A Very Special , Emotional, And Therapeutic Wig Install . Ft Unice Hair

Thank you. Thank you. We'Re really amazing, hello. Everyone welcome, or welcome back to my channel and welcome to my new apartment for my first video in my new apartment. I wanted to make it extra special one, because it's a very special move to me, because I finally moved out of my parents house. I moved out of my hometown in Dallas here to Houston and of course, because I finally hit 50k on YouTube. I wanted to make this a more personal video by doing my hair therapy Style videos, where I kind of gave you guys more than just a tutorial on how to lay your baby hairs and share. What'S going on with me personally inside the wig I'll be installing in this video is from Uni's Hair Company. This is their highlighted body wave wig, 26 inches 13 by 4 frontal. I did pluck and bleach the wig myself. It did not come pre-customized with. That said, let's get into today's therapy session foreign getting deeper into my own personal healing Journey. I'M learning that self-care goes a lot deeper than just a face mask and a couple bubble baths here and there for me, I'm learning that the type of self-care that I need is really focusing a lot on learning how to love myself self-love in the past. I used to always be obsessed with the idea of someone falling in love with me or me, falling in love with someone else, never understanding the true importance of how to love myself and falling in love with myself, because if you don't love you, how can you Expect anybody else to love you. You know so now that I'm getting older, I'm learning how important it is for me to go back and rework the toxic relationship that I have with myself for the longest I used to always say I'm my biggest enemy. I'M battling me, it's me versus me, but now I'm realizing. I need to kind of see it as it's me and me, meaning I am in a relationship. I am in a couple a duo with myself and, let's be honest, the relationship that you have with yourself is the only relationship besides one with God that you know it's going to last you a lifetime because we all come into this world by ourselves and guess What we leave by ourselves in the past, when I hear someone say I'm so in love with myself, I love myself. I used to be like, oh, my goodness, that person is so conceited this and that, but now, as I'm growing up and really working on myself, I'm realizing it's good to be a little bit conceited. It'S good to be a little bit selfish, like like how everyone always says too much of anything can be a bad thing just having too much selflessness too much. Empathy ends up being a bad thing and that's kind of person. I was at a point. I was an extreme people, pleaser always looking out for everyone. I would go out of my way to make people on people comfortable, even if it made means I was going to be uncomfortable. I used to think people saying Caroline's such a nice person. Oh, my God, Caroline you're, so nice you're, so nice. I thought that was like a really big compliment, something I should be proud of, but I'm realizing. Sometimes you can be a little bit too nice. I was a little bit too nice when you're always giving out to others and never taking in anything for yourself. What do you expect that to leave you with literally a negative dark pit of a hole that is a person and that's kind of who? I was my self-esteem was extremely low. I always felt like things that happened to me. I deserved it. If someone cheated on me, I'd be like. Maybe because I didn't I didn't, I wasn't the cutest, or maybe I didn't love them enough, like I just always felt like like. I didn't deserve good things. I never understanding why I felt that way, but now I'm realizing it's because I never took the time to really learn how to grow and love myself, which is why I say, being a little bit conceited being a little selfish choosing yourself over someone. That'S okay! That'S fine, don't let Society the world around you make you feel like you're, a bad person, that's just them being jealous of the fact that they don't have that same self-love that you have, because that's who I used to be because if your goal in life is To ultimately genuinely help people and look out for them, you have to grow yourself to a place to actually be able to help someone I used to always say I can't give advice to someone. I don't know what to sell somebody, I'm a hot mess just like them, but now that I've been working on myself and I'm doing these things, I'm realizing just how much I have to offer from putting myself in a better place to actually have something to give Another thing that I've been working on as far as my whole self-love self healing journey is learning how to celebrate myself, which is kind of the whole point of this video, and what I'm doing I wanted to take a day to just kind of you know: do A little light wig install because installing a wig always has helped me clear my mind and just kind of celebrate the things I've accomplished before I properly start moving into this apartment, because I know once I move in and Life Starts going, I'm gon na forget all About this moment, the 50k, because 50 gig will become 60k, and I you know things just you have to celebrate the littlest things that you do even when you're celebrating them just for you. Yes, I'm getting all dressed up to take pictures for myself and at first I felt really silly. I was like dude. No one cares about you getting 50k. No one cares that you moved into your apartment, like dude. People are doing bigger and better things who cares, but the thing is I care. This is something that genuinely inside I am proud of, and it's okay for me to take the moment to celebrate this. This accomplishment, if you don't start celebrating the little things and how will you even notice when the big things happen? Whenever I find myself, you know crying or just kind of going through it mentally. I always need a moment to stop and look around and remember where I came from. This is why I'm feeling like journaling and just documenting moments in your life is very important, because it's so easy for us to forget where we came from. I have to remind myself that I'm currently living in a prayer that I once had another part of self-care with self-love is learning how to look out for yourself like genuinely you're looking out for yourself. This means anyone, that's in your life, that you have a small sense and we all have that feeling inside that we sense that this person might not be looking out for our best interest. You got to cut that person off. I understand because I'm someone who really hates confrontation having to just talk about something with someone makes me so freaking anxious, but I have learned, despite how messy complicated the confrontational conversation is with someone if this person is genuinely here and looking out for you, it doesn't Matter what you say how messy it gets, they will still love you and understand you at the end of the day. That'S what I've learned so sure you don't want to argue with your friend or you feel like she's, not going to hear you out if she doesn't hear you out, then you're doing yourself a favor, because this person who is not looking out for you. This is a message that has been really playing in my head recently, especially with the very you know, recent tragic, tragic events of the girl who got killed in Cabo when she went on a trip with her friend these girls. You know at first probably seem like they're, her friends and deep down inside. They did not have her best interest at heart because they even went to the point of lying to her parents after she died saying that she possibly you know, had some alcohol poisoning when in reality they just brutally beat her up and she died. You know so. This is why I've been trying to really make this message clear to me and my little sister that if you feel like a girl, is a Hating Ass b word, then you probably feel that, for a good reason, okay intuition is a real thing, especially a woman's Intuition, if you find yourself always putting yourself first and your friend doesn't do the same thing for you um, if she's low-key, a hater like she'll, say things like oh you're, gon na wear that top or just like just some things that you in your head, you're. Like was that was that some BS, or am I tripping, you're, not tripping? Now, let's say you feel like. Maybe you are tripping and you want to have a proper adult conversation with this person and talk it out. That'S fine go ahead and talk it out and I promise you the way that they respond to you saying what you're saying will let you know a hundred percent. If this person comes to you very defensive or is trying to tell you to get over it, it wasn't that deep this and that if it's deep enough for you to bring it up, then it's that deep I've really been working on being very picky and having High standards on the type of people I surround myself around with these days, I'm really working on having quality over quantity. Yes, of course, that means sometimes, I probably only have one to two friends, but you know what these one to two friends I have in my life are people I know, would do anything for me these people who genuinely love, love and care for me, and they I would not replace them for a thousand friends once you get people who are in your life and they actually care about you like someone, should I promise you all those lonely days you had by yourself will be so worth it because you are looking out for You and that's kind of just really things I wanted to share in today's session here, as I'm wrapping up with my hair. Let me kind of give a quick summary on things I talked about. Self-Care is to have self-love. Sometimes it's okay to be selfish and choose yourself first before thinking about filling up. Others cup worry about filling yours up, so you don't find yourself left empty after be picky with the people. You surround yourself with it's about quality over quantity because you deserve the best. So therefore, only the best of the best deserve to be around. You finally remember to celebrate the big and the little things, because today you are living in yesterday's prayer. Now with that said, let's continue with my little self celebration that I've got going on. Here'S Your Glass just tell me when you good, that's enough: two: okay, okay, okay, some for myself and cheers to much more happiness, love and success; and peace. Please peace coming our way! All right cheers! Oh that's good! I like this, I'm not a wine drinker, but this is Stella Rosa if you're always looking for a sweet wine, it's not strong, but a sweet wine. This is your Crow too. Oh also, I have a little surprise. I brought it. I brought a little something. I know it's a little something to commemorate this moment. The fact that, like this is making me like low-key kind of emotional - oh my gosh like this feels so I'm laughing, because I'm trying like not to cry on camera, because I always find like me personally, crying on camera cringy for me for me so yeah. But I wouldn't want to celebrate this moment with anybody else, but you because you know I wouldn't even I mean oh, my goodness, I haven't even blown the damn candle. Yet okay, let me blow this: Let's Make A Wish together. Okay, do you have your wish? Okay, I have my wish: let's go one two three, as you can see, I'm a big baby, I'm literally crying already but yeah. I know for real guys. I just want to say thank you so much like. Thank you for watching my videos. Thank you for commenting for following me on social media. Thank you for just being you honestly, you know. That'S all I can say, and I really just want to say thank you for helping me believe in me, because foreign thank you for helping me believe in me, because honestly, I've always had a really hard time. Believing in myself bruh I swear, I can be such a baby, but, like I was saying I just want to say thank you guys so much for helping me believe in me. You know because I've always had just a hard time, believing in me, I'm always like. I swear I always myself, I'm like I'm my biggest hater, my biggest op. I never I'm always thinking. I can't achieve big things, but yeah just know. If you're doubting yourself stop it, you can do it, I'm telling you you can do it. You think you can't you can't if it's too hard to even think that you can don't even think just do that's what I had to do. You know, but yeah, I'm proud of both of us. I'M proud of me I'm proud of you you're here you made it. You know how hard it has been for you to be here, and I know how hard it has been for me to be here and I'm just so proud of of both of us and all the things we've accomplished this year, all the times that we thought It was the end, it wasn't and we're still [ __ ] here and we're still trying we're still breathing honestly yeah, most of all shout out to God, because will he do it? That'S all I got ta say this is why I do voiceovers, because on off the cuff, I'm just I'm just I'm just a mess all over the place. I guess it's time for me to go to bed. This has been fun. This has honestly been one of my favorite nights with you guys with that said, as always, thank you guys so much for watching this video. Thank you for following me on my journey. Thank you for just being you always, and you don't know, the drill like comment subscribe and peace out, Girl Scouts, goodbye,