I Decided To Sell Hair Again & This Happened...

What'S up my beautiful people, it's your girl, while Amanda and today I'm back with another video. I don't think I said that in a while update you guys on how my life has been going. Um and just you know, let me tell y'all something so lately I've been feeling like you know what maybe I should go back to the wigs. I'Ve been getting a lot of comments, a lot of messages about me selling hair. Again now um, I was like you know what why not you know, let's take the risk so decided to order some wigs. One of them is mine. I'M gon na get my hair done tomorrow. I'M gon na. Take you guys with me at first. I was excited. I'M like, yes, you know butcher. You know everybody has been supporting me. Everyone you know was in my comments, like oh, my God, you're back yeah you're back but like I made the announcement on Thursday right and then by Saturday I was just feeling like yo. What am I doing you know like? I was supposed to be moving forward. You know to a New Journey of being natural of pushing this natural Narrative of pushing just loving yourself for who you truly are, and then I go back, and on top of that, I made a YouTube video dedicated to why I made my choice and then I Go back and I sell hair, so I kind of feel, like you know, like I'm contradicting myself and myself like. I got ta make a choice here and right now on what I'm going to do with my life regarding my business, because if I decide to continue with selling hair and continue on with the hair, you know extension route. Everything in my life will be different. You know down to my husband um the way I dressed the way. I speak the way I act and if I choose a natural round, I feel like I'll actually be, who I'm meant to be. You know, because I'm wearing my hair, I'm not trying to make anyone else, feel bad about wearing hair extensions or make anybody else feel like they're, a lesser human being for wearing her extension. Hair extensions. That'S totally your choice, but in my opinion I just feel like when you do something repeatedly repeat and you get tired, you just get tired of it, so I got tired of it. You know that's the reason why I I decided to take it off and stop selling hair. You know immediately after I turned 21 and I feel like that also was not a coincidence. Nothing in life is a coincidence right, and I feel like me, and what I do and my choice on what right I take. My business down is going to definitely impact my life um, my decisions and how I am as a person. So I decided I'm going to stick with my first choice and be natural. You know, regardless of what's selling or what's trending or whoever is wearing a wig and who isn't like listen, you know this is how I feel comfortable. Then I'm going to be there by all means. You know - and I I'm gon na get my wig put on tomorrow. You know so I'm gon na see how I feel - and this is gon na - be my first time getting a wig in like four or five months, um since being back to back to back. You know with a different wig different wig different wig, so I'm gon na see. You know how I feel tomorrow, um inshallah, God lets me really just get in my content whatever and just get out of it. You know because I I spent a lot of money on these wigs and now they're coming and I was like I feel like I don't even want to do it anymore. It'S like I can't. I can't send that back. I can't you know what I'm saying so, I'm just gon na sell it and I already made the promise to my customers that I'm gon na be YRC wigs, so um, I'm gon na, be where I see wigs temporarily temporarily. So if you guys are seeing this video, then you know the truth, but me I never expected myself being inside of the hair business industry. I never. I thought I would be in real estate by now. You know with the people I had around me and the certain choices I decide I made ended up. This is a result, so I can't get mad at anyone. I can't be mad at anyone or I'm, not even I'm - choosing not even to be mad at myself, but to just get involved and just get this out of the way and keep it pushing. You know and keep pushing my natural narrative. Did you see it where I see Naturals, I'm not giving up on my dream? This is my dream, this business of mine of me um having a natural hair business. This is really my dream and I honestly feel like I know it's going to take a little bit longer. Excuse me, I can't get emotional. I know it's going to take a little bit longer than me selling wigs, because if I was to just wear the wigs and sell the wigs they're already selling now you get what I'm saying so. It'S like, as I'm talking to you right now, like they're selling. So it's like, if I I don't care about the money, I don't I just. I know that if I continue with the wigs now by the summer time of 2023, I will be exactly where I've dreamed to be. You know, but if I don't, then it might take a few a few more months. It might take a another year or something and it's like I'm very impatient and I hate waiting, which is why I made so many other decisions that I made. But as I'm growing into being an adult, I should be able to accept the fact that you have to be patient in life. If you really want what you want, you got to be patient and it's a big transition from going from wigs to Natural. That'S a very big change of demographic, even though my products can be used on wigs. I was thinking about selling clothes, but if I was going to sell clothes, it would only be a certain type of clothes and and yeah bro like this is this. This is just how my life is going right now, like I'm being totally transparent with you guys and telling you guys what it is Kitty meow but um yeah, so other than that. I'M just gon na continue on and sell these wigs and just keep life pushing. You know like. I still want to go the natural route like right now. My website has wigs the wigs uh natural hair products, lashes, and I have some more things on the way, but it's like yo, I'm not trying to be in a wig bro until I die like yo, I'm not I'm really not trying to be like that. Like I wan na I wan na die, naturally I want to die with no wig on my. I don't want to die with no lashes on. I don't wan na you get and I don't know when I'ma go, you know, and I really and I'm really a God-fearing woman and I'm a really I'm a woman of God. Whether people want to see me that way or they don't that's just what I see myself as and that's what I know myself as so I'm going to correspond with God and be natural. You know like I really want to sell wigs, I mean not wigs. I really want to sell like clothes. I'Ve always wanted to sell clothes, but I feel like I would have to you know, probably wait till I get like a team for that or but I know the natural hair products. That'S that's a gold guess who just got their hair done, got 34 inches right now, I'm feeling really pretty guess: who's back hello, everybody! So I'm back in the wig game temporarily, like I feel like temporarily, you know just to see you get what I'm saying um. I feel real pretty with this wig. I'M not gon na lie, but you know a lot of people miss me selling hair and you know wearing it and stuff like that. But really I shouldn't really like care about that. I should I appreciate the love, but I really just care about pleasing God. That'S the phase that I'm in in my life right, oh [, __, ], y'all, I'm in the ghetto - and I just wanted to say like bro, I'm getting backlash uh, because I said that I'm done with hair right and then I went back and put a wig On my head and started selling hair, but listen though just like Elon Musk went back and bought Twitter. I went back and bought some wigs as simple as that. It'S not like I'm gon na be every day back to back, like I used to be I'm just gon na. Do it some from time to time or whenever I feel like it. You know this is my life. You know so how how you gon na get mad at me for my life. You know what I'm saying: oh, what's up y'all, so it's Saturday and I decided that I'm gon na Vlog every single day of my life for the rest of my life. So everything can be on documentation. I'M not gon na leave nothing. Now I'm gon na include everything um where I go like the people, I'm with everything like I'm, not gon na leave anything out unless I'm around someone and they don't want to be in it but yeah. So how I feel you know that I started back selling hair a lot of people. Miss me. I'Ve been getting a lot of sales. I just shipped some orders, I'm about to go drop them off, but um. As far as me, how I feel on the inside. I feel okay, like I feel, okay, you know I've been gaining a lot of followers on Instagram and that's great and um I'm going to be going to London in December. I don't know if I told you guys, but I'm gon na, be in London in December. So I'm gon na see how that goes, and I don't really have any. Like friends, I have like two that I two people I can talk to. You know like we cool but no best friends. My best friend is God. You know that's who my best friend is and I'm just living like I'm just seeing where life will take me. You get what I'm saying, I'm just gon na put into work and inshallah. I get my dreams and my goals like I just really want to be a person of influence of positive influence. You know because anybody can just get on social media looking pretty, but I'm more than just being pretty I'm more. I'M like, I really want what's best for people and I want to see other people succeed in life. You know, and that's me genuinely that's just how I am so. I don't have no hate, no jealousy no Envy it's in my heart, and I don't ever want to be like that. I feel like that's disgusting like ordering some clothes and yeah just been doing me, because I'm on a tunnel vision, just gon na keep grinding bro like I'm done like playing with my life, I play with my life. 19. 20. Now, I'm 21. it's time for me to actually take action in my life and really get to where I want to be so, I'm just going to be vlogging every single day and showing y'all and taking y'all with me. I'M gon na upload this tomorrow, which is going to be Sunday so when y'all see this is like my weekly Vlog. I honestly really don't be caring about comments on what people got to say, because people gon na talk about me, regardless winning, not winning. We going wig off people gon na talk so yeah, so I'm just I made a decision, I'm going to be vlogging every single day of my life, so everything is out there like and I don't you know, and I want it to be like that. I want it to be like that. I want other females to be able to look at my videos or my pictures, not my pictures, but my videos and be like yeah. Like you know the blueprint like she did this she was able to do this. Then I can do it too. You know, that's just how I think, like I want other people to succeed as well. I'M pretty excited you know. So, every single day it's gon na be a new YouTube video, if not every day, every two days but for sure for sure every day, even when I don't you're gon na see my bad days, my good days, the days where I don't feel like recording the Good part of me, the sad part of me, the Mad part of me, you guys are gon na, be able to see all of that um and I'm not hiding you know. So I hope you guys are excited, as I am um as far as YRC Naturals. I'M still doing that, like I'm, still pushing my natural products. That'S what I want. That'S what I pray for. That'S what I love. I love the natural Vibe you know, but the wigs is just who is that, but it's like real fake. You feel me it's just like it's still a wig, it's still a wig, but who cares? You know, like God, cares, but one of the people from my past they trying to come back like no don't come back. Don'T try to no don't do that. Don'T try to spin the block, you can't I'm not letting you so yeah and all the people that thought they knew me from the past. That'S not that wasn't me that wasn't me like who I am right now. Is me it's 12 o'clock exactly I'm gon na go drop these orders off and I'm supposed to be going out to dinner tonight. So I'm gon na see how that goes and take some pictures as well. So I got ta figure out like what I'm gon na wear like what outfit and stuff that's what I'm trying to figure out, because in my closet I got a little. I got a lot of like plain stuff because I'm really like a simple girl, but I really want to start wearing like staple like um. What is it called staple Stan staple pieces and stuff, but um I'm not gon na lie. Yesterday I seen this three Muslim women. You know I'm Muslim I've seen three Muslim women and one of the women. She was just wearing all white. She had on her her job and she just looked just so beautiful and I feel like that's just so Godly like and I pray and wish and hope that I can dress like that and be like that, like I really wanna be covered up all the time. That'S really how I want to dress honestly, but you know the devil be trying it. This is my sister. My mom doesn't want to be on camera because she says she doesn't want to be on the internet, so I'm not going to show her. She made us breakfast. This is my sister's breakfast, my breakfast, turkey bacon waffle. You know, cinnamon sticks, biscuits so y'all. I finished my breakfast, I'm still a little bit hungry, but I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm going to the post office and then I'm gon na go to the gym. I didn't go all week, so that's probably why my week went how I went like you know with my moves and stuff, but I'm about to be on my way: yeah yeah. So I went back home. I came back home. I didn't go to the gym yet because I got another order and I want to ship it out before, because you know it's the weekend me going back and selling hair was a trial for me just to see how I feel about it. If I wanted to go back and sell hair - or if I did not, they only did this just to just to help some of my supporters just to help some of the people who actually miss my wigs, I missed wearing it. It'S just a look bro. It'S not like, oh I'm, down hard wig wig wig bro. That'S not me. I know exactly who I am, and I know I'm not going to be sitting here - selling wigs for the rest of my life, I'm probably not even gon na be selling them for the next six months. It'S just a trial. Like I said Sunday breakfast. You know Mama, throwing down in the kitchen, don't play with her. What'S up y'all it's Sunday, so today, I'm gon na be uploading. The video. Let me update y'all on what happened yesterday, because I actually didn't even go to the gym uh. My homegirl was in a situation, so I had to go um come through for her and I really like spent like half my day. You know trying to help her and stuff, so I wasn't able to go to the gym and then I went. I went out to eat and I took some pictures, so I got some orders that I just shipped out and I'm excited because I just sent a wig to a influencer, so I'm gon na see you know what happens with that. But my plans for today are to go to the gym, um drop these orders off and then make some tick tocks and go live and stuff like that. How to go to the gym get this workout in, because I didn't go all week and I'm usually consistent. So it's like me not going this week like my moves, was my mood was like up and down so now, I'm about to go yeah. Let'S go like the backlash that I've been getting um about me selling wigs. I got more support than I got. People questioning me, you know what I'm saying, because I was doing that for so long and you know I just went back. You know, I feel like it's not really that big of a deal, but at the same time it is because I really was trying to go the natural route, but I am still doing that. It'S just I'm. This is just a part of my journey. My process of me, like transitioning, into into how I really want my business to go y'all, I'm about to start selling lip gloss, and I'm so so excited for that, like I'm, so excited for that, I'm just waiting on my tubes. I got everything I need to start and I'm just waiting on my tube, so once they come, I'm gon na show you guys how the process of that will be going and um yeah. So let's go to the gym and drop these orders off. These are just some of the ways that I got to stop. I have a lot in stock. I actually took a picture with the wigs I'm going to insert it right here and yeah. So getting these out all right. I just left the gym. I'M feeling good I'ma be real, usually I put on my Bonnet but because this hair is so long, but I was like you know what I'm gon na be a little bit cute for YouTube. So I didn't even you know, but now I'm about to go, get my car cleaned shower and handle some business. So I just finished praying and I feel good calm collected put together and I'm thinking about going to the flea market. So they can take some of the links off my bracelet, like you see this bracelet like you see how it moves it's real loose um. I want it tight now. I want it tight, so I want to see if I can take some of the links off. Maybe add it to my necklace or just just take it off and make it tighter. I might go over there and see what they can do. I made some tick tocks just hit 344, so I'm hoping to get I'm praying and hoping to get to find a cake before the new year, so hi hi baby, so y'all got killed. You know put on this shirt. Put some lip gloss on straighten my hair and I changed my mind: I'm not gon na go to the um, the flea market anymore. I just don't feel like it. I just don't feel like it. So I'm about to take this wig off. I was on Tick. Tock, you know scrolling and I just keep seeing Islamic videos and it just don't make me feel right wearing this on my head, bro like knowing, I got a full head of hair and I left selling wigs alone. I left that that whole, you know lifestyle alone. Then I went back to it. I don't feel no satisfaction, it's not about the money. I don't care about. The money like I care about being at peace with myself from within, and this is making me feel like not at peace for real, like it is what it is. This is my decision, I'm sticking to my natural hair care stuff and I don't care how long it takes. I'M not gon na give up on my dream, so I just want God to forgive me and I'm taking this off bro. I don't care, I I oh. I just don't like it, I just I'm over it, I'm not this person, no more! I can't go back and be who I was because I'm not that I'm I'm a whole different person now. So it's like this, don't even feel right. So I'm sorry for getting emotion on y'all, but this is just really how I feel from within. So I'm taking this off and I'm just not going back after I sell these wigs, I'm not going back. I can't I'm not why I see wigs no more, I'm. Why I see Naturals, he said, love did y'all watch me. Take this off. I'M gon na be using this oil, my extreme hair growth oil to take off this wig. So I just put the oil on the wig, and just you know you know just like that lifted, because my hair stylist the way she does it like she doesn't put too much glue. So as soon as I get one side lift it. I just use my finger and go like this across the whole lace. There you go wig off hey, I feel happy. Yes, take this damn thing off like oh, oh I'm tired. So I just you know just like that. That'S why you use oil instead of alcohol. Don'T be burning your yourself like that, you know, and it's only red because of the way I took it off but yeah period. This is where my hairstylist be sewing it at, so it can last as soon as I take it off oil, my scalp, and get that right. It feels so good right in my scalp, like Miracle Growth, Oil, baby. Okay - and this is me - hey it's Amanda. How are you I'm feeling real, pretty sexy? I'M feeling like me like yes, this is what I missed. I missed this me. I hope y'all can understand where I'm coming from, like y'all literally just watched my process y'all, I didn't want to end the video while I was all like emotional and stuff. So here's me without my wig I just took the braids out and I feel beautiful like I just I just fell in love with myself. Naturally, over the summer time, when I first took my wig off and now it's just like, that's just how I feel about myself and I just pray that all my other beautiful women that be watching me and you know, tuning into my videos - can feel the same. You know and just love yourself for who you really are. I had that whole three pound wig on my head, like yo, I'm just tired, you know we just I'm I'm on to different things, I'm in a different mindset. I I have a different heart, like God is with me, and this is just God like nobody can make me. You feel me just switch up like that and yeah. So I saw wigs for the week, but once these wigs are gone yeah so make sure you guys, like comment, share and subscribe. I'M gon na see y'all in my next video bye, y'all