Chaotic Chit Chat Grwm | Natural Girls Vs Bbl, Copycat Influencers, Postpartum Depression, + More

Guys welcome back to my channel. My name is asia. If you're new here today's video is going to be a chit chat, get ready with me. This top is going to be getting on my nerves for the entire video but, like i said, we're just going to be getting ready, hair makeup chit chatting about some stuff that you guys entered on the poll question box on instagram - i don't know, but you guys Want to get ready with me just keep on watching grab a glass of wine, a cup of water, a tea whatever your vibe is, and let's just get right into it all right, so just jumping right into here, because i look absolutely insane. If you see me looking just a little bit this way, it's because the viewfinder is over there for today, but i'm just going to jump right in with the hair, because i need to get it out the way. I look absolutely nuts right now. So i washed my hair yesterday and i let it air dry. I tried to let my hair air dry as much as possible, so that way, i'm not putting a lot of heat on it and i'm thinking i want to put like some curls in it today. I don't know because i have to have my hair done tomorrow, because i'm going to dinner, so i figured some curls would be cute. So this is me just sleeping on it, and then i brushed it out this morning, so it just like lost its little waves that it has. Sometimes i don't know what's wrong with my hair. My hair is like straight at the roots wavy in the front roots. Wavy in the middle straight at the ends, but whatever so the first thing i'm going to do is: oh my gosh. This top is going to annoy me this whole video. Isn'T it asia? This was not a wise choice. Um! The first thing i'm going to do is i'm going to go through with a straightener and just straighten my roots, primarily just because i don't want it to look like it's waves at the top. If that makes sense, so i'm going to straighten the roots, i'm not going to straighten the body of the hair, though, because a curl will one stay better in my hair. If it's on my natural texture and two, i don't want my curls to be super flat. Like i want them to be kind of sort of full and fluffy, so i'm just going to go and straighten my roots off camera really quickly, and then i will be right back. I'M going to turn on love, island and i'll, come back and show you how i curl my hair and don't get into the get ready with me. The chit chat part because i got some fun topics. Ooh was that clap loud in the microphone? I'M so sorry, but yeah then we'll get into the rest of the video. So i will be right back. I just straightened my route, so i don't know if you guys can tell, but everything looks just way, smoother flat, shiny silky um. I use a babyliss baby list, whatever the hell, it's called the black one in the wider one. I would show you, but it's not near me, anymore, um, so for curling. Today, i'm taking my t3 curling iron. As always, i put the smallest barrel on it. I'M trying to think maybe do i want to change it to this this size, one. I don't know i'm going to do the smaller barrel that way they just fall to how i want them to be rather than make them loose, and then they don't hold at all. So this is the smallest barrel. It comes in because i have the one with the three interchangeable heads and i usually put it on one to the fourth dot. I don't know what that is, temperature wise, but i think it's somewhere around, like the 375 degree range um and for curling. It'S going to be super super repetitive guys. This shirt is literally going to blow mines this entire video. Where did my comb go? I don't know, but super super repetitive. It usually doesn't take me long, so i'm gon na section, my hair off, but not like a super small section like this, is basically above my ear, because i don't like to be curling my hair all day. I don't got time. It does not interest me um. So i'm going to do that and then i'm just going to tie the rest of the hair ties wet and we don't want that. One this one's dry, i'm going to tie the rest of this hair away, um and i'm just gon na - do the same style of curl all throughout my head. So nothing super fancy. If you're staring at my postpartum regrowth, listen at least she's regrowing, okay um, but i'm gon na take like normal size sections like not too small, not too big, and basically what i'm gon na do for the whole entire head um. Obviously, i'm gon na go away from my face on both sides. Is you take the curling iron and you wrap it around? Excuse the dog, um and then you're going to loop it around one time? Okay, oh my gosh! These are hilarious. Don'T know why these screenshot me, while my hair looks like this all my hair fell out after i had ends up, but you're going to do this one little loop you're going to hold it. I probably held it for like what 20 seconds you're going to pull it down. It'S going to look like that and then you're going to loop. It again, i'm obviously going slow, because i'm trying to show you guys and then you're gon na loop. It again hold it again, sit there for a few seconds, pull it out. Do it all again leave some of the ends out, though um roll it back up. This is a very tedious curl. It seems hard, but you'll get the hang of it after a couple. Um and then once you do that you're just gon na look at this you're just gon na pull the ends that way they're done um, but they don't get a girl literally i'm gon na do the same thing all over my head. I'Ll show you guys again. Oh now, enzo's crying um, i'm gon na take this piece right here. This piece never holds a curl. Let me know if it's just me, but we're gon na wrap it in twist it in the barrel away from the face hold it there for a little bit. Um, wait, obviously pull it out. Try not to burn myself go down. Do it again. This is hilarious like i can't wait till they grow enough that they stay down but like as of right. Now they kind of have a mind of its own um, and then this one got got messed up, but it's fine, it's just a girl and then do that and pull it. So because this hair was different lengths, it has like different style curls in it, which is fine, but basically you'll. Just do the same thing all throughout the head and then you'll brush it all out and it'll kind of be like more of like that beach wave kind of look which i really have been enjoying. So, yes, i'm going to finish curling my hair, i'm going to speed this up for you guys and then we will get started on the makeup. I'M going to get ready with me, because that's what we're here for we're not here for a hairstyle tutorial, even though everybody's always been asking me how i've been doing my hair so do not fret. Oh my gosh, the amount of gray hairs i have is sick. Every time i do a piece i see a gray now just go gray prematurely turn love island back on. We should tasha is such a baby. It'S starting to get on. My nerves now be happy. It was outlined thing. I know all right, so we finished curling. The head, so as you guys can see like once you curl them, they just look like really tight. Ringlets like they don't look promising. It looks kind of crazy. I'M not gon na lie. Please hold stephanie's text me um. Okay, let me put my phone on. Do not disturb because people are texting me, i'm gon na put it on work so that certain text messages come through. This top is literally getting on my nerves. Maybe i should have safety pinned it. I don't know i don't know what to do at the top, but it's so cute i'll have the top link down below just in case you were curious um. So all of these topics that were sent in were from people off instagram. If you don't have instagram you kind of miss out, because i do do like polls and stuff for content purposes over there, because sometimes i do just draw blanks - and i probably will talk about the same stuff over and over. It was hair all over my blanket. So i asked you guys: what did you guys want to talk about, and i just pulled some topics from there that i thought were like pretty interesting. Somebody said to me: how do you stay natural in the world full of fillers and bbls? I thought this was interesting because i'm no longer considered natural because i have filler in botox. My botox still is very much evident in there and i love my botox. You guys know. I also have trend filler. If you don't, i do have tin, filler um. So what i got done was, i have chin filler to make my chin just a little bit more prominent, because before it went like straight down, i had botox in my upper lip to do a lip flip, and then i have botox and my masseters to make My face a pair, slimmer and botox in this area, this area and i think that's it um, so yes, i'm not technically natural. I would consider my work natural because i don't look any different than i did. I just it was probably things that only i ever noticed um that bothered me personally that i was insecure about that. I got fixed, i'm taking the fenty beauty primer, i'm the hydrating one and just slapping this on my face. So how do i feel about you know? Here'S the thing i think people should do what makes them happy. You know people have body work and like whatever facial work, that it probably was something that really triggered them like they were not comfortable in their skin, and i think that people should 100 do whatever makes them happy um, and i think that we as society should Just mind our business like if somebody wanted to have boobs, they were like a triple f like that's their prerogative. You know what i'm saying um, but i definitely think that, like the whole thing of putting like people with bbs against people with natural bodies against each other is kind of like ridiculous. In my opinion, just because it's like for what like a woman, is a woman at the end of the day and if one, if one female just did not feel comfortable being like slim in her natural body, and she just felt like getting her getting a bbl. Would really make like a game changer for her? If that's, what makes her happy, i don't see the problem and it's so funny, because i have definitely been at the foot of that conversation like people have told me when they were coming in my neck, like oh, but she has the body of like a little Boy, just because they had a butt and i'm just like okay, but like we get the same men so clearly they don't care. You know what i'm saying like it's always woman against woman. It'S never meant saying shing, i know, but her waist is the same size as like her hip. You know what i'm saying like it's. Never a man saying it's always a female saying she doesn't have no body, she doesn't fill out her clothes, yada, yada ya, and i think that's very unfortunate that we as women are like our worst enemies, because at the end of the day, like somebody having like A waist on 23 and hips on 42. It doesn't affect me because i mean i i don't mind my body um and you know like while there is things that i would probably change about my body. If i could i that doesn't mean i don't like my body what i'm saying and i don't think the people that got bbos didn't like themselves. I don't think it was like that, but i think that people that have bbos just figured this would make me more confident than i already am. You know what i'm saying um and then somebody did ask me if i would ever get my body done. So i figured i would just lump that all in there together and me personally, i have contemplated getting my body done. I'M not even gon na lie to you guys hold on i'm pulling the topics up on the computer because my phone keeps going to sleep um. I have contemplated getting my body done in the past because, yes, like i'm lazy, i don't want to go to the gym and it takes two years. Maybe to really get like that. Really nice body like shelf, look nice but nice um, stomach and stuff that in the gym, but while you could take the easy way out which is getting surgery um, you know it's considered one of the most dangerous surgeries you could get, and i just don't like For me, i always feel like everybody else might have had great experiences, but i would be the one person that didn't, which is why i never did um and i you know like i have kids, so i don't think it's worth it for me to put myself In a position to do something superficial for my own ego, when i should just learn to love what i have um like you know like now, my boobs obviously are completely different because i breastfed and stuff and getting your boobs on is not, as i guess serious, As getting your body done, um like a bbl - oh my god, i just got that over my finger. Getting a bbl, but there are, you, know, pros and cons with breast implants as well like breast implants, illness and stuff. So i just think it just depends on the person, and i think people just mind their business and listen. If you being natural is what you want to do be natural. If you want to get a bbl get a bbl, if getting your boobs, that will make. You happy do that and i think the problem is that people just think that people with like their bodies done and stuff are getting more out of life than like a natural girl. You know, but like it's all superficial like this, don't compare yourself like the end of the day. Beauty is beauty. Inner beauty is really a thing, though too, like don't even stress the outside and as long as you're comfortable in your body and you exude that confidence. You should be a-okay um, so yeah. I definitely am. You know a little more natural, a little bit more slim than most girls these days, especially in my age group, and do people tell me if i got my body done, that i would be a 10 whatever the hell. That means. Yes, they do, but you know, like i'm comfortable with myself. There are days where i'll be like damn. I wish i had a bigger butt, but you know like you, can't win them all, okay, because if god would have gave me a butt it'd been over with but yeah that's kind of how i feel about that topic. I think that woman should just not worry about other women um. I just took the of beauty foundation. Stick i'm going to struggle with foundation today. I already know, because i do have a slight tan, so i'm going to mix it with some armani, luminous, silk and 8.75 um, that's so funny, so i bought this foundation in ireland. I'M just watching love island season, eight like i'm all caught up, and i just i'm here to say that when i was in ireland, men did not look like domi, i'm just saying um so yeah. This is like super super tin because i was so tan at the time, but let's hope that it works out, but i took the hood of beauty stick just for like a little bit of coverage, because this is more sheer like more medium coverage um. So, let's see what should we discuss next, i feel like that was just something like you know like. I definitely feel like it's a conversation to be had, but i feel like it's not as important as people like to make it out to be, because again it's always a woman, doing it to women like it's. Never a man saying girl. You need to get your body done if you want to be a bad dude like it's. Never a man like literally i, i assure you, men that have talked to girls with big booties and big boobies, have also tried to talk to me, and i don't have neither one. You know what i'm saying like i feel like beauty is just nowadays with social media. Everybody thinks something differently of it, but anyways so um. Let'S talk about like something a little more serious. Let'S talk about uh. What does this say? What does this say? Where did it go being lost in a motherhood and losing yourself or a slash, postpartum depression? You guys know. I do talk about this, a lot um. I am one year postpartum and i even to this day still feel like. Oh, my gosh, i don't know who the hell i am, and the only thing i do to make myself kind of get out of there right is that i go do something for myself. You know, and i'm not saying i go to target by myself while target is fun, i'm kind of targeted out, but i do more stuff. Like i go out like i go, get drinks i go to new york, i go on dates. You know what i'm saying like i literally get dressed put myself first and i'm just like. I turn my mode off and not essentially like i'm still a mom but, like i hand my children over to somebody that i really trust aka my mom and i'm just like listen. I need these hours to myself where like. If it's not an emergency, please do not contact me about my kids. You know what i'm saying um. I definitely feel like that's the best way to kind of not lose yourself just because you're doing something that you were doing. Pre mom and if you weren't into like going out pretty long, but i was that's, why it's kind of my thing? Obviously don't do it, but sometimes just feeling like a human. That'S not a mom is the healthiest way to kind of navigate through that and losing yourself is it's so common. You know like it happens to the best of us, and i feel like people that don't have multiple kids that didn't go through it before they don't realize that they're going through it until they're, already too deep into it, which is very unfortunate. It'S like, if you have friends that just had a baby always check on them because, like even though they say they're. Okay, i assure you they're, never gon na know that they're in the midst of losing themselves or postpartum depression. Until it's really really bad like it's. Not something that you kind of recognize early on and you can face it's literally when you're on, like chapter 20, that you're, like oh [, __ ], i haven't been myself, excuse my language. I haven't been myself and something is going on with me. You know what i'm saying so it's normal everybody goes through it this time around. I think i did go through what i did go through postpartum depression, but not as bad as i did with harper with enzo more so i think it was very in and out like it was never like a constant thing. Um. I think what happened was it's like certain things would trigger me um. So when i say trigger me, i mean that, like i could be fine for two weeks and then i could watch something see something something happen and it just would trigger like these emotions, where i just felt like. I wasn't good enough. I wasn't doing a good job um and that i just felt lost in the stalls. Basically, as a mother and it's a very hard feeling to navigate just as losing yourself because with postpartum depression, you do feel very helpless and, like i said you don't catch it early on with me, i kind of know the signs of it. Just because i did go through it really bad with harper, and i always told myself that i would never let myself feel the way i did during postpartum depression with my daughter um. But you know it's kind of like not inevitable um. You can definitely take steps to combat postpartum depression, but i think for the most part, everybody will kind of fill it to some degree postpartum, and it's just because you really you become so enamored and like fulfilled with this new role in your life that you easily Just lose sight of everything else and then, as a result, when you're not being a mom, you feel wrong and you feel guilty, and you just feel like what the hell am i doing this is wrong, but you're not wrong for putting yourself first, because at the End of the day, like i say all the time on my channel like in order to be a good mom, you have to be a happy mom yourself. So, honestly, my best advice for, like those that may be going through that is just to like, like i always say, let yourself feel your emotions, but also reach out for help, like you know, like talk to a friend talk to your partner, um, give the kids To your mom, your partner, a friend, anybody like say, like i need 20 minutes to myself to just shower. Like you know what i'm saying, i need to go for a walk. You have to do those types of things in order to keep yourself sane, because, if not you're, literally gon na lose your marbles and unfortunately i feel like one thing that people don't talk about postpartum depression. Is that like postpartum psychosis and stuff are things and um? If it does get to that point - and you do suffer from that - you never know that you put yourself in harm, your kids didn't harm. So if you ever wake up any day as a mother and you're, just like i'm not okay, today don't try to push through that. You know what i'm saying like and it's very unfortunate, because i know that everybody doesn't have help um, but listen you're. Just gon na have to really figure out a balance to not only step away for a minute, but to also just be like. I cannot do this like. I can't push through this because, if i push through it, it's just gon na be something on top of another, and it's just gon na keep getting bigger and bigger and too heavy for you to carry so that was kind of like the only serious topic i Wanted to talk about um, because i do feel like postpartum is not something that most people discuss and i think that's so unfortunate, because it's such a serious topic and it's something that happens to a majority of women when we become mothers. Um that you know just feeling like you're losing yourself and like you don't know who you are anymore, is really a real thing and you're not alone. I went through it, i go, i probably am still going through it for all. I know you know like i'm great right now, but next week i might not be so. We really just have to you really just have to assess the situation day by day and just be like it's today the day you know what i'm saying like you don't feel. Well, you don't want to get out of bed. You don't want to be a mom. Every little thing is triggering you and you basically want to scream sis put the baby somewhere safe in a chair in the crib. You know wherever the baby's safe sit outside for two seconds or go to another room in the house and literally just scream. Take a deep breath and then go back and be a mom. You know like it doesn't make you a bad person, because we literally have all been through it, and now that i had my second kid and i'm 26 now, whereas with my first i was 18, i look at parenting completely different and i'm the same mom. That'S so funny, i'm the same mom that i was to my daughter, but i'm just so much more aware of things now, not only because i'm grown and like i'm older, but just because i've been through it and for me, knowing how i felt i always check On my friends postpartum just because i know it could get really really rough um so yeah. That was that little serious topic of the day. You know because i just feel like it's something i don't ever want to not touch on considering i am postpartum myself, so yeah, i'm gon na do my eyebrows with the refry brow pencil. You guys know my eyebrows are thick. They look like this before i even started. I just fill them in a little bit to just i don't know. I don't know this one looks really dark, but i'll fix that at the in the next step, um but yeah. I just kind of shaped them. A little bit um do i want to go. What do i want to put concealer underneath for them this one looks really dark. I feel like that always happens every time. I do my eyebrows, it's pretty freaking crazy um. Let me delete this one, so this other topic is a topic. I'Ve been seeing all over and someone brought it up in the little poll and i was like: oh: do we even go there, so someone said: does your boyfriend pay for you and your friends if you're out to eat, listen, don't hate me, i think it's one Of those things where you can't expect every man to like, if i, if it was a man in a situation and he didn't have the funds to like it - would really be like detrimental to him paying his bills. If he decided to pay for me and my girlfriend's tab, oh i don't blame him. You know what i'm saying. I think it's a more so pay highway situation like pay, how you weigh um, but for the most part me me personally. Okay, sorry, if i'm trying but me personally, the the type of men that i know whether my friends, men i have dated and dating whatever the case may be: yes be a man. You know what i'm saying like: it's not gon na hurt you you can afford it financially, um just be the man in the situation and not like. Oh i'm on the phone like yeah, i'm going on my friends, you need to cash. It me two thousand dollars for like our tab and stuff because we're expensive, but if you come out with us and it's just me and three of my girlfriends, yes, you should pick up the tab um if we all go out together. None of my friends have to pay for anything um things like that. That is definitely how me and my friends are, if me and my friends, they invite me out and one of their boyfriends come their boyfriend, always picks up the tab. Vice versa, um i that for me it's always been that way, but i definitely think i definitely think it depends on the caliber of the man um, and it's not saying that it makes somebody less of a man. I think it's just people put themselves in a situation. It'S like you can't expect someone that makes 1800 a month only and then you run up a tab at stk and the tab is 1200 and you want this man to pay for you and six of your girlfriends. I don't think that's fair um, but for me pick up me in my friend's tab, but like me and my friends go out all the time and we pay our own tabs or you know like i've dated men they're like i'll, just be like hey, i'm out To dinner, like i'll call you, when i'm home and they'll be like, send me a picture to build and they'll send me the money like that's that's bbe, okay bde at its finest, but not every man is like that. But for me i definitely think it's appreciative because it's just saying, like a woman, shouldn't pay for anything, and i like that. I, like that, a lot um. I have a really close friend and literally, i could ask him to dinner and he still won't. Let me pay like, i could ask him hey. Do you want to go to dinner like tomorrow, like let's go grab something let's catch up and he'll, be like yeah sure and he'll literally like try to fight me? If i pull my own card out, he'll be like i don't care, how much money you make asia, i'm never letting you pay for a tab, and it's like it's admirable. It'S cute. It'S very handsome. You know what i'm saying like i just feel like: men should be like that in general, but again pay as you weigh, don't go into debt, but none of these little scallywags, but if you could afford it, i think you should do it just because ate me For my opinion, on that, everybody's opinion is definitely going to be different, but that's definitely mine when it comes to this. I don't have no problem picking my own time, because trust me if i went outside it means that i could afford my tab um, but i definitely think men should. If they could. You know what i'm saying: if they could, they should, and that's just that i don't think you should expect somebody to do something just because they are a man, but it all depends on the type of man you're dealing with anyway. So if that's what you're? Looking for and that's what you're into you have to be very mindful of the type of men that you're bringing around you, because not every man is like that, and that's rightfully so, like everybody is allowed to be whatever type of person they want to be um. So if you know you out here looking for that type of man, you can't just entertain anybody. I hate to say baby girl. I hope i don't sound crazy, but that's just what it is. I'M taking tarte shape tape. I believe this is a shades hand, because this is my darker one and i'm just highlighting per usual as normal and taking that into the face. I don't know what type of makeup look i'm doing, i'm just going with the flow we're just here chitchat and we're not even worried about the makeup. You know what i'm saying um but yeah. I just kind of feel like it's just some joke. It'S! It'S just subjective to the person like that's, okay and i feel, like everybody, always gets like in a a big thing over social media about it. But it's like everybody is gon na feel differently about it and, like that's, okay, at the end of the day, we're all growing and we all have our different opinions so like. While you may think that your man shouldn't pay for your friends, baby girl. If you come out with me, the tab is taken care of, if he's with us. Okay, just just look at that um, so i'm just going to blend this out with a beauty blender i feel like my makeup - is lifting a little bit because i lifted off this little scar. Is that just me? I think if i want to do like a little eyeshadow look, i think i am just cuz. I'Ve been super into eye shadow, not that i do anything like super special, but i do enjoy playing with it. I'M trying to hurry up because it's enzo's nap time. I don't know if you guys can hear him fussing he's, probably driving everybody crazy. You guys know i always have to plan in events where i'm gon na film, so that somebody could watch enzo and he just does not be having it. These days, like he just be wanting his mom and it's like son. I love you but like how you obsessed with me. You only knew me for a year. It'S like no. If they don't see that meme, that meme is hilarious. Um, don't worry, it looks a little bright right now. It looks bright on the viewfinder, but i'm gon na darken everything up with cream contour um, so yeah life is crazy man. I just laugh when these type of, like controvers controversial topics, become a thing because i'm just like. Why does what you think make me anything? You know what i'm saying like if i feel some type of way about life. What does that have to do with you, but if y'all want to know my opinion, i'm going to tell y'all, you know what i'm saying. I feel, like i'm sitting a certain kind of way, just so this, so that the shirt doesn't um slouch down and that's pretty annoying but like we're in it now we're in it to win it. So i'm not going to change my shirt like it is. What it is. Does my face match my neck and my shoulders right now, probably not, but can't win them all. Babes can't win them all girl. So for eyes. I'M gon na go in with my by mario the makeup by mario palette, the master match. I love this thing. I can't believe it took me so long to get um. I would zoom you guys in, but can i zoom you guys in through the thing on the computer? I don't think so i don't know i don't know. I think you guys could see me pretty fine where i mean wearing hd over here. Okay, like, if you can't see babes, maybe i got ta get a new camera um, but i'm gon na go in with this. I don't know what i'm gon na do yeah. I think i'm gon na do like a little smoke, a little halo vibes, but this mirror is nasty um. So i'm gon na take one two master. Four. I think that's what i call master for what color four shade. Four, i'm gon na take a sonia kashuk brush into this, and i'm just gon na go into the crease just to like put a little transition color in there. Nothing special, nothing, fancy, nothing, legendary or groundbreaking is being done here. Something else that people asked me was: how do i feel about copycat influencers, and then somebody specifically asked me: does it bother me if a bigger influencer does something that i did and then doesn't give me credit i figured i would lump those into each other when It comes to copycat influencers. I don't feel like it's necessarily being a copycat. I just think that, as an influencer, you got to influence somebody, whether somebody with no following, and you would never know or whether it's mighty with five times the following is you, you got ta influence, somebody it's what comes with the territory of the job, and you Cannot be mad when it's somebody that's bigger than you and they didn't credit you do. I think it sucks yes, because it has happened to me um, like obviously it doesn't cost you anything to just be like you know like i got this him like my girl, asia or whatever, but i don't think that people owe you that as well like it Is what it is you know like you when somebody lose some, i do think it's very nice and genuine, though, when people do mention that they got something from you and to share that with their audience like um, because, again, like i said, an influencer is an Influencer you're gon na influence somebody, but i do think that it's just like noteworthy when people would be like yeah like i got this from my girl or whatever, or you know what i'm saying like paying your dues to like giving somebody else, their flowers and just Acknowledging that, especially because, like i feel like as influencers, we understand what we go through in the workspace that if somebody like really worked hard to put some content out there and then you just kind of take it and run with it and just read it and Say you know like oh my gosh so and so gave me this idea, it kind of sucks. Why is my son crying? I don't think i'm like some big trendsetter to the point that i do anything like so amazing that somebody would copy me, but i think what happens is if you guys, as viewers, see something like that. I did one week and then three weeks later you see somebody else doing you're like oh you copied asia i mean. Could it be the case yeah probably, but do they watch me, probably not because i'm like a small time youtuber compared to other people, but i also feel, like i mean the other day, we watched the same tech stock. That'S at the end of the day, we watched the same two talks, the same rules and stuff like you never know like where anybody got their inspiration from. So i kind of feel like that's. How like drama within this community works is that it gets fueled on like that when something can just be easily misconstrued. But if i was to ever do something directly that i saw in another creators, video um, another influence or something i would definitely say like you guys know, i always say all the time like i was watching this. I was watching that i was so inspired. I pulled little bits in boston there and boom. I made this um like i'm, not afraid to say that, because me shouting out, somebody doesn't take money from my pocket at the end of the day and if you guys, like my style, work, why would i not highlight to you that you might like this other Person'S style of work because it's quite similar um, but i feel like maybe that's just me um, but i definitely feel like it comes with the territory. So it's not nothing to be mad, like you could be heard over it, because we put a lot of time and hard work into our into our art um. But you know: what can you do really like? Nothing? Were you going to confront the person you stole? My style of editing, you use the same music as me, like girl, we all got soundcloud how you know we just don't like the same type of music. You know what i'm saying like people have always dm me saying that, like certain people do the same thing as me, and some people say i do the same thing as them, but like it's so funny, because we'd be putting our videos our videos out the same Day and i just be like girl, we just got the same brain okay, like has: has it ever dawned on you that maybe we're very, very much alike that we just kind of go? Oh, this would be decent and boom, that's how it starts and what i'm saying, rather than thinking that we're out here copying each other. But you know it's kind of hard. I guess when you guys, don't really understand the fundamentals of what goes into our job. So i don't think it's fair, though, to put us against each other because we're all just a bunch of females on youtube trying to make money so like it is what it is. I mean i don't feel all type of way about it, but i do always appreciate when my creator, friends do tag me and stuff, especially those that i just feel like. It comes from a very genuine place and they just want me to win, and even though they may have way more subscribers than me that they'll just be like yeah like i got this for my girl, asia. I always always appreciate it like i don't overlook it and i don't take it with like a grain of salt because to me like that's very decent of them to do and they didn't have to do it. You know what i'm saying, but i just carved out my eyebrow a little bit just to brighten it with um some nars creamy matte concealer. I can't believe people use this concealer under their eye. It'S so thick like a stick. As hell. Someone mentioned your partner stalking. Your instagram going through your likes and followers girl, been there done that do not recommend. I just feel like it just screams insecure like it. Just is like why? What do you get out of that like? What are you looking for? You know. My whole thing is when you go looking for something you're gon na find what you're looking for, and even if it's not me doing something. Oh crap, there's a hair on it, even if it's not me doing something. You'Re gon na find what you're looking for like what are you gon na do get upset that other men are trying to talk to me. They trying to talk to me for the same reason that you try to talk to me because i'm attractive, maybe maybe they like my personality, you know what i'm saying um and then it's like god forbid. It'S a man with a verified sign. Is he not allowed to like me? Like you know, what i'm saying like i feel like men are just freaking, crazy, they're, always looking for something, and it's like the most bizarre thing ever to me, but i definitely did date a guy and he was very controlling to say the least and like to The point he had me unfollow every man in my life, whether i knew him or not but like if i followed him, i had to unfollow him. I was not allowed to follow any man. I don't know why, but i guess it made me. I don't know - and you know i couldn't like any other man's pictures and he would go through my stuff like. Oh, you must talk to this person because he follows you block him, because i did i mean you guys. Don'T know this obviously, but i did have more than a couple, influential men following me and i wasn't following them back. I think i followed like two or three of them back, but i did this. My neighbor like no holiday got ta go and i just was like okay, you know what i'm saying, because it's just like. Does that make you feel better about yourself like just because i'm not following the person doesn't mean they still won't dm you or something like that? You know, like i don't know. I just feel like it just screams and secure like. Why does that make you feel better about yourself and if anything, it's just like, i feel like men forget why they like you to begin with, like it's almost like men. They would like date, a girl that post pictures and like lingerie and stuff or just you know like sexy photos on instagram in general and then when they get with them, be like you can't do that anymore. How you gon na tell me to stop doing the same thing that you liked me when i was like what it don't make. Any sense like i just feel like men are just they want to have their cake and they want to eat it too and they're out here trying to build a wife, and it's just like super super bizarre to me. I don't understand it at all. I have definitely been in that position where the man was like super controlling and i'm so happy. I got out of that situation because, like in the beginning, i was like hee-hee-ha-ha like it's whatever: it's, not that serious. It started driving me up the wall. Eventually, though, because i was like you're so insecure for what like, if i'm yours, i'm yours if you're mine, that's, it is what it is like, we don't have to do all this hoop hollering back and forth over another man liking me or like he mad, because His favorite kind of rapper trying to talk to me. Why is that my problem? Why? Why hike mad? Because you were somebody that people find attractive like if that's the case go get a female that you feel like? You won't have those problems. You know what i'm saying, like men really are just crazy, and when i was in that situation i was definitely like. Oh no men really be out here like trying to dim your shine. Like don't don't come in my life trying to make it seem like it's me. That'S the problem. I didn't do nothing wrong. I didn't do nothing wrong, but be me, be pretty. Be nice, be a good person. You know what i'm saying and you're mad, because other people, like me boy, you better, be happy. I'M with you, that's how i feel about that. You know what i'm saying, but i definitely was in a situation definitely had to get out of it because i was like after one point i was like. I can't live like this. I was i'm not this type of person, i'm not this type of girl like i can't i can't live my life like this, like walking on eggshells, being afraid of what my partner might think or if he's intimidated, you know, and it's definitely not the way to Go, i must say so myself, i'm just the type of person, i'm a really free spirit, and i just need a man that is like. I trust you. You know like. I don't care about that outside noise, like none of that means anything to me, that's the type of man i need, but that person, if you don't go work on your insecurities that you got in your life with your exes or whatever they ain't got nothing to Do with me, and that's just how i feel about that: okay, that's all i'm gon na do for eyeshadow a little smoky little bright, a little balanced um. I need to brush my hair so bad and blend my curls together, but okay. So, let's go in with cream contour i'm going to use. Where is it at? Where is it? Oh, it's right here i'm going to use this bobbi brown foundation stick! This is in the shade cool walnut and i'm just gon na kind of sculpt the face. I know they said you shouldn't go right in with the product, because it's harsh, but i'm lazy like it is what it is. You know i'm hoping that this will like warm my skin up enough, i'm going to connect that to my eyebrows, to kind of make it look a little more chiseled um, and then, let's see how we feel about that. I really like that bobby brown, stuff um. I don't think it's a necessity, but i think it's really really nice, i'm gon na go in with a stippling brush and kind of blend. All of that out another thing that i want to talk about: oh my gosh y'all, don't kill me, but i'm going to assess me please. On friday, i know i know in my defense in my defense um i bought well stephanie bought our tickets last week a week and a half ago, because her boyfriend's got son is like having like a little thing there or whatever so she's like do you and The kids want to come um and i was like yeah sure, like obviously like i like taking my kids places. So we borrowed tickets ahead of time because they were on sale and then this whole thing happened on social media and i'm like stephanie they're gon na grind us up when they find out. We went to sesame place and here's the thing i watched all the videos. I see the ones on tick tock. I don't agree. Obviously right, like i don't agree and do i think that their statement that they put out is a whole bunch of bs. Yes, like i don't know, who's doing the publicist work at not even a sesame place like sesame place as in the theme park, they need to be fired, because that was the worst statement. I'Ve ever read in my life, however: i'm gon na go because i already paid for it. My kids already know my son loves elmo, and i will get back to you guys on how my experience goes. I'M hoping it's a good experience. I'Ve been multiple times, though, and i've never had an issue, so i don't know it doesn't make it. Okay, though it doesn't make it all right, um. It'S really unfortunate that that happens, because that's the place where little kids really are excited, because you know the kids love elmo. They grow up on sesame, place and stuff. I just feel like they could have handled it way. Better and people have been saying it's going on for years, which is really really crazy to me. Um, i don't know, that's a really hard situation, because it's just like that's crazy, it's just crazy. That'S it's no other way to say, but like other than it's crazy. So yeah we're going and tickets where we pay for, and i'm just like. Oh my gosh steph. What are you doing that type of situation when everybody's, like? I don't think people are boycotting such a new place, but it's just like people are just so outraged with their response to how like saying, they're gon na train the people. But how are you gon na train people to not disregard black kids? You know what i'm saying like: if somebody posted the video of like a white, a caucasian kid being in newark, then i think that it'd be like okay, maybe y'all can't see below a certain height level of 32 inches. Maybe that'll be the case, but considering it's always like little black kids. I think that that's where the issue arises, and i think that's very, very unfortunate. Apparently, sea world owns sesame place so like it's not owned by sesame street, because y'all know like if y'all watch, sesame street they're, very politically correct and stuff um. So obviously it's sea world's fault, um and you know it's crazy too. A lot of people that work at sesame place are children within themselves like, so i think it's a very unfortunate situation all the way around. I will let you guys know how our thing goes: um i've never experienced that microaggression and that type of stuff there. On my trips, there um, but it doesn't shock me like in 2022. Nothing shocks me at this point in the in the world. You know what i'm saying, like anything can happen. I'M just like, of course it freaking happened, um, but i do think it sucks, because it could be very disheartening for a child and very traumatizing um and not traumatizing, like oh, my gosh, the character didn't hug me but like traumatizing, what becomes the thing that, like Their parent is so outraged by and stuff like that, so yeah. Definitely this stuff, i'm not gon na lie, but we had already bought our tickets. Don'T grind me up y'all for going. I swear to goodness like what would you do in that situation? Would you not go like harper was excited, i'm so excited to take enzo. So i don't know what else to do about the situation. I really really don't i'm so sorry y'all, i'm gon na take one for the team. Then i'm gon na go um. I'M gon na take this liquid blush from elf. I don't know i bought this one time. I don't really use it much, but i'm going to take it on that same brush that i use to blend out the contour. I don't think it's like super stupid. Let'S see yeah, it's not like super super pigmented um, but i'm not really like a pigmented blush kind of girl. I also think it's because i'm using this brush, it has brown in it. That was probably done with me. Wasn'T it? Okay, okay, you're, right? Okay! I know i know you were thinking in your hair, like asian you're, using a brush with brown in it. What the hell did you expect all right, i'm gon na take my blush brush. Let me blend this out really quickly. Um, you guys know. I took my eyelash extensions out because i just wasn't feeling them anymore. I don't know, i think i need to go shorter. I was watching amina's video last night. I told you guys this isn't a vlog already, but she got her lashes done and she said she gets like nines to 13s and i was like. Maybe i need to go short like. Maybe i need to only get like up to 14, the longest rather than like 15 to 16, because sometimes i just feel like they're just doing the absolute most, and i think that's why i didn't like them. So i think i want to try shorter ones, but i put half my eyelashes out, so i got ta wait um all right. Let me blend this cream blush out and kind of see what the vibes are giving now and i'm also going to take my beauty. Blender, all over my eyebrows remember how i said this one was like too dark, but i'm gon na do that. I kind of like that blush isn't showing too well. So i'm gon na take a little bit this one's so pigmented, though i'm not even gon na. Take it, i'm scared, i'm scared, i'm scared. Does it mean to live a luxurious life? Girls think it's all about bags and shoes. My simple answer to that is: i think that living a look like a life of luxury is subjective to the person. What'S my type of luxury might not be your type of luxury, and i don't think that that negates anything. I just think that it's all up to what the person is, what the person wants to have currently has aims for strives for that type of stuff um. This again, this is the thing i don't know why social media goes up into this whole over these types of topics when it's just like, we are all different people in all different walks of life. Babes we're all gon na have different opinions on this type of stuff. Like i don't understand, i don't understand it. Just like crazy to me: scam likely, i'm not answering your phone call. Thank you so much clearly, i got ta get my face, silky and wet, because why was that not blended? I got no fan over here with me. So now i just got ta. Let that kind of work itself out. I need to curl these front pieces. I know they're kind of cute, i was gon na say i don't think they're curled high enough. I think i'm going to curl them higher, though they're kind of low. Sometimes i like start them at the top, and sometimes i start them at the arch of my eyebrow, but i kind of think i um want to curl those a little higher but i'll do that at the end, um, so yeah being a boy mom is so Different than being a girl mom, i mean, i don't say, i'm a boy mom, because i don't have all boys but definitely way different than having a daughter and it's an experience within a self okay like why you ain't warming, why you ought to give me a Heads up to having a son is this bad? He is so much he's like literally crazy, and i just be like bro. Do you ever chill like? Do you have a chill button? No okay, cool, like oh every day. Is this thing i'm just like? Oh, my god i'll be texting. My mouth since i played mom, i'm burnt out. I feel like i'm burnt out. I think i'm trying to beat him up, but he literally puts me through the ringer. Harper was not like this something's up. Harper was not like that, which i think is like the funniest thing, and it's just like. I thought you were gon na, be just like your sister and you're, just the complete opposite um all right. I think the facial, the setting spray kind of helped a little bit, i feel, like my face, don't look like a match on the camera, but in the mirror it does i'm going to put on some more jouer lip oil. That'S what i've been using on my lips this whole entire video um make my lips glossy um. Look at her, so last step for here is i'm gon na.