How I Overcame My Insecurities Ft Water Curls Wig From Beaufox Hair

Hey guys so today i'm going to be getting ready. I'Ve actually done my makeup and i'm going to be styling my hair with this hair that i just got from blue fox hair or is it beaufox hair? Then i'm also going to be discussing with you guys how i went from you know, being an extra being a waka pass to now being you know the main character so now channeling main character: energy, okay, yes, so um i'll discuss that while i style this hair, I'M going to leave the link to this hand, everything in the description box. I'M actually really excited to try this hair, because it's quite short, i think this is the shortest wig i have ever owned, so yeah inside the pack. It came with this brown wig cap. I really love this because i hardly see wig caps of this color. I really like the fact that they added this brown nigerian scalp or nigerian um color wig cap, and then this is the hair, so yeah, this hair is actually a hundred and eighty density. It is four by four closure and it is a water. Coily bulb. Okay, i've never had short hair like this, so i'm really excited to try it out, like i'm, really really excited so yeah. This is a closure. It is a four by four closure and yeah. This is what the wig looks like. It looks like something that's going to be very easy to wear and install and just keep moving okay, because we don't have time to be wasting time. Okay, i need something that is very simple: i'm going to be traveling soon, so i need something. That'S very, very simple that i can just put on my head and be going yeah. You can style it different ways. You can curl it for that. You can straighten it, you can bleach it. You can do whatever you want to this hair, but i really love watercolors, like they're, always very, very easy to maintain they're easier to maintain than most of the other. You know curly, hair out there so yeah. I love it. Okay, let me start trying it on, but i need to color this list a bit like. I said, i'm going to keep putting link to everything in the description box, so you can go and check it out. Um. Let me just color this lizzy beads, because the list is looking caucasian. Okay, it's looking caucasian and i'm not a caucasian, so yeah i've colored it okay, uh now time to cut it. But before i cut this list, let me even put the wig on my head and see what it looks like yeah. So this is just the hair out of the pack. I haven't done anything to you know the hair itself, um yeah. It'S really really short. So i'm going to be, you know, coming it out and styling it, and just you know, playing around with it. It'S very easy to brush like this hair is so easy. I can't really, i can't over emphasize how easy it is to actually just style this hair, like i'm done, i'm done seriously like there's nothing else to do here. I'M seriously done this is such an easy, hair wow. This is such an easy hair. It actually just looks like my hair, like doesn't this just look like my hair looks like i didn't do much like. I just you know, curled my hair and brushed it out. Let me try it side part and see how to look at side parts um, but sometimes i don't like trying side parts with center parts because um it should look uneven, but let me just try it with this and see how it will look anyway. Yeah, like i said it's a little bit uneven because it was made as a center part, but look at that side part like who do i look like i look like that: you're auntie, okay, you know that auntie, that's always glowing, always looking pink, always looking like. Ah, there's something about her: you guys cannot just remove your eyes from. I feel like i look like that, auntie and yeah. That reminds me so the topic of today, someone asked me a question: did you have insecurities while growing up, if you did share them and how you overcame them, and i'm like girl? First of all, in your question is the assumption that i have overcome my insecurities and girl. Let me break it to you. No, i have not overcome my insecurities. Okay, let us have not overcome them right. Let'S just say i still have insecurities. I still have the insecurities i had growing up. I still have them now. I will have more added on top okay. Motherhood has added more the only thing for me or yeah. Basically, how i was saying i tend to exude confidence, because people tell me that, oh i'm very confident like i act like i'm so confident, even where i dress and i'm like girl, you fake it till you make it okay, i don't know those people that are Faking it to you, you know i started making this because the truth is, i have a lot of insecurities. Let me shift this thing back to the center part. Okay, yeah. Oh, wait! Wait! Let'S see, i can actually make it even by just. Let me put my earrings yeah, so, as i was saying my dear sister, i actually have a lot of insecurities, but the thing is that i have decided not to let them hold me back. Okay, i'm deciding not to let them hold me back because look, we all have insecurities there's nobody that doesn't have a security or doesn't have things about themselves that they wish they could change. We all have insecurities, but i have learned to live with mine. I i told myself i can't be - i can't be managing my life, i can't managing myself or my self-image or my self-worth, or i can't manage it myself. Let me put it that way. I have to love myself and i have to appreciate. I have to be happy with my not just appreciating yourself. No, no, no, i'm very happy with myself. I love myself. I keep saying this. There'S nobody in this world eh that you bring beside me and tell me this person is finer than you and i accept. Maybe my children shall yeah, my children are firing at me, okay, but any other person in this entire universe. I don't care who you are. If you bring the person to me and tell me this person is finer than you i'll tell you. You lie nobody on this entire uni on this entire edge or universe; okay, whether interdimensional, whether from this dimension or a different dimension or parallel universe or whatever nobody on this earth is finer than me is better than me. So when i say alternating main character, energy is in my life. Oh i'm channeling it in my own life. Okay, so you are free to turn on your own main character: energy in your own life, but i'm not an extra in your own life right, i'm not doing it to be spiceful or to look down on anybody, i'm doing it more for myself! Okay, you can't you can't command. You can't intimidate me with. What'S like what okay, oh yeah, slimmer than me, a hair overall like what i can say. Yes, i see my damn okay, you have flapped on me because mesa after me, but you know come to you know, have the thing to scatter. Okay, you have flat on me. You are slimmer than me. Okay, but overall, when i stand up when you stand, i'm not you don't find that me, that's just the truth. Okay, i had a lot of insecurities growing up. Should i mention that when i was younger, i used to be very. I used to be overweight. Okay, at some point, i lost the weight, but because i was overweight as a child and i was ashamed for it as a child. Even when i lost weight, i was actually sleeping for most of my life. Looking back now, okay, but when i was growing up, i always felt like i was one of the fattest people everywhere and actually i kind of was like in my class. I was one of the first people you know, because every person was skinny and small. While me, i was big this time. I was huge. Okay, so don't tell me: you're, not you're, not fat, you're, huge and yeah, i'm beginning to now understand what they mean, but at the same time i don't like it. Sometimes i'm huge because to me huge, sounds even worse than fats, like i'm a giant, you know, so i used to be this: the big gun in class, not the biggest, not the fattest in class right. I wasn't always the fattest in class, but i used to be amongst the tallest, so anytime i was taking pictures i used to be at the back at some point. I prayed to stop growing taller. Like i literally pray, i said god i want to go to like and i'm tired of grateful and now that i'm looking back, i'm like why what the hell was that you know so um yeah, that was, that was an insecurity of mine. I didn't like standing out the way i used to stand out, but right now i love it. Okay, i like it. I love it. I love starting out the way i stand out now. So for me i stand out effortlessly right, so i am not going to go into a place and be the loudest in the room or be the flashiest in the room or bg. You know that kind of person is just everywhere, i'm never that kind of person. I'M always the quiet one in one corner, just with a group of people just having fun, i'm never the loud. You know attention-seeking kind of person, but i still get attention because this beauty cannot be hidden. This beauty, this glow this height this this skin, this complexion, this hair this eyes, this nose this mouth, this lips, these lips, this fingers, you guys, can see my fingers like, i have a very long finger and i actually love my fingers: okay without nails, without fixing. My nails, i have very beautiful fingernails, you know these legs, they can't be hidden, so i effortlessly stand out and i love it for myself. So that's justice, that's just the thing with me. Okay, so so the things that used to make me feel insecure. Actually, while growing up are the things that i now emphasize and i now you know take pride in okay. Another thing i should be insecure about where my legs - yes, these beautiful legs, i push in and be like. Oh my god, you have hot legs. I used to be so insecure about my legs and that's because i had knock knees. Okay, the structure of my legs have always been pretty. I'Ve always had nice skin and you know full legs yeah full full legs. I don't really have yams what people call yam leg: okay, so i've always had full nice beautiful legs, but i have knock knees or what they call k leg. Okay, so you used to. I used to be insecure about it, but girl. Now i'm the one that wears short things like i'd rather expose my legs and expose any part of my body like i rather expose my laps. Yes with all the wrong pulls with all the folds. All the stretch marks. I rather expose my legs. I used to be very insecure about that inner part of my body, okay. So it's basically like all those things that i was insecure about are the things that i am now loving and flaunting okay. And that's because i have to tell myself girl people that you're thinking are looking at you or better than you or feel somehow they to themselves. They have things. In fact, they are more preoccupied about themselves about their insecurities than about you. Okay, it is the ones the ones that come to meet you and try to shame you or make you feel less down or make you feel insecure about those things in your in your in your life. Okay, those are the ones that actually have the biggest insecurities ever so because they they can't really. They can't stand themselves. They want you not to stand yourself as well as they want to make you hate yourselves as much as they hate themselves so girl. I don't know what i'm preaching today. I don't know why i'm so fired up today, so yeah, my dear all, those things i still feel insecure, even my face is being secured by my face because i have extra large feet. Okay, like i wear size finish, if you guys know what size finish is i wear size finish? Okay, i was at 45, basically um yeah, so my extra large feet and my extra large hands i used to feel like. Oh, my my hands might be looking manly or something, but no, i still have feminine fingers. I still have a very pretty hand. Okay, it's just larger. Okay, the larger is large enough for you to notice it it's large enough because it was so beautiful. God said: no, i can't make this thing small. I have to make it big so that the people will seize very well okay same with my feet. So what else is you care about my nose, but right now i put highlight on the nose like i used to highlight the nose very well. So i put seeds, you know with my oily face and i used to feel very insecure about it. But now i go up and down without makeup, so yeah the grass is not always greener. On the other side. Sometimes it's photoshopped. Sometimes it's filter. Okay, don't even be deceived, sometimes it's filter and even if the grass is actually greener on the other side, how is it your business? How you take concern you? Why don't you focus on watering your own grass? Why don't you focus on what is going on in your own life, then look into someone else's life to see whether they are faking it or whether they're, really confident or that their glass is greener or it's photoshopped. No leave them alone. Focus on your own. Okay! Yeah i've said it all. Oh, i don't have anything to tell you guys. I don't have any profound. You know do this and no i'm being realistic here. I still have insecurities. If you tell me now to point out 10 things about myself. That is not. You know regular beauty standard. I can point out 15.. I can point out 27 for you, but at the same time it doesn't stop me. It doesn't change anything about myself. What people are ugly in is character, wise personality-wise. A lot of people have very ugly characters and personalities: okay, not their physical attributes. Right i want to make it slip back and become sleek. Oh i like it. I like it, hey guys. I love this hair so much like so yeah. That'S it guys! That'S the hair, do you like it? I love it. So this hair is eight inches, but you can get it longer. If you want, is water wave, you guys saw how i spread your water and put smooth and it is now you know all down and thin. Looking wet right, but if you want you can also brush it dry um. I think i prefer it wet like this. I love this. I feel i look so pretty. I even just remember that the way i talk used to make me very insecure, but right now, i'm talking on youtube for a living like basically like i said everything that i used to be insecure about are those things that i am highlighting the most about my Life come and beat me anyway. Yeah the link to this hair is going to be in the description box, go and check it out. It is bu, fox, hair and yeah. Thank you guys so much for watching. I hope you guys enjoyed this video. Let me know in the comment section if you have insecurities and if you have overcome them overcome, let me know how you over overcame your insecurities. I'Ve told you my, i don't know if i said everything here. Maybe i'll love you always but i'll talk more about it and i'll see you all in my next video bye guys you