How I Started Youtube (Story Time + Feeling Discouraged)

This is my stink y'all already know. This is my stink right here. Everybody needs encouragement sometimes, and i really feel like this is one of those times where i need some encouragement from you guys just to remind me that i'm on the right path, because what i do as far as youtube and sharing my gift with you guys. I do it from the heart, because i love it okay and when i do it, i don't think about what i'm going to get in return. I feel like what's for me, is for me: okay, bye-bye jamari, you better go finish playing the game, all right, so he's gone. What'S up block nation, it's your girl, kenyatta here! Thank you guys so much for tuning in. I really do appreciate it share my vision with you guys, because you guys are my biggest supporters. Okay, you guys watch my videos. You comment on my videos. You show love to me, like you, give me positive words every day and, to be quite honest, like reading some of the comments that i get all the time really really just it pulls on my heartstrings, and it just makes me feel like what i'm doing is Not in vain, like my goal, is to just share - and this is also a video for y'all, but also a video for me. If what you do makes you happy, if you wake up in the morning with a smile and your heart, just full of joy, then do that f what anybody has to say about it? You know what i mean, because you have your vision for a reason. It'S your vision, it's not nobody else's vision, it's not this person that person anyone! It'S your vision! Back to my first video that i made a couple of years ago. Three years ago i was in my bathroom and i was just doing my hair when i before i started my youtube channel. I started my youtube channel or flashback kenyatta like years and years before. I did my first upload because i just did it like just to have it like when i was freelancing. I just made the youtube the google account or flashback pinata just to have it. I didn't plan on doing videos. I just wanted to have the email address. You know and there it was so years later fast forward. I was like you know every time i do my hair. By the way i do have a fresh slate. I mean i don't know up dude girl. I needed it off my neck anyway um. So when i first started, my first very first youtube video i was like you know. People are always complimenting me on my hair and you know as a location. My clients were, you know they were slayed, of course, but people were always talking about my hair and just complimenting me on my hair whenever i would style my hair they're like girl, it's a yes for me who do your hair? It'S a yes for me! So um i was like you know what i just had a little light bulb moment one day and i was just at home and it was a random sunday and i was like i usually do my hair on sundays, like you know, get ready for the week. Y'All know how i go um and i was like. Let me just go ahead and you know record myself, you know um doing my hair and i'll just share the video, and i did that i did that and girl. Lo and behold girl. I had um a couple thousand views in 24 hours. That'S like oh people, feeling the video people like the video. So i'm like. Okay, that's cute and whatnot, so i'm like all right! Well, how about you know! I didn't have a. I didn't have a schedule or anything like that, but i was like you know: i'm just gon na go ahead and just whenever i do my hair i'll record it and just upload a video did it again: okay and girl one hand, it went viral again like People liked the video and i was just so touched - i was like oh wow people actually like watching my little videos like girl. I ain't getting, no, you know it just i don't. I just put it out there, and i guess who came is: who came the energy matched itself? Okay, and i was just like okay, so i just kept on recording my um. Whenever i did my hair, our recorded video that was probably like once a month that i did my hair, okay and yo, it just became something that i really enjoyed doing. I enjoyed uh listening to you, guys, uh reading the comments - okay, not listening, but reading the comments, and it was just so much fun for me and also as a creative. It gave me an outlet to just share my art with the world and it just continued to grow. It just continued to grow and i remember working okay, my little job i had - and i remember just thinking about i wish i was doing a video or like i wish. I was doing that i wanted to do youtube. What i was i was just thinking about that i used to go to work, and i would just think about that all day. Long to the point that i would be irritated at work, because i had to spend my time at work which actually paid my bills and um, i couldn't do what i wanted to do. Then i started to dream about. I wish that i could actually just do this and be able to pay my bills instead of doing this. Okay, because i felt like working just it just. It was just robbing me of my time clearly time that i don't have, because we only live once so. It is, i started to dream about that. You know, and i really started to pour my heart into what i was doing and work constantly gotten in the way work constantly got in the way and i used to be frustrated about it um, but i just continued to try and do both and then girl, When this whole them pandemic happened, okay, i remember everybody was losing their job left and right because of the pandemic. Okay and girl. I happen to be one of them, so i was like you know what let me go ahead and pour my time into what i've been dreaming about for years. Like i be goddamn gone if i'ma go fill out, another goddamn application, it's a no for me and i did not okay. I really just poured into what i love. I remember working on the job and y'all know my my locked mannequin head that i have. I was making my lock mannequin head while i was at work like i was at work, making locks day in and goddamn day out, girl, okay. This is a learning moment for me: okay, um and yeah. That'S what i did. I just you know, because i was thinking to myself. Like you know, i do one if i could have like. I wanted a lock mannequin head, but when i was looking online i could not find anyone any luck. Mannequin, the lock mannequins that i saw were trash. Okay, i'm, like you, know what i'm just gon na make my own, and i did just that. Okay, and if you guys go back to my reveal video, when i showed you guys my lock mannequin head that was like that was right around the time that i had stopped working and i was like you know, i'm doing me, i'm not working for anybody else. I'M going to work for me, okay and that's what i did um. I did the lock manninghead only to showcase the styles that i had in my head and i wanted to share with you guys i did a second lock mannequin head with medium lift, because i really cared about my supporters. I had a lot of comments. People were like yo what about us with the medium length and i had a lot of people like. Oh my god, i can't wait till my hair get that long. So i can do these and i can do that and i'm saying to myself. You know what you're right, okay, you're, absolutely right, because i know more styles than just styles with longer lots. So i went ahead and did the medium length mannequin head with the red locks, and i had to make it spicy red because it had to be different. It couldn't be the same okay and not that spicy red is just gon na pop okay. So that's what i did and yes, i have done some fire styles and i will continue to do fire styles. I really really questioned myself for a while, like girl, stop just stop, but no no! No. I need to stay true to me and true to who i am okay, get back to the roots. As you guys know, your girl is a goddamn beast when it comes to these lock styles, and i really love sharing my gift and sharing my talents with you guys, because i really feel like. I have something as we grow. We learn and we evolve, and i really feel like right now is just one of those times where i'm evolving. I literally feel like a. What is it do you know when, when a butterfly before a butterfly breaks out of the cocoon, you know that struggle until you break free? That'S how i feel i feel like i'm fighting, i'm tuggle warring or something i'm just back and forth, and back and forth. I'M like why? What is the energy? Why am i going back and forth? What is it it's very, very distracting for me as an artist um and i'm just trying to figure it out, and i really was in a place where i was questioning. Everybody needs encouragement. Sometimes you know you never know what people are going through. You know, and for me i'm always the person who gives gives gifts. You guys know that i give to y'all. I give you all these lifestyles, these vlog tutorials i give give give, because that's just the type of person i am. I i pour in to um what i believe in and and people that i love. Okay. Let me know: okay, how y'all feel about the words that i've just spoken, because i just kind of opened up a little bit invented to you guys a little bit, because i've been off of youtube for a while. Okay - and i know it - you know - and you know, but i'm human and i've - you know you know, go through my little changes, you know, but every life experience is here to teach you something and if you pay attention it'll make. Thank you guys so much for tuning in and watching my video comment down below and just let me know, okay, what you think about this video. I love you guys. I appreciate all the encouragement and your girl needs some. I need a teaspoon of this and a teaspoon of that. Okay, because it ain't easy out here in these streams. Okay, anyway, i'm about to sign off, don't forget to share this video wherever you share cool stuff like comment and subscribe, turning notifications so that you never miss a video from your girl y'all know, i wrote you a long way right. You better know it! It'S your girl, can you, out of here peace,