounds when i'm about to shoot? What is that shock so yeah um? The last time i picked up this camera was on my birthday. That was the last time it was on the 20th of march. Since then, i have not shot any content and to be i'm quite shocked, because i didn't think i needed this break as much as i didn't plan it. God was like you need it, you need it shout because you've been overworking yourself and, to be quite honest, i've neglected some parts of my life. I'M not gon na lie to a point whereby i'm so used to the camera being around that i'm always filming everything and i forget to enjoy other aspects of my life and neglecting other aspects of my life. For example, i have not been to gym. I don't know in how many months - and it's messing up with my mental health - i think i've said this before that. I'M one person that whenever i go to gym working out, makes my mental health stable. I i'm not that much fragile when i go to gym and i'm able to control my emotions towards things that are happening around me. I don't know if that makes sense, but yeah gym really is something that really helps me in life. I'M not gon na lie. So, for me not to be able to go now, it's it's kind of it. It shows it. I'M not gon na lie. It shows the slightest thing. I'M like this guy, like it's in that the next moment. I'M sad the next moment, i'm happy it's it's just mixed emotions all around and it's a roller coaster, i'm like what the hell is going on. I could get bomb after bomb and i'm like i know. I know what the medicine is. It'S gym so yeah i'm. I really have to, i really have to start taking breaks. I'M not gon na lie, so i really feel like breaks are important in life as much as now we know when you're in school. You have a timetable. You go to class, you have a first break. Go to class second break go to class after school. You get, i think it makes sense, so i'm gon na put on the wig now i feel like the fluids. All right. So, as i was saying, breaks are very important in life and i've been neglecting that part of my life of taking breaks because i've only i'm always feeling that thing that if i take a break, let me move backwards, um, don't mind my voice. As i said, i was suffering from tonsils. I still am suffering from tonsils, so breaks are highly a highly highly like it's mandatory to have breaks because i feel like i was also crashing. I'M not gon na oh child drama. Give me drama baby. I feel like. I was also crashing in a way - and i didn't wan na admit it - i'm not gon na lie. I didn't want to okay where's that comb that i had okay i'll use this brush. I didn't want to admit that you know what this time i am crashing and i need to lay low like i need to lay low, but me being the the perfectionist that i'm always am the hard worker that i always am. I'Ve been pushing myself and it kind of got to a point whereby i'm like i i even started thinking, should i even continue with this content creation thing, because i was talking to a friend of mine and was that thing out. I felt like my work was becoming a deja vu like it was repetitive and she was like to me. What do you want to do? Do you want to climb a house where i climb a tree and i'm like not in that way, but i feel like yes, i'm doing the same thing: it's either i'm at home or i'm lunching. You know it's becoming something that everybody knows. Okay, if she's not doing this she's gon na, do this it's like i'm becoming predictable. So that's another thing i want to say for you see, because i'm not going to gym now. My mind is playing mind games with me, so yeah taking breaks is important guys. I know i chose this life of being a content creator and i promised to serve you guys with content. Why are you, but at some point you just have to take care of your mental health and really get back to the drawing board and start seeing what really matters youtube matters. But you cannot fully be yourself and create great content if you are not mentally physically. Everything stable you get on saying, i'm not saying you only have to put out content when you are at the peak of your life when you're happy, but at the same time also, if, if i'm sad guys what what what positiveness will i spread you get um. It'S it's it's it's the same as saying um people are always showing their good sites on social media. For me, it's a good thing. If i'm feeling down today - and i see a fellow youtuber doing something like you know what you actually motivated me, you can't be motivated by someone who's down like who's in the pit, guys, let's just be realistic with one another. So also again, that's what i'm saying, but i feel like. I am not i'm not helping with anything, because now, honestly guys, let me get my thing honestly. My prayer is god use me guide me like i feel like god cannot use me. If, then, i'm not at my best and when i say he must use me, i mean in a way not that i'm gon na come here and preach and whatever know i'm not a preacher. But there's ways in in whereby you can reach out to people by just being yourself by just being authentic by just spreading out positivity and you in most cases i would get like dms people saying when are you posting your vlogs? Make me feel like life? Is going to get beat like it's such messages that get me that that's when i know god is really using me, that's something it's not a matter of. I have to come here and preach, but me just being here and being myself and being authentic and being positive it it also rubs off on you. You also feel that thing out if people are looking she's, just really trying just really try. As i said this year has really hit me like especially my birthday made me realize that okay, i'm this age and i have not accomplished one two, three one, two three and it made me realize that when people started dm me saying no, you know because i Felt like maybe i'm like my peers, are way ahead of me and people started gaming me saying no, don't feel like like jose, everyone has their own journey and you being yourself in jail. Some of us can relate. Some of us can relate. Some of us are graduates, we're not working. Some of us are really trying with this youtube thing. It'S not working like it resonates with a lot of people, and i get that but also hence i'm saying taking breaks it's important because of. If i don't take a break, then i'm gon na come here being all and it's it's not nice. I'M not gon na lie, it's not nice um. Should i tie this or right. It is not nice. I'M not gon na lie, so i am really. Although the funny thing is my break, it's it's not even a month or something like that. The funny thing also is even i could wake up tomorrow and start vlogging, and that is perfectly fine. I feel like i took that break that i needed um. I also went out the mukha taka. I don't know if you follow me on instagram, of which you should i went out. La muhatara went out for a brunch date um. It was weird because i'm used to vlogging every outing of hours so lena. He was like this feels different because i'm used to your camera, being you talking to the camera so yeah, i i enjoyed that. I'M not gon na lie. I enjoyed staring in his eyes and yeah. So that's what i'm saying um some of the things you miss out on life because of your trying too hard, and you miss out on opportunities that are meant for me for you, because you're focusing on things that are very far from you, um, so yeah i've. I'Ve enjoyed my time and i'll be back, but that's not the more of the story. The moral of the story here is it's important to take breaks, guys or else you'll crash. It'S important because, at the end of the day, if you don't put your mental health first, even if it's not mental health, physical health, anything, how will you go about life if you're not fully? Recharged fully like i don't know how to explain this, but i feel like you should take care of your self first before taking care of other people, of which some of us it's hard. Because muhammad has this thing. You are always thinking about other people and when i you don't use your own advice and you don't take care of yourself, you'd only say no, let me do this for you, but then, when someone wants to do something for you like nah, i've got this. I guess it's just a character thing, i'm just like that, but i think at this point i i'm starting to be more open into that thing. Yeah, i'm allowing people to do things for me to help me, because at some stage you cannot mo tu moto gamatu guys you cannot do things all on your own and it messes up with your mental health. I'M not gon na lie so honestly. Those past two weeks has taught me that my mental health comes first and i'm gon na start, putting my fault my and i'm gon na stop putting myself first second time and i'm gon na start putting my first my self first. Why is that a tongue twister? So should i put water on this course, i think i will so yeah guys um. I'Ve really enjoyed the time out, although it was not time out day and then the beach chile. It was time out because i was in bed, you see even now. My nose is like it's starting to clog and yeah um. That'S what i'm trying to get across and that put yourself first, because guys can we discuss this hair and sing. It'S still a bit wet, but it will get alright, but you won't. Let me what did i say about black hair black hair gives me that i run this tongue. Vamp um. As i said guys, this is a 20 inch body wave deep, wave, um 180 density. I love how the coals bounced back and it's from so wigs and i have a discount code for you. You get to save ten dollars of your next order. If you use the code dk10 but 10bk10, so yeah guys um cheers to putting ourselves first cheers to putting our mental, our physical, our emotional everything, health first and putting ourselves first, because we are the queens that we think we are and yeah guys. I will see you in my next video. I hope it's a vlog. I will try to vlog, but knowing myself i will vlog. I will definitely vlog because it's my life, you know so yeah guys cheers to putting ourselves and cheers to winning and cheers to working hard and being productive, yeah guys i'll see in my next video love. You always make me feel like okay,