Cutting My Hair + Giving Myself Bangs

I know that I look crazy, but you're just gon na have to ignore it. For now and my knee just popped, is this crooked we're about to be impulsive today, but on a whole new level, as you guys might know, I have a really bad addiction to dye my hair and I'm not dyeing my hair. Today I got a room like a month ago and then I touched it the color maybe two weeks ago, because it faded really quickly and honestly it faded again, but I like the color than it is right now, so I'm just gon na leave it alone. But for some reason I've been really wanting to cut my hair and I don't know this is a really bad idea or what, but I just feel like my hair is boring, to say the least. I'M looking at my hair, though right now and I don't know, I gave myself a haircut probably two weeks ago when I was reading it. I went through and I turned everything and I just made it look healthier because I just had like a lot of split ends and then I cut my bangs, but not too much. I didn't give myself the bangs. I just gave myself a shrimp. It was a shrimp, but honestly for the past couple weeks, I've been wanting to go a little bit shorter. I know it's just hair and I never go back so I should just do it now. Overthinking it - and I have people - tell me all the time, because I have these shorter layers, so people will be like you should fire your shorter. It would look cute. I look stupid right now, but you know what I mean when my hair is done. People tell me that I look good, but I don't think there's any helping me right now and I'm not gon na do anything. That'S dramatic anyways. Honestly. All I want to do is take off like a couple. Inches maybe go like make booby big boob area, and I know that. That'S not that big of a deal, but it also fans at the same time, and I wanted to go through and I think give myself layers or attempt to. I gave myself layers when I was in middle school. I think and they were bad. I cried a lot and I think I also want to cut my bangs a little bit shorter just because they can't they're not bangs. I need to move in with somebody so that they can tell me not to do these things, but so far a lot of people have told me. Yes, I'm gon na go shower and then maybe I'll just decide in the shower. I think I'm smarter when I'm clean and obviously I can't cut my hair like this, because it would be so uneven when it's straight, and so I need to get my hair wet so that I can part it and I can brush it and it's all like Slicked down, because right now this is Bismarck. Okay, I'm gon na go I'm gon na go shower. I feel getting it walks in my emotions with you guys right now, because I keep going back and forth. I was about to delete the footage because I was like okay. I was like I'm not doing it but know how I do it again, like my mind, is keeps like going back and forth. It'S annoying, oh! No, I feel like I should just like do it, but at the same time, why you know, I think it's because I had a moment where I was like yeah. My hair is so long because I never brush my hair when it's wet, because it's not good for your hair. Also, I only have a paddle brush, which is like even worse. I don't comb is not bad, but I never brush my hair when it's wet and so I brush it out, and I was like okay. So why do I ruin my life? You know what I'm saying and I think I'm thinking the same thing right now. I ever never brushed it out. It'S straight, I'm like okay, I'm literally stupid. If I do this, maybe we just do my bangs and stuff. For now. I still want to get myself layers, I'm still gon na film it. I don't know I'm gon na post it. I'M just gon na give myself we're still. I might I don't know I if my body can stop walking and drop and that'd be awesome. Oh god, I didn't know what to do with my laughs. Okay, we're gon na kill my bearings. Don'T you get an exit? Now, because of nervous, I look like I'm from the ring: it's not the noise that she makes cuz. I don't think so. I could get a bum. I could have a Bob Boeing, kinda cute. Sorry, Mountains are hairy. I'M not gon na give myself like straight across bangs. That'S definitely not the goal here. I wear my hair on the side. I don't know why I parted it in the middle. I think I'm just gon na literally. Do we do it? Do we do it? Probably? Not I am gon na give myself more bangs, though, because I do wear like a lot of swoopy doobies and I don't give myself enough every time I cut my hair cuz, I'm like yeah, you don't need to do that, like you, don't need to give yourself The emo haircut that you wish that you had, but I think we're gon na give myself the emo haircut that I wish that I had also only have kitchen scissors. I forgot to mention professional. Have you noticed okay? So I've cut my bangs before many times and I, like I said I cut them like maybe two weeks ago, I'm not even, and so I'm just gon na like go for it. This is a lot of hair, though then taking in, but we're gon na get rid of these bad boys. Okay, we're just gon na go for it and if I hate it, it heat it's just hair like who actually gives us love we're gon na start small and we're gon na go in a diagonal line. Everybody because that's what I think that you do. I am gon na haven't done this a million times, I'm just nervous, and now people are watching me, which makes me even more nervous. Okay, we're just gon na go. I know this is why people can't see my videos and II throw them away. Okay, I feel like those a lot, but not a lot of like lengths, if I said, goes a lot of hair really, not maybe I was good, maybe them like really good. It'S it's! Okay, we're gon na like take the very eczema, and just like do to some of this. Normally I do this with my hair is dry and they're just like straighten it, so it's all the same way or I just do it like on the whim. This is just wet, it's not as easy, so my under wait for it to get dry before I can like cut upwards and make it not as like you know I just what is robbing them on drugs. I promise I don't do drugs like. I know that it's very hard to believe that I really don't do drugs okay, so I have my swoopy bangs, which is comforting okay. Now, let's take some like this and get myself some okay. Well, that's not gon na work. I want that to stay over there. So it will eventually it will, when I style it also, I was gon na say a lot of people. Ask me how I curl my hair, so I will give you guys a tutorial tomorrow when it's dry, it's time to play that night right now, which also explains rather than this cuz I'm impulsive, and now that I just did got it kind of just like want To go for it, do we do it? Did we do it, but we're gon na wait, we're not gon na. Be that crazy yet, but I'm gon na try to give myself a little bit more but layer. The later look, I've watched a lot of tutorials on this and basically I feel they should shave my armpits I'll, be right back. I know a lot of you probably don't care if I look still on my armpits, but I care a little bit and I want you to stare. Are you staring at my armpits? I'Ve watched a lot of tutorials on how to do layers and I'm given myself long layers before, but I've never really gave myself short layers and we're not gon na start today. Basically, I'm just gon na take this and we just didn't ruin a debate, but truly do the bit. I'M sure a lot of you are cringing right now, but, honestly I don't care yeah, we're doing it. We'Re cutting my hair. Now I'm going to take this side and we're gon na do the same thing. Okay, I wish I could get myself short layers, but I'm too scared honestly, I'm just gon na keep going. I'M just gon na keep go around and I'm gon na keep cut and missus might normally do honestly. Once I start I pretty much just don't stop. So I guess. If I want short layers, I can literally just keep bringing this up and I feel like that. Would look? Okay, I can't believe I'm cutting my hair and I know evens really want me to go to a hairdresser, but I refuse I can do about myself. I'M sure it's falling out. That'S not VG! Oh my god. Did you guys see the that YouTube tweeted, but they're, like literally turning off comments on kids channels? How sad is that all my friends make kid-friendly video so technically and their videos are for kids. So what are you gon na affect them, but that seriously sucks? I feel like that's like half the fun of you to look, I loved reading. My comments. Comments hang on so I've taken some more time and I think that I don't know. I honestly, like I, prepare myself, I'm like okay, I'm gon na film and I'm gon na cut my hair and then I can start filming it. I'M like oh just kidding, never mind. I don't even fix my bangs, though honestly, if anything, this is up a bank tutorial, maybe I'll just name it that and then cut out every time I say I'm actually gon na cut my hair. So I need to blend this into this because, right now it's just like chunky. You know I mean so what I'm gon na do is I'm just gon na take some pieces of this. I'M not going to cut these too short, because I really I wanted to blend in with, like the rest of my hair pretty well, and so I'm just gon na cut like this. You know, but I'm not gon na, like I'm, not gon na touch. Any of this, because it's already cut like that pretty well, I don't know what the term is, but I wanted to be like a abnormal kind of thing so that all blendy blendy windy, so I'm just gon na cut these a little bit shorter. Actually, I'm gon na. Do it like this, because I honestly I prefer cutting my hair like this. It'S a much less intimidating than like going in a straight line and it doesn't seem like you're doing that. Much but like you kind of are, I did absolutely nothing. I'Ll, probably fix a lot of it too, when my hair is actually dry because it's kind of hard to tell when it's wet so the bad idea. I just figured you do better than what I had going on early or somebody said like to brush my hair. So if it's straight and I'm gon na go through with my bangs and just pretty much do the same thing, these don't have like very dry. Yet she's gon na, like flail them in the wind, so they dry a little bit just some of this. This is completely normal and then I'm just gon na take a little bit off of like that front of the swoop. I guess I don't know why are you.why rattling this? Why are you watching this? So this whole section, I'm very content with, and so I'm just going to go through it like take a little bit off with my lighter from a little front layers and little framing pieces. Honestly, I wish I could describe. Why did those? Because, I think those myself they are very good. Yeah 11. You learn a little better now that they're grown out. When I first did it, they looked a little bit rough okay. So I got my hair cut a while ago and I got layers because I wanted to get layers and the way that she did. It was weird, but they look so blocky in the front. I don't you guys remember. It was like my first time. I heard her but like I had like two blocks of hair, it felt like until I went through my fixed it, and so it looked better, but it was still like blocky and then, as it's growing out its looked better. That'S another reason I don't get my hair cut like they never do what I want ever it always looks so stupid. Do I cut my hair? Do we do it now? I might just do it. Do I do it? Let'S take a little bit off for now. Okay, well, I'm ugly like this. It seems so drastic to me, but I know it's like literally nothing I want to do it. Look I genuinely want to do it. I just freaked myself out. I don't know why I love scaring myself. I love telling myself that, like the world can end, if I do this, I got ta love thinking that I'm going to literally die as soon as I cut it. Okay, I'm gon na start with like half an inch. I'M on that whoa. Can you even take home because my shirts, black okay, that wasn't that scary and it might change my mind like if I do my hair tomorrow around like I want to go shorter than like all those shorter, but for now this seems you know it seems really Good this seems like a really good plan, a short-haired Queen. Okay, all right. This bar looks ridiculous because I brush it so many times and my hair just like, doesn't cooperate. My hair at the beginning of the video is me out of the shower of product, not brushing my hair at all. If I brush my hair, this is literally what happens. It'S just gon na start with pooping up like this is all like dry already, but it's just gon na sit like frizzy and poofy and it feels nasty, and so it looks really bad, but I promise a little better when style. Okay, maybe we do a little bit more, but just a little bit. Actually, I think I'm just gon na take it and do this again, because again, this makes me feel better. It makes me feel like I'm not really doing, but I also am I'm trying to remind myself food like my hair, it's gon na feel so healthy and it's gon na look really good and it's not that big of a deal and it's hair and grow back. It'S not like I'm cutting. I think I just spent a really long time with hair that I like absolutely hated, and I've talked about this so many times it's another. My hair is finally like long and healthy. Oh, my god, I just wanna leave it this way. Like I don't want to touch anything, I don't want to it up, but I want to be ugly, but you know whatever, and so I convinced myself that, like cutting my hair is bad for me, but it's not gon na grow and it's not gon na. Look good, it's asked in split ending until we got to do what we got to do. Okay, honestly, don't like what I was fat. I was thinking you may, because I guess we could be like another. Maybe half an inch where did this? Like long has a come from, I'm kind of proud of myself, though just from like what I just did, because that was a lot for me. That was a really big step I feel like, and I'm literally just like continuing to cut it, which is cool. What if I get addicted to cutting my hair too, I'm already addicted to dining it. Okay Wow! Oh my god. Oh my god! Oh my god! I just go by here: Wow, okay, Wow, okay! I don't know good. Even I really don't know. Even I don't know if it looks good, okay, Wow, I think I did it. I literally did it it sure it's actually, it's shorter. It'S significantly shorter. In my opinion, I know that a lot of you problem will see it that way, but, like that's a huge, does a huge thing for me to do. Okay, now, I'm gon na vacuum my floor I'll check back in tomorrow. I'M probably gon na fix a couple things. I'M gon na record that folks, it's just gon na, be me literally going through again like upside down and doing random I'll check my thing tomorrow we will style my hair and then we'll come. If I just up my life or not, it's not the next day, but I wanted to point out that I know that when my hair is wet, it looks longer. I just feel like I need to say that, because I just like people who literally will comment anything just to like like just to say that I'm wrong about something. I know that it looks longer when it's wet, and so I know when it dries it's going to be shorter. That'S also another reason why I wanted to do all of those wet, because I'm a - and so it's already drying it's already starting to come out a little bit, and it's also, obviously starting to like get a little bit of a wave to it. Because I brush through it, my hair is naturally wavy. Also sorry, if I say curly, I know that also pisses people off, because my hair is wavy. It'S not curly, okay, so good morning Sunshine's, can you tell i justwell myself out of bed? So obviously my hair is dry now and I'm actually fairly impressed with my bangs. I thought they did a really good job. I still don't like this part of my hair, but I can't help it. It just already was like that, but we're going to do my hair. Are we ready everyone? I'M really tired, so this is probably gon na, be a relaxed part of the video we're just gon na be surprising, and if it's not relaxed, I don't know what to tell you, my hair isn't knowing, because when I brush it and then sleep on it, the Top part of it gets almost like I mean, like these pieces are pretty straight, but then you get to the underneath and that's where, like most of Moodle, will probably go crimps down. There looks like a crimp, my hair, the first thing I'm going to do and I'm about to style my hair and take this bad boy. This is red confers dismiss. Also I'm I read. If I finger, you guys would have to make fun of me I'm on literally five years old, and I take like I mean literally like my pumps of it, because my hair is kind of thick sorry. I have an important meeting to attend, so I took like honestly, six or seven pumps of that and I just made sure to put it through all of my hair. I hate brushing my hair, it's literally dumb, it's so dumb who gave me this, who birthed me so now, I'm just gon na section off my hair so that I can style it. Obviously, just you know section your hair. What'S best for you what's easiest for you, I'm not going to sit here and do like a time-lapse or my whole head. That'S not something that I'm down for okay, we're gon na tie this bad boy, people, I'm probably going to show you how I curl like two pieces on each side and then I'm just I'm gon na do my hair. So this is the length I know it doesn't seem like a lot, but it really. It really feels like a lot for me before. Obviously when it was about it. Like came past, my boobs I'd say was probably like to here ish, so I felt like age. I'M sorry that I'm dramatic, but I just feel like all my with hair, it's really intimidating cutting your hair, especially we're like I haven't, cut my hair and so long other than giving myself the occasional trim. I haven't gone like a haircut since I took my extensions out years ago and cut my hair like up to here, and that was the point where my hair was finally healthy and would finally grow, because before that, my hair was up to here just completely fried Off and so I was like - okay, I'm gon na start, where I'm going to start fresh with my healthy hair and now it's long and I'm scared so suck my dick you literally not gon na fail. So I've had my straightener on for like ten minutes, which I normally don't do I don't I just like turn it on and go. This is the Chi ultra. I'Ve talked about my strainer like a million times. I'Ve had this since I was in Middle School and I am old. I'Ve had it for a very long time. I'Ve probably had this for, like I don't know twelve years and it still works. Nice still love it and I never want to get any straightener. So here we are so what I do is I take sections like. Maybe this big, sometimes a little bit bigger. I try to do every piece a little bit differently, because I don't want all my curls to just blend in together, even though normally they do anyways, and so I take it and then I always start neck straighten about half way down so that the top of It'S smooth because obviously my hair is not smooth and I start a row halfway down, and I just twist it behind me so that the curls go like away from my face and that's literally it. I don't understand that people who are like, if you can curl your hair with a straightener you're, because it's like it's really not that hard. I do not have grow my hair with a curling iron. I can't there's no way for me to do it and obviously the slower that you go the tighter the curl, the faster that you go, the looser the curl will be so I always just like, I said, try to do each one a little bit differently, because Who knows like this one, I'm just kind of like the fastest, and so it's just like a little bit of a wave you know, can you see what I'm doing like honestly, you might even good at this. I know I'm gon na do the same thing on this side, but we're gon na go away from my face. You would go the opposite way. Can I just say, though, that my hair feels so healthy right now, it's kind of amazing like I'm, really into it. The answer my nerd don't feel like they're, just gon na fall off as soon as I touch them, which is cool I'll, take a bigger piece for this one. Actually, let me show you something and I feel, like all my pieces are blending together. I'Ll take a piece of like half the size with the other ones and I'll do it towards my face, something obviously the opposite direction with the rest of the curls cuz. Then this like sits in between them and creates almost like barriers, so that not everything can combine. I hope that makes sense just do curls in different directions. You know so I'll just do that every so often, if I feel like I need some sort of difference or depth or something I don't know the where I'm looking for, because I don't know what I'm talking about. This is just my hair, and this is what I do. Okay, I figured out what trade guys the first layer it feels so healthy. It'S so weird as my hair was healthy before, but it's like it's completely different. Obviously, when you get a haircut and I thought I'd cut a decent amount off like the end feels so nice and now that strop again, I can see the difference. I don't hope you guys can it just seems to like fluffy and bouncy if I'm just like, shrinking and breaking off whatever I can. I love it. I'M gon na finish man Wow, I feel like a woman. It looks like it feels so nice. I also didn't start up my bangs, like at all, I literally just left natural. I was scared that if I went over there with my flat iron, they would lose like this. Like flu penis, you know, so I'm just gon na leave it alone. For now I got my co-pays, oh my god, and they still fit behind my ear, which is perfect. I think they did a pretty good job on those bad boys. Honestly, I'm impressed and going through and me like trimming up my layers. I don't think all the layers, I guess they are later so yeah my layers. It makes it like. So I love doing that. I remember when I cut my hair really short and she would do this. It would look so healthy cuz, it all just like flow as it moves around it's so pretty. This is a good idea. Wow. I love myself, I'm so good at hair. Look at that face, but don't do the things that I do. Please don't cut your hair. Oh, but that's gon na, be it for this video hope you guys enjoy sorry that the entire video is me having like an existential crisis. I don't even know what an existential crisis is, but that's what I wanted to call it that I guess it was more like an internal thing me fighting with myself the entire video over whether or not I wanted to do it. I loved that I did what I did and runni did more. I'M glad you do less. Okay, sorry! I love you guys I'll see you in the next one bye can't-can't! Ladies get your song. Oh my god! Yesterday I went to my kuchi appointment. I did it. I have to go, get an ultrasound, I'm not pregnant. Let'S go get an ultrasound, so they can look at my ovaries doing that tomorrow. So exciting. I don't know why. I tell you these things see ya.