47 Month Loc Update | Life Update

Hey it's haze and hey it's leopardist and welcome back to my channel and in today's video, i'm gon na be doing my 47 month. Lock. Update this month is my four year. Lock. Update time is really fine, but anyways in this video i'm gon na do a little get ready with me. I'M gon na try to do my makeup with whatever i have right here and kind of tell you what's been going on with me. I know i haven't been posting videos, but i've been super super super super duper duper stressed and it's just been really hard navigating through the past two months and even now, but i am gon na show you guys a bunch of clips of my progress and my Growth and of course, i have a great video coming up for you guys on my four year, lock update one month away from my big four years, so i feel like. Essentially, there won't really be any major changes. I might have like what the intergrowth or a half inch of growth that won't really like show anything of relevance, and sometimes i feel like my hair - isn't like what i want it to be, and then the funny part is that i don't even know what i Want my hair to be so: it's just like a hot ass mess completely and all the time. So i did tell you guys that i moved and i'm still you know sorting things out getting things unpacked trying to get my life together. I did also get a new job and that requires trying to get my life together and trying to get adjusted there too. So i got a new job and my manager. She resigned that day, not really resigned, but she just yeah. She was armed. So i kind of had to like train myself and even though, like i work, you know, i work in a certain field, and i know most of this stuff like it was really hard on me, like, especially with like moving and then having to do this job With with um with not too much help, and just trying to have to just use all the knowledge that i know and just trying to catch up with training when i'm moving new job, and then i have this wedding coming up, that's like stressing me the hell Out so those two things i feel like were just really hard for me over the past um three to four or five months like it was just really hard to just kind of just get my head together and push past it like. So my wedding is coming up in may and i feel like absolutely i'm not even doing my makeup, i'm like what is this, but i feel i just feel like anxious, like i feel like i'm not going to be able to do the things i want to Do like i'm worried about you know everything: makeup, hair everything like food decorations to the point where i'm just like. I wish i would have just not had a wedding and kind of just went on vacation. If i could do it all over again, i would do it that way. I can't go back and change the past, so i'm just trying to move forward with that. That i can say is that i'm happy for the growth, because i think for my wedding. I'M definitely gon na just do my hair curling and have it down like i haven't, had a lot of time to really focus on my hair or just even a lot of time to just treat my hair better. But then i'm like my hair, don't look as bad as i think it does. So i'm just like what the hell is wrong with me all right. So where am i gon na start? So i'm gon na put some foundation on it's funny because the other day i bought um this nars color and it was too dark and i never returned it and i try to like mix it with like lighter colors and makeup. Artistry is just not for me. So this is just going to go to waste or i'm going to try to see if i can give it to someone who um with matches it looks like i'm painting my skin. I just skip foundation and just put a little concealer on, but i'm happy about the length. I'M really really really happy about the length of my hair. I feel like i reached where i wanted to, and that really took me um, just stepping back and really looking at my hair and not being judgmental because whether we like it or not, like sometimes we're, obviously really hard on ourselves and it's something that i'm working On something i'm working on, but when i like look back at videos, i'm like your hair, looks pretty good, but i feel like i've gained a lot of length and i think one thing that still throws me off is um. You know like layering in my hair a bit, i'm like wait, did it grow, but no it's just growing at different levels. So i think i think after my four years, i'm not really sure what i want to do like thoughts about like what do you want to do? Do you want to just end it here? Do you want to just you know, get rid of your locks or ignore my dirty brush, but do you want to get rid of your locs and maybe just go on a natural hair journey with just you know your natural hair, or do you want to um Cut your locs into a bob like these are like questions that constantly come up, and these are things that i think about. Often i will say that lately i have not been thinking about cutting my luck, so that probably will not happen, but it's something that i am thinking of like future tense, but i really really really i can say at this stage. I really really really like love. My locs and i don't think like not having them, i kind of like the freedom. I don't really have to do much to my hair, but i also hate like how simply like you can mess up your hair like, for example, if i'm having a bad day, and i fall asleep on like a throw or something like that like i can easily Get a bunch of lint in my hair that i'm trying to get out and that's the biggest thing for me like when i forget so like you know, just like the casual things that i used to do like wear certain scarves. I have to think a lot harder like hey, like this scarf is cute, but not with my hair. You know what i mean so little things like that and just being conscientious about it, because, besides that, i don't really have any problems. I think i think my major issue sometimes is retwisting, but that process has gotten a lot better, because i'm starting to use. I started to use like a hood to like dry my hairs and i actually try to do that on days when i'm not busy like fridays or saturdays, or things like that, so that process has gotten a lot better, um washing. So one thing i will say the washing for me again: isn't it isn't really getting any better? I was very happy the other day i was able to find one of my favorite shampoos, but i'm still ranking b05. I love d05. I was tempted to try some new shampoos the other day, but i'm just like i'm just going to use what i have and then maybe, if i want to try some new shampoos, i do, but i have like so many just like two dollar three dollar shampoos. Around here, like suave and v05, finally got my hands on some trader joe's that i'm not even sure like. I saw like an apple cider, vinegar, um, like shampoo, and i'm like. Why are you buying like? Why are you gon na buy this like do you? Does it really matter like? Do you really want some apple cider, vinegar on your shampoo, because you can do that yourself, so just little things like that um one thing that i'm very interested in is like potentially dyeing my hair. I'M really really scared too, and i don't even know what colors i want to do. So maybe some highlights, but i don't know i don't know like i used to be the type of person that you know wanted my hair to be all black and then out of somewhere out of like out of these four years. All of a sudden are almost four years like that has changed. I don't want my hair to be jet black. I want it to be like brown and black and just doing whatever it does. So i don't think i know what i'm doing. I think i'm just throwing concealer on myself but yeah, so i'm thinking about a new color, i kind of like the idea of doing like a 99 j. If you guys know what i'm talking about that used to be like a weave color that was like, like reddish, but not really, it was a nice red color, but yeah. So my wedding is coming up during memorial day weekend. I am stressed out about what god knows. I think i just like to stress myself um, i have everything planned. I think the hardest part for me is just like you know. The hardest part for me is just getting my guest list together, like i feel like people, make it a lot harder than what it means to be like just tell me. Yes, no, i don't know also like um, just making sure that, like catering and all the event stuff is going well and all the arrangements and whatever i'm just like this, is quite a task and i'm having a very like small into intimate wedding. So i'm kind of just like i'm just like what's going on, but that's what's going on, i have my dress fit in again pretty soon i was hoping to lose weight for my dress, but then i watched i watched um the show monster-in-law with jayla monster-in-law. So her mom was being a monster and she asked j-lo like: are you gon na lose weight for your dress and then jayla was like no i'm gon na make i'm gon na get the dress to fit me. I'M really excited. I'M happy that my four year is coming up, i'm ready for any um, i'm ready. I think i want to. I think i want to go to my five years. I don't know what the plan is, but i can say i'm extremely happy with my hair, except the inconveniences of like normal, like stressors in life, and i feel like having my luck sometimes takes away like one of those stressful events like if something is going on. Like i'm not having to worry about my locks, i can just tie my locks up and do this and you know just have one problem locked away. I am taking some time off and focusing on my wedding and just you know relaxing my mind, because i really need a vacation after new job move, and you know planning this wedding, even though it's a small um amount of people. So i'm going to take some time off, which will be really nice for me to just you know: relax enjoy the weather because the weather has gotten so much nicer. Do some gardening, like i really been wanting to do some gardening, like planting some um fruits and vegetables and things of that sort? So i'm really looking forward to may also. I will be um recording that recording my process through the wedding, and you know all the stuff that i haven't done, which is a lot of stuff, but i have weeks to figure it out. This video started with like so much drama and then turned into yeah, but i'm taking some weeks off and i'm gon na garden and i'm just gon na you know take my time and do the wedding stuff. So i hope that you guys tune in and watch so before i started this video. I was actually moisturizing my hair. I don't know why i didn't get it on camera, but my hair was looking kind of dry. So, let's see what we're working with, i should have put my eyelashes on first, but it's okay. Can you guys see that the brown is like? It came back completely? I don't know if you guys remember, but i said i dyed my hair black, that didn't last for long i literally like put some glue on some eyelashes and then it just disappeared and voila hair's makeup is done. I didn't really do too much today, because i'm lazy, i think this is gon na, be like for the forever look like the side going like this. I don't seem to like to wear my hair in the middle or this side, so i guess this side is just going to be my look for now for some reason, but a lot of the brown has come back into my hair. I don't know i feel, like my hair, does my hair look different to you guys i feel like it just looks different. It don't look the same. This is the back. Let me see down the middle. Oh that's kind of cute. It'S been a long time since i wore my hair down the middle. Let'S see i kind of wish. I was a middle person, but maybe i'll switch it up. Then we got this side yeah like that side. I don't know the next time i retwist my hair. I'M going to do a middle part and see how that go, because the middle part is not too bad, but my hair looks good overall, a lot of browning so much for watching my 47 month lock, update and life update. I know i was rambling a bit, but a lot is going on so in the comments below please. Let me know what month you are on and what you're looking forward to what plans you have in the month of may i know may is like a big graduation time. So let me know, but thank you guys so much for watching bye. Okay, all right baby!