I Don'T Like This | Heatless Hairstyles, Posterior Training, + More | #Chosen Bikini Prep Ep 11

It'S not easy good morning, you guys, hopefully you enjoyed that little mini, get ready with me portion, I'm about to work out here in a little bit just sipping on some Legion cereal milk protein coat Emily as always or the spring sale is going on. So I will put my Spring Sale coat and the dates that that works on the screen, but this stuff is actually just super good by itself. Hence why I'm drinking it by itself, otherwise I wouldn't drink it by yourself if it wasn't good by itself. I never understand when people ask like, especially when I repeatedly like drink something or use something or eat something they're like do you like that, and I'm like no, I just repeatedly use it and share it because I hate it anyway yeah into today. I don't have to have a posterior chain workout day, also what we're not gon na do in this video is judge my eyebrows, because I did a fresh tint on them this morning and I left it on too long. I didn't set a timer. I was like. Oh well I'll just do this voila, while I'm tinting them - and I did this for a bit too long. I was getting my progress photos and everything ready for this morning and then I was like. I got ta wash this off, there's a little too much, but thankfully this fades decently fast, especially like the first couple days like I would say around like theyd, two or three: it's when it's normally the best, so we're just we're not gon na talk about they Zero we're not gon na talk about it. This video, it should be pretty fun. I'Ve been into matcha lately, so I'm trying a new brand and I'll show you guys that I guess we'll do that after the workout. But then there's also just been like some body stuff going on. So I want to have like a little chitchat with you guys about that later on and yeah. I never really like update YouTube, because I assume you guys are all updated because you follow me and sir Graham, but I feel like that's an incorrect assumption. You know what they say about assumptions anytime. You assume that makes me an ass out of you and me, but obviously shows are being canceled sugar being pushed back. My first show was already supposed to happen and I found out about a month out that it was canceled so like we just kind of readjusted the plan right now, I'm on, like a small diet, break, my calories got brought up around 300 and then I have Two back-to-back refeeds every week that are higher than that cardio came down, so it's just like a nice little break for my system, since my season is gon na be extended. So that's not what we're going to talk about today, but what we're going to talk about? We'Ll talk about later, for now, let's workout, you may be pretty, she may be small. She may be funny. She'S changed your broken heart I'll, never be her. She may seem perfect for you, but trouble in paradise. You'Re, seeing things the I hate you, the we you yeah, if I told you cousin Dole, were you waiting for me? What are you waiting for me to be good? She literally sits down here, while I'm working out the whole time and just waits for me to be done. Yeah we get a video log. Oh yeah you'll be girl. I love you. Let'S give this a try. It'S really tasty. It'S just like I'm gon. Na be honest, I'm not a bunch of expert, but it tastes like very light and fresh and green like it's. The greenest tasting, not like grass green but like just I don't know, green tea tasting matcha I've ever liked made. I'M also really been liking, and this is why I've been buying so much marques, because I bought this Mel's like wow. This is really good. I should drink this stuff more. This hustle matcha tea, taste and I don't know I might be a fairly well-educated fitness professional, but some things just make you feel healthy, regardless of data. No data like wheatgrass shots like I love, we crash shops, so I just I just feel better about myself and that's really what life's all about right? Okay, okay, so I took a shower and I did my weekly a hair wash and I've been a big fan of no-heat hairstyles lately, so I just wanted to show you guys, one of the ones that I've been doing. It'S super easy. I posted a different one on my, like fashion beauty, lifestyle page, so I will put that are you, but this one is basically just doing two french twists on the side of your head and like letting your hair dry. That way - and it looks super just beachy like Giselle Bundchen - I just look like this kind of kind of waves afterwards, so you want to make sure that your hair is still slightly damp. You don't want to do this on super dry hair. If your hair is dry, you can literally just use a spritz bottle and like spritz, your hair, so it's damp, so all you're gon na do you're gon na start, taking your hair you're, basically just gon na start French twist in it we're twisting it there. It'S gon na take pieces. I don't really do the first couple without adding any hair to it and then I'll start adding whole pieces to the hair, but I'm currently working with this does not have to be super precise by any means. Now a lot of times. I will do this and sleep on it, but it's midday, so this should hopefully be dry. You know by the nighttime I mean not like I'm going anywhere, but sometimes it's kind of uncomfortable to sleep in depending on where you get the little bun, which I will show you in a second and then just twist it into a little bun. And then, because I have really thick heavy hair, I use these big long bobby pins and you just what and I've been middle parting. My hair a lot lately, but I especially like the middle part it with that. If I'm doing this - and I can flip it over once - it's all done and everything if I want to, but when it's metal parted. That way, I get like an even sized waver curl on each side, because it's the same amount of hair versus when I side part my hair and there's like a ton of hair over here and not that much over here. So I'm just gon na do the other side, real, quick, awkward funds overhead, but my hardly super cute afterwards and nobody's gon na see me besides the thousands of people who watch this video anyway. That'S how you do it I'll show you guys when it's done. I don't know if also many more clips today, because I'll look like this. So if I do you'll see him and if I don't see you tomorrow, okay, I might still filmed it. This actually doesn't look that bad the entire time. I film that I had no idea that you could see my silver wig in the background. I just saw it in the closet today and I wanted to try it on, and so I did and it's just gelling there that does it. Okay, but actually I don't hate it, I really don't hate it. Maybe I'll just wear this all day. No, no. I got ta wear this all day. Maybe alright you guys, so I just wanted to show you how my hair came out. Obviously I pinned the little front bits back just because I like having my hair out of my face. I'Ve been in this place where I look cuz normally, especially when I work I just tipped my head over and like twist my hair up in my little bun and clip it with my alligator clip and like that's how I live my life, I'm like Emily. You have all this hair. What'S the point, if you just wear it up all the time I'm like well, I'm not cutting my hair, so I'm trying to find ways to wear it down more often that are more convenient. Also. I have so much hair that if I like, keep it up for too long, I get headaches so such as the struggle of having think long have you here anyway. This is how I came out. I just spray it with some light hold hairspray and it's good to go like I'll use some weight spray on it too. But that is downstairs - and I don't have that up here - where I'm filming this quick. Also, I don't know how people literally have an entire head of hand tied extensions, because that's like my gray piece, that's the only fake hair that I have the rest of. It is all mine, but my little gray, piece like it's a it's a tied extension and this little all the way through, but I can't, but also because I haven't been able to get it moved because of obvious reasons. It'S just it's really fun. It'S moved down like an inch but anyway because it moves like as your hair grows. Anyway, that's how this no-heat hairstyle came out. Just nice and Michi okay, we're gon na carry on with the rest of video. My dog is white. Oh, it's like you Welsh any bill. I am opening the car door Shukla and huh as usually I'd pull it out today, yeah watch you yeah, yeah saddle their flowers in the garden you nearly flipped on roshanda. He had different vision. Oh, my dear you like flowers, New Zealand, if you flip it is already finished, you do feel a little bit of dried Ian. You usually fun, then you usually fan it. That does it. I just wonder how cute this angle is. What do you think? Oh Tony euros: boys, okay, guys this focus. We really never know here. We out, please don't lock the camera for Alina, really fancy staged angle here. Oh I'm so disoriented. Today, no time is really just a construct, but anyway I want to start wrapping this video up here, as you guys saw in the last clip. I have been, I've actually been practicing. My French, I use duolingo. I got it like a year ago and I was planning on going to Greece to try and like learn. Some basic Greek and then I won did not go to Greece. That was a whole thing and then I like added on French to it, just because I already speak it and I wanted to brush up so I figured I don't know I just felt like I wanted to do that in myself. Isolation, sometimes so like disconnect my brain from things, but anyway I know I mentioned in the beginning of the video like wanting to lose the news just on one right now. You should see her behind the camera, like her tail is wrapped around the tripod but like in the beginning of the video just like talking about some body related stuff, and I don't know I fit like. I feel like I've just been so much more disconnected from YouTube versus, like I used to tell YouTube like everything - and I don't know I just kind of gotten away from that - not because I don't want to be real but kinda. Just because I got tired of like being criticized for literally everything that I would a-and, I've just become like more of a private person, especially when it comes to like that kind of stuff. I don't know I could get on like such a ramble, but anyway, I've been going through like this weird thing, where I mean everybody struggles with body image issues right like regardless of what your body looks like, regardless of how confident you are, regardless of anything like Everybody goes through just like weird stuff right, and I've been going through this thing that I've literally never experienced in my whole life, where I don't love how muscular I am right now like this is the most obviously, because this is the longest I've been training ever In my life, because that's how time works, you know times of contract. This is the most muscular be dense. I'Ve ever been in my life and I go through like weird periods where I just don't love it, even though I know I did it on purpose and, like I know I did it on purpose, especially for like competitive reasons, but I don't know, I've just been Going through this weird thing, where like in don't get me wrong most days, I feel pretty great. I'M like yeah we're killing it, but then there's just days where I'm like I don't like this and like getting dressed, can be a nightmare sometimes especially like like because my proportions are so just different from top to bottom. I don't know and like this isn't me trying to complain at all and I'm not trying to like grab for like praise or compliments or whatever, but like I don't know, I feel like. Sometimes I can come across because I don't voice these things as much anymore. That, like I, never struggle with anything and that, like oh, it's all just fun and games hunky-dory here also, I don't know if you can see my records, but I haven't shaved them in a couple days. So we're just waiting it all out here, but yeah. There'S times where my brain, I'm like I don't love this look on me so much and yeah, it's not all the time. It'S just sometimes, and then I start to wonder like could I compete with less tissue than I have because, like my last critique was that I needed more tissue, particularly in my glutes, but, like I don't know and obviously like. I still have some getting leaner to do, and now I have plenty of time to do it, because my season was supposed to be done in like June, and now it's probably not gon na get started until like July, which is great like that gives us more Time to get ready that gives me time now to have like a nice little break and bring food up and cardio down and all that stuff, but, like it definitely kind of sucks this, my season is now not even gon na be started like after it was Already supposed to be done with based on like what we planned for, but I also know that, like I could decide not to do it. If I really didn't want to do it and at this point in time I still really want to do it. So I'm doing it, I don't know I'm just freaking, weird vomiting, because again I feel like I don't do this as much anymore and like so they're there like then feeling weird about the body stuff and then I've just been feeling this like weird place around social Media, where, like I've, wanted to be more private these last few years, but then I also feel disconnected and like sometimes I'll go back and watch old videos, and you know from this time like 4 years ago and I'll be like wow. I remember just feeling so much more connected to like the people watching my stuff. I just felt so much more like I don't know, I don't know and I feel like. Maybe some of that feeling was just like. I did put so much out there and it was almost like this naivety, because I hadn't gotten as much crap for putting you know myself out there, and I know that's something that you can't really avoid, and people have their different opinions on it about like. Oh well, you you're you're an influencer. This is what you should expect from people that edit it. I don't think you should ever expect people to be like cruel to you, just for being who you are and like all that kind of stuff that I'm getting on. So many tangents right now but yeah. I just felt weird - and I just wanted to share that, because I felt weirdly disconnected from you guys and I feel like there's this weird, like veil thing happening and like there's all this freaking virus stuff going on right now, and everything just feels weird, and sometimes I just miss, like you know, when you're younger and you don't know as much about life and you haven't lived as much life, and so you like look back on that time. You'Re like wow. I was naive to so much and you almost like wish. You could be naive to that again like this is going in so many different directions. I don't forget now, but just yeah. I just want to have like a little chat and see where it went, because I feel like I used to do that a lot and it felt really nice and that's that's. What we're doing right now is we're we're having just a nice little heart-to-heart chat at the end of the video, so I guess to sum it up. Sometimes I feel worried about my body, even though I'm generally pretty confident in it most of the time, and so it's okay. If you are too, I feel a weird disconnect that I kind of did on purpose, but now I kind of feel weird about it because I feel disconnected, and I don't know what to do about it and life's pretty weird right now. It'S all I got so man, that's it for me. I love you guys so much if you enjoyed this video or if you just feel similarly give this thing a thumbs up, leave a comment below subscribe to the channel. If you haven't already for this just super high quality content, obviously these grande angles click the notification bell, so you never miss an upload and I love you. I didn't mean for any of this to come off negative. I just wanted to like talk to you because I'm never trying to make my life seem like it's perfect, because it's not it's far from it anyway. I love you so much give yourself a hug for me right now, literally. Do it right now, Big M Dawg, hug hugs? Are my favorite and I'll? See you next time, bye!