Cutting My Own Hair!

I did something really stupid and i hope you're ready to appreciate it. This is what i like to call a very bad idea. The children are asleep. I'Ve been growing this out since i got pregnant with elias and we're gon na change it because i'm tired of it, it's gon na, come out either fantastic or completely horrible, and i'm here for both of those so yeah, that's where this is where i am at. In life, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, oh this is gon na be bad. I can sense it. My dad does not have a comb. Oh that makes it so much worse. Okay, let's just uh, try to get it as straight as humanly possible and we'll just go from there yep. This is happening. My mom is gon na kill me and i don't care you really don't care yeah it we're just going for it. Yeah there's no turn. There'S no turning back, there's absolutely no turning back now, oh god, i'm already obsessed yep. That is, that is the length of which i desire to have yep, and then this side is going to be longer, because i want that asymmetrical bob, okay yeah! I can do this. I can do this. I can do i am panicking, but i can do this yeah, okay, fantastic, already missing big chunks. Does anybody else love mental breakdowns on youtube because same okay, yep, yep? Okay? This is where it's gon na get bad, because i don't have a way to see the back of my head at all. Okay, do you know what it doesn't look bad right now it doesn't look bad, it looks fairly. Even i don't want to come through and do an undercut as well because, like of course, i am so that's where we're at right now, yep just having a moment: yep, okay, okay, doing the big chop for everybody likes the big chop: yep, okay, okay! So far you can't you don't want it bad, it's just like definitely a lot shorter than normal, okay and then this one, this side we're gon na. Keep it longer. Let me um, let me section this a little bit more so that way, i know where my longest point is: okay, okay, brush it out, because i don't want them tangles messing with it. Okay, i've had a moment. Let'S see like that's cute, i'm down with that down with that: okay, all right: okay, okay, yep, like that yep okay, because i want the asymmetrical bob. Look, that's what we are going for: okay, okay, okay, it's not bad! That'S not bad! Okay! I keep like wait. Am i like? Am i like not mad right now? I am insane. I am physically insane. You know it's great. I have a wedding to go to in less than a week, i'm a bridesmaid. Hopefully she still wants to be friends with me. But like wait, i'm not mad though like this is a vibe. I have no idea what the back looks like i'll check that in the video and then i'll decide if i need to keep cutting this is so much hair, though wait a minute. Okay, before i check the video and see what all i need to do to keep cutting look at pregnancy does that to your hair? Oh, my god, this is intense. This is intense. My children aren't even gon na recognize me when they wake up from their nap they're gon na be like. Oh no mom had a breakdown. Yes, yes, i did. I did have a breakdown. Okay, but like i'm, not it's a vibe right like it's a vibe right like this is cute right. This is what i wanted lengthwise and stuff. I think i'll do like an undercut. So that way i could like tuck my hair back and it will still be like, like oh look, she's got something hidden right, it's a vibe right! I don't know what a vibe is anymore. That'S what i'm getting at or like. If i pull this up and out of the way - and you can - i don't know what side i'll do the undercut on, but well i'm not mad, it doesn't feel bad in the back. It just feels like a little super uneven. I should check the back. Okay. I'M gon na do one more spin around just really check the back. Okay, hopefully that looks fine all righty, so i had to pull it up so that way, i could show you guys everything that i did. It is still that asymmetrical bob. I did even out a little bit of the back and things like that, um still without any help, so i'm gon na have to get some help uh eventually, but i tied up all of the long pieces. So that way, i can show you guys that i shaved all of right here and like stops behind my ear point um just so that way i can do once this grows back out, because i don't have clippers to just you know, make it super short right Here but once it grows out a little bit, i want to bleach it and then i want to do like a little spiral right and then i'm going to dye the rest of this black, but that will be a part two for healing purposes: um but yeah. I am super super happy with how this came out and then i'm gon na film, an intro and i'm gon na get ready to upload this video um by the time you're watching this. I uploaded it, but yeah super happy with how it came out. Yes, i had a complete manic moment where i was like. I want control of my body back. What am i going to do? I'M going to cut all my hair, i cut in total 12 yeah 12 and a half inches. It'S like. Was it a half or was it a third? It was a half, it was a half yeah 12 and a half inches off of this short side. That was a lot of hair. It was a lot of freaking hair to just completely cut, and then i don't. I should have, i should have measured one of these things and then added that to the twelve and a half to see how long my hair actually was, but it's whatever um but yeah twelve and a half inches just gone and like for a long time. I was really sad about always having short hair and i was so excited when i started growing out my hair and then i remembered why i've always kept my hair super short. It'S because i hate the maintenance of long hair, so i'm so happy to have this back and it's like it's an interesting cut. It'S you know like it's out there. It'S not something! I see a lot of other people have so i'm excited with how it came out. I'M super happy like i can do so many cute little like. I think this is cute right now. The way i have it styled like a little half up half down. I still think that's really cute and then, when i do it like this once this grows out - and i can do it then i'll like i'll, have like my little spiral moment. It'Ll be like oh she's, got a surprise and there's like there's so many, oh there's. So many ideas - and then i've got more stuff to film this weekend - that i'm super excited to show you guys, because we're going to the freaking renaissance, but yeah super excited. It'S going to be great. I'M excited to show everybody all these things that i'm doing, i'm just really excited to be back editing videos, so i'm finding every excuse to edit my videos and like film, like. I know that in the video that you guys watched last time, it was like. Oh yeah, like these are the videos i plan now, i'm just filming everything that i feel like and once they're done, they're done and i'm uploading them um and i will be setting like those main videos that i discussed in that other video i'll be setting those On as premieres, so that way um, you know, i don't know like that. It feels like those are more important videos, and then i want them to be like you know out there more and that they deserve the the premiere option off of youtube. But things like this, obviously i'm just going to upload and be like. If you see it, you see it dope. If you don't see you next time, if you tune in but yeah super excited, and i can't wait to film more and do more and the renaissance video is going to be one of these ones where it's just like once it's uploaded it's uploaded and it's just Going to be a cute little family vlog, i'm so happy um anyway, thanks for watching and here comes the end card, you