Life Update: Break Up'S, Laser Hair, Insecurities..

Hello guys and welcome back to my channel so today i am doing basically like a chitchat, get ready with me. Okay, so audrey is currently in nigeria and he took my 50m lens, so i've got the 85, so it's like proper zoomed in i'm like very far away guys but anyways. This is what we're gon na have to use today so off camera. I literally did my wig cap method um, my hair was grown back so right now, it's like i say this length and it's just so thick. So if you see my wigs, like i said before, just chilling on my head guys, i'm sorry, but you it's it's an awkward stage where i can't camera and i can't plan it. I can't do nothing so i'm just gon na have to let it afro. Basically. So i've tried to flatten it down as much as i can and stuff like that, but we'll see how it goes. Anyways. This video is with mega look hair and they sent me this beautiful blonde wig guys i'm going to try my best to style it as best as i could um well as i can, but yeah. If, with mega look hair and in the box, you've got a pair of eyelashes off a clip and a wig cap as well and a brush i've got loads of these brushes, but they always come in handy. This is the wig here, it's like a blonde highlighted. Wig, it's got loads of blonde highlights and by the way guys, i've got a stuffy nose. So if you hear me a lot or like wipe my nose, i'm pretty sure i've got hey people guys but yeah. This is what it looks like here. So i'm going to start this wig, but before we get into it, it is like a chitchat get rid of me so we'll be talking about relationships we'll be talking about um. My my insecurities and just a whole lot of topics that we want to. I want to be talking about if you guys, because i don't really do videos like this um, i tend to kind of step away from youtube because i still enjoy making content. Oh my gosh, my nose is running, i'm so sorry, guys, anyways yeah. I'Ve enjoyed making content i'm newly or more on tick. Tock, and i've addressed this in videos like a months ago. I just prefer tik tok now, like even instagram, is just like ew um, i feel like tick. Tock is like how youtube used to be like back in the day like it was so fun. No one was getting offended easily, like you could do like funny stuff without saying people are saying like you're doing too much and stuff like that, but i'll get onto youtube. Again, i don't mind like recreating video. Like i love creating content period. I honestly i don't care how many people watch i'd love, creating content i like to make wig cap as literally as tight as possible. Oh she's! So pretty that's the thing guys i hate when it comes because i've got such low hairline. So can you see this is where my hairline, like literally stops, and the wig is giving the wig is given weird hairline like it's not coming down as much as i want it to come down, or i should do a middle. What do you think? Because i wanted my ear, i want to look all cute. You know me with my side parts i love to have cheeky ear out. I love a cheeky side on me guys. I really do okay. In order for me to do the side i might just have to do one side only and leave the other okay. So what i'm going to do first is try and secure the wig on my head before blow drying or any of the other styling to the hair. So that's what i'm going to do now. So let me just do that because i can't do two things at once, so once it's on my head guys, that's what i'll get into the talking part of the video. But let me just quickly do this: okay, i'm gon na use! What'S left of my olive oil fix it spray, i'm just gon na spray, it directly onto the hair to keep the lace on before i style, and this is that way, i'm able to like pull it down, i'm just going to put a band on still on. I'M going to put a band on and slide it up slide it up. Okay, so i just killed a band on there so as i'm styling the hair, but now i'm going to leave this on. I'M just going to cut away like this part because it's actually annoying my eyes go in with my brush quickly. Okay, so now as i'm styling this hair, so you guys know basically how i styled it now. It'S just basically doing the baby hairs and stuff. So i don't need to go into detail that, because it is a chitchat, get ready with me, so i've recently seen loads of people breaking up and i'm not gon na lie. I'Ve recently gone through a breakup, but it wasn't a relationship breakup. It was more of a friendship breakup and literally it was like the toughest things i've actually experienced in my life, i'm not even joking. I swear to you now because what it was like, i literally went through like this five stages of grief. Guys, like i went through this five stages of grief - and you know me if you know me, you know, i don't have a lot of friends, so the people that call my friends they mean, like literally the world to me and so yeah. I literally went through the five stages of grief of this one, it's funny, because people are saying sometimes friendship, breakups can be harder than relationship breakups and guys. Let me tell you it was definitely right for me. It was more that i needed to know what was the outcome of the friendship like what was like, not the outcome but like because, basically the person like aired me for like a whole year with me, not knowing like what was going on. So i just needed closure that kind of thing, like you know, someone so close to you just sometimes like one day like they vanish, and i was like what is going on. I think i just need a closure from that friendship to like okay, then, okay, i can officially now move on which i have. I have definitely i have moved on, but i remember the time like it just felt like the hardest thing i went through, and that was personally just me and my son. It was very hard, it was very hard and i understand all of this um relationship like and yeah it's funny, because i've just been it's not funny, but i've been seeing like loads of people going through breakups and losses and friendships and all that stuff - and this Is like wow like? Is everyone going through it, but yeah um? You do you do at the end. You do just have to get on with it. To be honest with you, it is sad, but when you look back, the only thing you can look back is the happy memories that you had together and that's about it like. I have no resentment or no hatred for that person. I really don't it's just pure love, it really is, but at the end of the day i think people just outgrow each other and they grow up, which i've never understood and i still don't understand it but each zone. I guess i don't know how i got on that topic. Actually i just found it. I literally oh, my gosh actually poked my eye out of the scissors, but anyways yeah. So i don't know if you, if i've updated you on youtube, but i have been going through laser hair removal guys. I think this is more like an update in my life. Actually so i don't know if you've seen the last video or a video ages ago about that, i had like hair on my chin and loads of people pointed it out, which i really didn't mind, because if i didn't want to show you guys, i've just sort Of like shaved it and stuff like that, but on my like jawline for years i was suffering with some hair um. I don't know what it is. I honestly would not know what the cause of it is, but yeah suffered from like hair on my head, like i started getting so insecure about it, like that was my biggest insecurity from my whole body, and i've had so much insecurities throughout the years about my Body and stuff like that, but with that it was definitely the hair and because um i like i said enough, is enough. I found this really really good clinic and it is uh amazing. It'S a skin clinic called aura skin clinic and they are amazing. So i've been doing, i think, five sessions - five sessions - if that's not correct, then i'll list it below guys, but i've been doing sessions with them, and let me tell you it has been the best decision of my life so before obviously going with them. I was looking at skin. Clinics will be good for obviously dark skin or like laser hair removal clinics that all specialize in dark skin or like they use stuff that specializes in dark, skin and sensitive skin and all that stuff and the machines that all my skin clinic uses is just amazing. Like i think they say it's recommended for dark hair, but as in for like dark skin, i didn't know basically yeah. I didn't know much about it guys. So i was reading up on youtube videos and stuff like that. There had to be like a certain machine that was like good for all skin types and stuff like that. So obviously they reassured me that their machine that uses is like top tier, like it's like the best of the best, so yeah, like obviously like i had to go with them, and i was so i'm so happy like it's the best decision of my life, because After i say the second session when i didn't have to like, because i don't pluck or anything i just let it grow so the second session, i realized that the growing time of the hair was like taking like weeks to grow like usually, if i'd pluck you'd See like this regrowth in like two days but after like the third session, i saw the regrowth for like a month and a month and a half, so they do recommend i'd, say five to six sessions. I believe um, depending how stubborn your hair is and depending how everyone's different everyone's different. I think it's like a month and a half or nine weeks. I think i can't remember guys i had to skip one because i went to mexico so yeah. I think it's been like almost two months yeah, it's been like two months, guys and i'll say literally like four hairs here and like a few more here but other than that, like literally, and that was literally like taking how many months like i said, but usually It takes me two days so literally hair removal does work and i would definitely recommend it, but yeah. That'S what i've been doing laser hair removal guys because i had a bloody beard. Okay, i had a beard um. I think, because of the results that i've had. I would definitely move on to laser hair removal for like the whole body, because shaving that are shaving my legs, my armpits, it's just long, it's really long and waxing is not. For me guys waxing is definitely not for me. I went dead waxing in mexico and this is basically how it turned out. No, you can do it so yeah, as you can see waxing is not for me like. I almost died, but i'm going to do some baby hairs. Of course, i want to do baby hairs like how them stylists do i see they do it here. Let me see i'm going to try something guys, i'm going to try something. My laser hair removal update, of course, i'll put videos and pictures of before and afters and stuff like that, um in terms of body, i've been going to the gym and updating my of my gym as well. I'Ve been going to the gym for years now. I'Ve saved from the last the last two years. I'Ve been very very very, i would say, insecure, but very body, conscious about how i look for some reason um. I never used to be like that at all guys, honestly, i never used to be. I wouldn't say it's bad because obviously i still i'll still wear bikini on holiday. I'Ll still do this, however, i'll be very like conscious of how i look before i was never like that. I don't know what has brought it on. I do look at other girls and say that's a nice body. I appreciate their bodies. Um. Do i go as much as say? Oh. I wish i had that i don't think so, but i would look at my own body and be like. I wish this could be different kind of thing. That makes sense. Does that make sense yeah? That kind of thing like i wouldn't look at other girls like i wish i but i'd, look at myself and be like. I wish i could just change something about myself. I think all people have that to be honest with you, but i wouldn't say it's a big issue, but it's definitely something. I have realized in myself that i'm doing so. I'Ve gone to the gym. To try and like i don't know, i wouldn't say, fix, but try and like have healthy habits kind of thing because, like if i look good, i feel good. Is it that way? If i feel good, i look good. No. If i look good, i feel good yeah yeah. It is for me personally anyways. This is just me guys. This is my personal okay. My personal opinion about myself, i feel like my waist - is going small bigger than it was before. I feel like it's. I just look like a block. I do personally, i have a lot of like a block, but obviously that's just me. I can't i can't change that which i understand yeah, but after a while, it's like come on gabs like do something about it and i feel like i could do something about it. I feel like i could make like the smallest change in my body and i'd. I would be like okay, this is nice kind of thing. Yeah, it's not hard. It'S not. I think i think it's bad to want to like upgrade your body into like something you're happy with. Like let's say i wanted like a six-pack like it's, not bad, that i want a six-pack or toned thighs and stuff like that, like something i would love, i would love toned thighs, a peachier bum, not a bigger bomb, just a peach above stuff like that, and That'S something i could work personally for myself in the gym and that's what i've been doing for last i'd say five months, four months consistently, but like five months, i've been going into the gym and i see a slight difference, but not as much addicts. I was expecting for like five months guys gym life is not for me. Why is gym life? Why is your life so long like you're there, training in the gym just to see like look a tiny little results in what it's like to five months and i'll laugh again. To be honest, i don't really do reading a strict diet, because, obviously you need to pack your proteins in and all that crap, but it's just like, but we'll see how it goes. Guys. Anyways i'll update you if my birthday comes, and i'm still looking, no no tone. No, this. No! That then yeah, i'm just going to call it quits and try live my best life because i'm not trying to be sweating in the gym going hard. All my life guys like i'm, trying to live my best baby girl life. I really am okay, so my camera says it's heating up. Why is it here? You know what kind of nonsense is this? Okay, so i'll just be chatting chatting chatting? Okay, so i'm literally just as you can see yeah. Basically, this is what i've done to the hair. So far, i'm gon na try and do some baby hairs and see what happens. Okay, guys just to let you know, as my camera was cooling down, i was not trying to wait like 20 minutes, so i literally just done and did the baby hairs, but i can't do baby hair, so you really didn't miss out on anything guys but anyways. We can still style the hair together. I have now made up my mind and i am going to go with wavy. I did ask on instagram, though, like what style i should do. Actually, let me go see 85 out of 100 said wavy, so let's do wavy. Okay, so what i'm seeing in the mirror is not looking too bad but yeah. This is the kind of waviness i wanted to it. Can you see when it was compared to straight? I don't know what makeup look i'm gon na do, but i'm gon na do a makeup look and i'm gon na show you like, obviously the end results when you've got your makeup on but anyways. This is the starting part over um and yeah. Thanks guys for watching and i'll see you in my next video you