The Truth About Natural Hair: Im Tired Of My 4C Natural Hair! My 16 Year Natural Hair Journey!

To be honest, I'm tired of it I'm tired of my natural hair, hello, hello, everyone, it's and welcome back to my channel. I know it's been a while have y'all missed me. I'Ve missed you all so much, but a lot has been happening. Life Changes traveling this and that I just wanted to come back and end the year. Strong. So forgive me while I was away, but I'm back now, but I believe this month will make two years since I opened this Channel and honestly, if you all don't know, I haven't my main Channel with my twin sister, Ed Shema um. We talk about all things. Uh Millennials moving. She lives in Charlotte North Carolina, I'm in Houston, Texas um. You just took some relationship talking. Everyone loves that stuff and um. We both still work full time, so it has been a lot, but I really had to go back to think about why I started this Channel and I believe throughout this channel, because I have a passion for hair and wellness um natural hair to be specific for Type 4 hair to be specific, and I have type 4C here so I started off this channel a lot of different things and seeing how you all you know, responded to the content. I know um my top video, as of now is the cure to itchy, scalp and um. Thank you all so much for still watching that video. I still get comments DMS on Instagram and I'm really just happy. I was able to help others, because I know how difficult it was going through that and looking for information and looking for help. So I'm just so happy. I'M able to help people - and you know itchy scalp - is something you don't want to experience but um. I also started off talking a lot about natural hair and um. That is where my heart lies. This year has been difficult natural, hair, wise. To be honest, I'm tired of it I'm tired of my natural hair, I'll, be honest, like I'm tired, just to give a little background story. If you haven't watched my video, what I wish, I knew um before um going natural, how I overcame a 15 year growth plate. So I'm gon na link that below and put in the description box. Please watch that video, because this really gives you some great background information, but to sum it up, I have been natural for 16 years I went natural not on not with idea of ever wearing my natural hair. I stopped perming my hair, I believe 2006 um. I was a sophomore in high school because it was so painful. Every time I got a perm with a professional at home, my scalp would be on fire. I just made the conclusion that relaxes is not for me. So as an athlete I was a basketball player. I just kept my hair in you know protective styles, whether it be braids sew-ins. You know soles with a thing back then back and forth. Back and forth. I never wore my hair out um. You know some leave outs, press. The leave outs. Have your hair out. It wasn't until the summer after my freshman year of college, shout out to Temple University 2010 that I realized you know people wearing their natural hair as a style. You know, I don't know whether I started watching YouTube. No, because my YouTube account. I believe it's creative. So I was in yeah 2010, so I believe I started watching YouTube and saw that you can actually wear your natural hair, a lot of um, especially black women, especially black women. From you know, Africa. We grew up looking at our hair, as is either in weave or it's cut low like a lot of people, don't even visualize their natural hair or it's perm. So we don't even think about our natural hair in this Natural State being a style, because a lot of people have been conditioned to sneakers unkept. It doesn't look done so I'm I kid you not. I speak about it in this. In my um video, when I first wore my hair out natural didn't did like some twist out. I blew dry, my hair first, I should show you how much I didn't know. I just blew blue dried. It then went and got it wet again to twist it and wore it out, and I got the most compliments to my hair in my life from people from all walks of all walks of life white Asian black. It wasn't just black people compliment to me. Men, women, like it was almost like. I felt like they were lying to me at a point because it just felt like it was like it couldn't be real and that's when I started realizing like. Why am I always putting these wigs and weaves in my hair? Not wigs, because I didn't wear wigs at that point weaves in my hair and braids I could just wear my real hair, so I started wearing my hair out in 2010 2011. I dyed my hair. I would put in a peach like this orange is blonde. I still want to dye my hair again. That may be what I have to do to like, not be tired of my hair anymore and then um, I'm trying I dyed my hair word all out in 2012, challenged myself to not put any braids wigs weaves in it, and I was able to do that. I think that happened color and it made my hair exciting. It made it fun. I was. I was um motivated to wear my hair out and then in at graduate 2013 2014 is when I started wearing wigs and I really started wearing wigs because in 2014 I started experiencing a lot of flaky scalp and I didn't know what it was at the time And over time it progressed and I realized you know, I got diagnosed diagnosed. Everything first, you think is dandruff wasn't dandruff. It was literally my scalp got diagnosed semi dermatitis psoriasis and I do think it was. A combination of psoriasis herbicide dermatitis tried everything and if you want to know how I solved my itchy scalp, I'm gon na link this video, you got ta watch it because by the grace of God I am healed. It'S I don't experience that anymore, but it was really bad 2015 that I gained a lot of weight that year, a lot of weight. Stressful period of My Life, 2014, 2015, very stressful, going through a lot of things. In my personal life, my hair in the center fell out like in a clump, and you when you hear people hair, I think, while their hair just falling out - and I always just think like how would that happen - that's not possible. It happened to like literally a chunk of my hair fell out. I had paired. I was like this long. It was from trying times I looked back and think about what he has done for me. Praise him praise him. After that, I got um my weight into control started getting back started, focusing on Wellness. You know getting back to my normal Subs still on the journey, because it's a lifelong journey um but um. I noticed my scalp got a little better as I was eating better and losing weight. You know being more active drinking, more water and then 2018 comes and I experience a growth spurt. I put that video into my hair past my shoulder straightened. My hair has never been that long. I don't remember it being that long as I as long as I've been younger or natural, maybe younger. When I was permed, it would be around there, but it was like and I'm like significant growth, and, to be honest, I don't even remember what I was really doing. I can't even think back to think it was something specific. What I do know is that me wearing wigs um a lot starting to wear wigs. I would have my hair in cornrows just wash the corals. Every week my hair started itching, that's where I started wearing wigs, because I look at all my hair y'all. Look at all this hair. I can't do this every week shout out to the natural girls who do their hair every week I salute y'all. I salute job, especially as a 4C girl. It'S too much. I don't want to do my hair every week. You know back, then I didn't have money to go to salon every week to get my even now. I wouldn't go to salon every week to do my hair. To be honest, so I had to find something that was practical and easy. You know a more realistic something I could commit to, and it was you know having my hair on cornrows keeping the cornrows in a month to two and just washing them every week, conditioning them every week, and then I was um. You know my hair was protected. So I think that may have helped you know the perspective style. This is before all the frontals on that stuff, just basic wigs basic, cheap synthetic wigs. But when I think back to that time, I really used to enjoy doing my hair, like it was a fun thing, looking forward to wash my hair at least like every two weeks. Sometimes I used to even wash it every week earlier before my itchy scalp face just when I had the energy, especially over the summer, I would style it try this style, try that style. I was a product junkie too, so I think that's also what made me more excited to do my hair, because every time I had some new product - and I wanted to use it - so I was excited to you know to do my own hair use these new Products to see how my hair would result, but honestly, in the last few years specifically this year has been crazy. I stopped enjoying doing my natural hair and I think, there's a few things that have led to it um back then, when I was doing my natural hair, I was either student working part-time, but now it's like a real full-time worker in the real world. When I have time off, when I'm not working after 40 hours plus YouTube, Maybe a good 10 15 hours a week, I don't want to spend the rest of my time doing, hair like it's, not it's, not something that I want to do time. Wise, then also when I was at home before I moved this year, I was living at home. We had like a basin in the basement where you can watch like you, can bend over and wash your hair. I always deep condition my hair, when I wash it so now that I'm living by myself in her apartment, my options to wash my hair, like in the kitchen sink, which I don't like to me, is very weird. Like washing your hair, where you wash food like where you eat you know put like, I don't know something about it in my mind, because I didn't grow up doing it that way, they're like washing my hair in the kitchen sink it just it's just a little Weird to me, then the bathtub I got ta bend down. You know, there's no hole. You know, there's no thing that I can use the the hoses is one that's steadfast at the top. That'S doing too much right honestly, think my setup twos was made washing my hair just very uncomfortable, very messy. I either have to shampoo my hair in the kitchen and condition it then put the deep conditioner in one washing out in the shower, or I do the reverse. I wash the shampoo and condition in the shower then wash on my kitchen sink. It'S just too messy too messy. I'M not used to doing my hair like that. So I think that also has been a big factor like I mentioned the time it should be. Like I just been tired, I got back then I feel like I had that energy like I said, because I wasn't working 40 hours. I was a student or you know I just was into all these things. Working, like you know, small jobs here that I had that energy in time to really invest in my hair, but now I just don't want to do it anymore, so this year alone, I've had five to five five different people. In my hair, one was Nautilus, braids and then four different hair stylists this year, and I decided to stick with one who was close to me and I really like her, and I first would stop me why I started keep searching like she's a little pricey. You know I made a video about the Nature's natural hair community, scam and honestly, you know more, doesn't always equal better, but sometimes it equals better. Like I found people that did the hair a little cheaper, but the technique is not good. My hair feels weird. I don't like the products they use, my scalp flares up, so I'm just like when she did my hair once she just did this a couple days ago, like my hair, was so moist. My hair was good, like I just felt you know the difference and then my other hair stylist she's, the one I've been going through for over 10 years in Jersey shout out to Velma, but you know I don't live there anymore, so I have been to her Twice this year and she's the one that's straighten my hair twice this year, she's giving me two trims this year, even though I'm not living there, even though I'm not there, because when I go back, I channel is book an appointment, but also that makes like that Makes it a little stressful when I go back, I happen to go. Do my hair, you know, like I've, noticed that, like it takes a lot of time out for my trips, when I go back to see my family, so I really need to be committed to finding someone here and sticking to it. So I think I found my I have found my lady and I'm sticking to her my hair stylist. I think also too I I've read that before I've seen that somewhere, that like having two people in your hair is not good, and I believe that, because people do hair so differently, people tug people, people have the different techniques and you have different hands people combing. It definitely the handling different you don't you're not able to really notice when there's a change made in your hair care. If that makes sense, because you just have all these hands in your hair, you don't know if my hair fell out or something it's, because I did this or my stylist did this, because you have so many people in your hair to be honest, um I even Wanted to get what's the hairstyle I wanted to get. I was playing that I had booked for and um I plan to get a flexi rod setup. I went together for a while and my hairstyles were transparent to me. She was like how long do you want your hair to last and I told her she was like, don't get that and I really respect her for that because I wanted I want this is like my go-to. Even I used to do my hair really twist outs. Different sizes and like I'm tired of it, but it does it - is the most sustainable natural hairstyle for me like. I can keep it in twists for even two weeks in a twist it for another week, and I I can get a good three weeks like honestly. I could wear a Twist on for a month. The only reason I can't keep it twist out for a month is because of my scalp condition, but if I'm someone that my hair didn't itch, I didn't have an itchy scalp. I didn't have that history of you know flaking or built up. I can keep it twist out for a month plus it would be the best protective style for me. So that's why it is the most you know, cost effective. It'S it's low maintenance, low manipulation. Once it's twisted, it's done so, but I'm getting so tired of it. Sometimes I just want a different style. I think that's the thing with natural hair is that, for me, is that it's become very stagnant and stale either I color my hair or I style it differently, but, like me doing, the same styles has been very boring, like I'm tired of my natural hair I'll, Be honest, I'm very tired of it, so I did make an appointment a few appointments for next year because my stylist's um book had opened and I made an appointment for uh some type of twist I've seen girls on YouTube. Where and I really like it. I know it may be a little short on me, but I really also have considered getting my um sisterlocks. You know, so I also want to kind of see that look on me. I know this twist is a little different but finger coils. So I made an appointment next year for finger coils um for January next month and I'm just thinking of just trying things to keep it new. I even made an appointment for a wash and go. I want to try wash and go on my hair. I always felt like my texture wash and goes were not for 4C hair girl. So if you see some content in exchange, you see me starting to wear wash and goes know that I found the light because you know I really like the look of them. They you know this. It seems like this simpler style um. I know you have to train your hair for it, especially as a 4C girl, but I'm going to try that next year. So I really I'm just challenging myself to try different things, because I think that's also why I've become so bored with my natural hair is that I haven't dyed it in over 10 years. I'M doing the same Styles, and for some people it's okay. Some people can wear the same Styles and then they're good with it. But for me it's not working like I'm really like not to say I would perm it because I don't really see the benefit of perming. My hair, where I am in my life, because I would still just be wearing a ponytail every day and I'm trying to not wear wigs as much um. I have a few weeks. I go trust protective styles, but I just need some inspiration. I need some natural hair inspiration even early today. I binge a lot of YouTube videos on my watch later about hair and it just made me start. You know enjoying it again because I felt like I was not enjoying natural hair. I wasn't watching any natural hair content, it didn't hair content, just didn't interest me anymore, like I was just bored with all of it. Let me know if you've ever experienced, that down below another thing um. That kind of frustrated me, too, is that my hair, I feel like they didn't, really grow this year. Okay, it has grown this year. I have not seen hair growth, the meaning that is growing, but it's breaking. So that's also frustrating too. You know I'm bored with the Styles and I feel like my hair is like the same length hasn't really grown to share um. I'Ve had three trims February May and most recently November. So I'm thinking I really feel like. I need to get back into just really taking care of my hair just because you're going to the hair stylists more like this, is the I've been to the salon more times this year than ever in my life, it doesn't mean that your hair is just going To grow, and I feel like a lot of people, think that no like is what you do in between that, really makes the difference how you care for your hair, like I become very lazy like not really, like you know, sealing my Edge moisturizing doing all those Things that I used to do not really being into my hair anymore, just like whatever and I've noticed that you know my hair as a result hasn't you know, has been flourishing. The way I wanted to so um yeah. I think that is part of it, like also not seeing length retention. Then you know not being able not really be interested in doing these Styles and not having Styles, I'm really interested in anymore. I think that also has been a part of it. Another fact that, like I mentioned my stylist with the Legacy around setting her suggesting me to get the twist out, is that I'm active, I work out five times this week, trying to keep it up. So it's like. I can't just have my hair anyway that every day I need to keep like twisting it or manipulating it. I want a low manipulation style because I do work out. You know, so that's also another thing. So a lot of these Styles sometimes they're cute they're nice, but they don't last long. So that's not an ideal style for me because I don't want to be touching my hair every few days like that's not what I want to be doing and at this point in my life, that's not an interest for me but yeah. Really. My question is: how do I make natural hair fun again, you know how do I get back into it? How do I get out of this rut this feeling you know I'm so bored so over it um. If you have any suggestions, if you've experienced this as well, please comment down below and I can't wait to see you all in my next video don't forget to subscribe. If you like this content, please please like this video to really just help. My channel and I'll see you in my next video bye. You all