How I Turned My Pain To Purpose | Full Frontal Installation Alipearl Hair

I turned my pain to purpose, I'm trying to tell you how much your life can turn around from nothing to something like I'm telling you how things can happen like this. It'S like you're waiting for something you know it's meant to be in your life, so sometimes things might still be coming to your life, but it might not come at the duration of which you want it. It'S okay to be in about this. It'S okay! To be sad, but it's not okay to stay in it. Hey besties! Welcome back to my YouTube channel today I have such a topic for you and it's how you change your pain to purpose. Specifically, I'm going to be telling you how I change my pain to purpose, and, oh, my God, first off, can we thank Ali Pearl for this video, because this sponsor this video once again, this is how it came in I mean you guys know. I already took the hair out the bag, but please you see that it matches my outfit because today we're working Panthers baby, so it comes with. Oh my comes with this. It has Rob it's so cute. It'S blue! I have the pink one already so yeah to say and a wig cap as well that matches my color. I love them. I mean they never miss on the edge brushes, and you guys know this and also the lashes you guys when I tell you that 2020 was the worst year of my life. It went from 2018 to 2020. those two years. I don't joke with. If I I joke with this, because there was so much pain, so much stress and like you know how you start a new year right and you're, always wishing for a little bit better than the last year and then the entire year that you drove. But it was bad. I was like God, it's not my parents no walk, but then I know that that was God's plan for my life in that season. My life just changed from for the better and I was like wow like I never knew. I would know myself as much as I know myself like I am so happy with who I am disregarding what I do all of that, like I'm genuinely happy being Francis, and I feel like that's where I knew what my purpose is, but then one of the Most most important thing is how you turn that pain. The thing that like gets you down the most into something that actually like you're, going to sit down and be like wow you're, going to run away from changing your life for the better or for the worst. But that's what we're going to talk about on this video. So, let's get into it another question: you know my lovely hairstylist Shola is gon na, be doing my hair and I'll do my hair. While I screw you all the tea, so yeah keep watching babies. That'S her beauty when you sing, let me see, because I can't wait to get into this topic. You guys. Can we just talk about like what no way no way? No way? No way. I love it. I love it. I love it like it's giving it's giving. I'M excited so when I say 2019 2020 we're quite terrible right, so it started off in a way whereby I felt like I had such vision from myself. It'S like I'm a good getter. I know what I want from life. I want to get this. I want to do this. I want to do that right and suddenly, I'm in a place whereby I'm too comfortable, I'm forgetting who I am I'm relying too much on everybody else and every other opinion about my own right. The worst part was like. I was not also in a relationship that was draining right. I think I spoke about it in the podcast with Susanna Toby. So at first I'm like guessing it's. You know a job here. Getting this. I need to do this. I want to be so big. I want to do this. I want to make my own money and then I started letting people in that were selling me dreams of oh yeah. I'Ll get this for you, oh yeah I'll! Do this free I'll do that, for you you're selling me a dream of! Oh we're gon na get married, or this is gon na get done. Oh yeah you're going to be comfortable. You don't have to work so much and, like I said it's fine right, I'm telling you my story and then I remember this day. One of my friends in school he asked me he was like. So what are you gon na do? After, like you, uni? What'S the plan and I was like oh yeah, I'm going to get married too. I hate this baby. I was like wait. You'Ve never started like this before before. Whenever I ask you about your future or your goals, you're talking about how big you want to be, how you want to do. This is how you want to take. Is that how you wan na you know? All of that, like you know, when you see someone that just has dreams right and he was like you just don't sound like the same person and I swear it hit me and I was just like Wow. Have I changed, has my purpose changed? Have I gotten distracted? That was where the confusion started and then me and that person broke up and then there was someone else assessing and bro. Will I tell you that I forgot who I was. I promise you like whenever I see my pictures from then or my videos like on Snap story right, I'm just like who was this girl like she was so confused like she didn't know who she was, she didn't know what she could command. She didn't know that she could just be herself to attain every single thing she needs like. So I was trying to be everyone else, but herself it is a very crazy place to be. I promise you because at some point all my friends were against this like this is not about the relationship. I'M gon na tell you like how the pain started right. All my friends were against this relationship because there was always one problem, the other. It was always one hurt or the other I was always it wasn't always about drama or the other. I was like back to back like bro, so my friends are like nah, you don't need this stress and I'm like. Oh, I really love this person, blah blah. All that you know breaking up getting back breaking up getting back one thing that does he get addicted? You know probably addictive person but you're addicted to the routine. This person now starts to feel like you're forever right, because that will never break or even have an issue we're gon na fix it. We'Re meant to be, you know, start this thing called trauma bonding, so I feel like I was at that point where I was just like comfortable. I was just this person. I was working less like my creativity was on what like I could be creative right, but it's like I wanted to spend more time with this person, rather than do what I have to do like work and like do more and do better right, and then this Person is telling me the dream as well. I was like oh yeah dude, I'm gon na get you an apartment. I know how you always wear a house for yourself. I'M gon na get you this. I'M gon na get you that, eventually, when it came to a place whereby we actually split like when I say it was a very terrible place like I literally felt like an entire difference person, I became an angry person. I was filled with so much anger. I remember my lecturer as a little black person, you're, always so angry and I wasn't like verbal or like assertive or something like. Okay, let him cut the snake snake so, like I said, I'm not really going to talking about the relationship or anything right. I'M just telling you the back story to when the pain like was there. So I was holding a lot of hate and I was going back to someone that was hurting me. You know how they say: don't go back to what God has healed. You from. I was going back and when I think I was now I'm like wow, maybe the first time we broke up or the first time I saw something I could have left right because I was just dragged, but I am glad because when you say I turned my Pain to purpose, I turned my pain to purpose. It'S like, I, don't regret it if it was going to cost me to be where I am right. I don't regret it at all. I broke up and everything for the this was the last time like I was done wrong. When I said I did look back honey. You know that many times when you're done with school, you move out of your friend's house. You start your life. Oh, I had that programming of like training school, have your own apartment or not or move into your mom's place and then get married and your life has started honey. No, no, no! No! No! No! No! No! No! No no fix that programming, but that's that's a different video on its own, so I had that in my head and it was just a lot to take in like okay where's my life going to go from now. Now I don't even know who I am. I don't know how to create so every time I would try creating like if things were not just kicking like even me, I didn't like what I was putting out there and that's one thing as a creative when you don't even like what you're putting out there, How do you expect other people to like it? That'S why I always tell people like it starts from you like you, be you, the knowledge and the vision God puts in you is put there for a reason. I know. Sometimes we don't have the ability to do what we want to the genuine and I understand, but as long as you're, starting somewhere you're getting better at you're trying your best trust me you're gon na get somewhere right. So I would definitely not liking it because I was in a good mental space when do like. I wasn't necessarily hurting, but I felt like I was just dumped from the sky and I was like, like what am I going to do from here. What'S going to happen like it was a lot already, do you understand so I was even like used to always staying with him like not living there, but obviously spending a lot of time there so just being at home. Full time is like I can't like reality, hits me, I'm never gon na lie and then the worst part. I was now getting jobs because I wasn't as consistent as could be. I was comfortable because then I was like. Oh people always like tagged me as like the top influencer in Abuja right that was from Lagos but bro whenever you have that mentality of people know me now I'm bad at this. I don't have pretty much effort stuff right there right Comfort is a no. Let me tell you like, I think what if we stay making me better is that I stopped creating content for people. That know me, I said creating content for people who don't even know good I'll, just see me randomly. We didn't like what I put out there. Moving to this right, I was waste, no money. You know it's a fine girl, no money. I was just sad like thinking about my life back to back, and I'm just like is this my life when my friends in Lagos come to Abuja, they hang out, and I just have to act like I was happy. You know: dress up nice, oh yeah, wearing nice shoes. Why is my clothes look good and come out and act like everything is okay, but everything was not okay, it was too much the bed. I mean feel no one might like try so hard to be happy. Like it's, okay, not to be happy, that's another thing! You guys know. I always say it's okay to be in a bad place, it's okay to be sad right, but it's not okay to stay in it here is when things start to turn around. So luckily for me I don't know how, but I said to come to Lagos just for to see my friends like, because I used to usually come from school and stuff when I was in uni. I would literally come for maybe like two days three days so this time and you know Cove would happen so I hadn't been in Lagos throughout 2020 right. So I now came to see my friends there's a close friend of mine, like we should be really close right. We were just together and everything was so fine and I was just in a happier place right like I didn't, really have to fake anything and then obviously I was hanging out with other influencers as well like everything just kind of felt natural. I don't know how to explain it like you just felt like it was where I was messing before I didn't even think about moving at all, like ah like from where we want money. How do you understand so? I was just like, like I never saw myself paying rent and that's why I always tell me like, as far as you can see you achieve right, I never saw it and one day we're just having breakfast right words and she's, just like how about you just Missing Migos, I know this is that I was like. What'S actually stopping me, I was like you know what I always used to Lagos, I'm not even it was just that was that randomly this is someone I know red. They had no jealous that it was so Random. Like do you know what this is moved from, my parents house, I'm not trying to discourage anybody. I'M trying to tell you how much your life can turn around you get from nothing to something like I'm telling you how things can happen like this and you're like wait, I didn't was stress about it like I never. I wasn't like. Oh, how, like I paid my rent and the way for it to happen happen like this, so I'm over here. Thinking like oh, I need a job. You know, then I was still a model, so I was like, oh dear, can I join this morning agency waiting about it then again just said coming in got the job rents. Give me everything. Everything just said happened like this, like this, like this, like this bro, I just wanted my friend, we always pray together right and when I called him - and I told him he was just like Francis wow - that guy was almost in tears because he knew everything I Was going through even you when I gave my life to Christ in 2020.? That'S what happened official like that time, when I did give my life to Christ was the first time I genuinely felt peace, so this was way before this. So, even when I did give my life to Christ, I just was after the breakup, I'm not joking. You guys, like I didn't even think about this part, and I'm so glad God put in my head because it was after the breakup right. It didn't happen - and I remember when I got back with that person that was in a relationship with he was saying stuff like oh you're, forming you, your life to Christ, don't worry after one week we'll see - and I told him see, even when I'm 30 years Old you're gon na ask me about this and I'll tell you. I still have peace, and I remember that I said it was so much confidence because you know people always expect. Oh today, you're on to something next weekend, I was like nah this piece that I feel is going nowhere. You know, even with all of these bad things were so happening to me. Oh life was still not sweet and I was still like God. I know everything is your plan. I just put it so when everything happened when I went from not having at all to having, I was just like how did it till today, like bro? I don't know how, like I don't know how I didn't need anybody. That was sending me a dream. It was so like wow to me, and thankfully I told my mom, I told him I was gon na come for NYC. That was kind of a lie and thankfully my mom allowed me, which was shocking, because this was my mom. I was calling me every 7 P.M. You know you have coffee. You come back to the house like imagine having that life like oh, I had a curfew right back to back every single day for her to let him live alone, and someone is telling me is not good. I mean my mom is very chilled. Like don't get me wrong, but obviously, as things of life right, obviously she was a lot more secure about me and my movements there like a lot and that's how basically how I grew up and the University of Boston, like I know, as I say this relationship, You think it's like oh yeah break up that didn't hurt me like what I went to do in that relationship literally changed my life. It changed my perspective. It changed how I saw myself so being in a position whereby I could have just said. You know what I'm sad, I'm broken, I'm going to stay at home, I'm just going to give up for myself because I could have I promised you it was that bad I definitely could have, and let me tell you guys, that's one of the reasons why I Have like this kind of videos where I sit down and like people allow my girlfriends, you have so much to say about this, like how do you know about this because I have choose his own? Has tough life, like I initially told myself that now like you have to do something about it? Moving to Lagos, I was like I'm going to pick myself up and guys forget that I said oh yeah. I never felt that like there were times I cried. I remember one time I had such a panic attack, I'm not even like I had to call my friend I was crying so much like so too much. I couldn't stop, and that was happening to me quite often actually like on particular days that were like anniversaries to to something that happened like maybe it's a Snapchat memory. Obviously you will know one year ago this happened and I'm just like. Oh, my God, I can't believe I let this person do to me and I start to cry, and I start to panic, so I had that a lot I had to always show up. I had to tell myself actually I have to start up. You have to show up, I kid you guys not like even up to last week, I'm in the car I'm coming back from the club with my girl, I'm having fun and everything my mood switches. I just remember like wow, I really let this person do this. To me, I mean I'm like down like my mood, is down I'm going to my room, I'm almost crying. I have to call my friend like that knows like about what happened to me and I'm, like you know. Why can't I heal from this and that's why people say healing it's been two years like since 2012 right, it's been two years, but I'm still healing. Even when I had the rent - and I moved like before, I came home like what is the place it took me a while, and I'm too grateful to go that that happened, but the main point was even getting jobs like oh yeah. Finally, people were asking me as an actual influence and it's not just about me saying: oh yeah, I'm the best, because when I came to Lagos like okay cool, like you're, cute, okay, I'm cute too, like what else you bring to the table. Do you understand? So I was meeting with a lot of people that like they knew who they were, and you know if you know you know that every girl in Lagos um, they know who they are and another thing is, I could have seen these people and seen them as Intimidation like and I'll be like, oh wow. I have so much. I know some people that, like they can't come to Lagos because it's too much higher back. When I look at myself and I'm like - oh my God, FC there's this kind of peace and calmness, I have with everything now like. If it's meant for me, for me, it's not meant for me. I will thank God, though I just have a roof over my head, at least oh there's, air there's food, there's water, like that's, I feel, like that's that's peace for me right now. I just feel like I'm not all over this place because I'm like I'm just every little hole. I find there's like an advice there coming in finally getting like recognized being put in places whereby I met people that were so happy and so welcoming. I promise you. I feel like when everyone was welcome and that's why I say God's plan because I remember I told my friend I'm like I don't know why I want to move to Lagos, but I feel like it's meant to be. My friend was like you need to know. I didn't tell people it wouldn't be in Lagos, they don't know. I was moving until there's some people like a month like, let's see how far I'm like yeah, I got your house I'm moving, because I don't like to bring my plans before I do it. Well, I leave Pearl. I leave Pearl today is again so nice bro. I wish some people like, I won't even move places. I want to go different countries. I want to go different places like I love to see things that make me want to grow like and that's one thing about it. I had to choose to be that person like not to shy away from the being the great the glamor, the you know when you see someone bigger than you each other you're like. Oh, my God, no know if you know my friends, I love my friends. I love their boots as well, like I don't choose them, but even my friends know that like when they do big things, I'm always like crap I'll be more like. Ah, even if I don't know, if I'm watching your story, I'm like, oh, my God, yes girl, like give them like you, get like. I love seeing things like this because it motivates me like it shows me that oh yeah like there is more and sometimes let me tell you something jealousy - is a feeling. It'S normal. It'S like being happy, it's like being sad, it's a feeling, but that doesn't mean you have to like, accept it and make it a way for you to feel bad and feel down. Whenever you see someone doing good, let that be some kind of way to be. Like you know, any person can do it. I can do and that's why I'm showing this and I'm talking about this today. My life hasn't always been perfect. It hasn't always been great. It'S still not perfect, but for me it's perfect for me or for me, as I'm sitting like this, I love everything about it. When I see myself now, I'm like, oh my God, I really wish everyone and people and everyone watching I genuinely wish you guys - could know that you would would be here. You will be here and even bigger, like I want to see you bigger. I remember one girl I saw at the gym the other day, she's like oh, my God, she loved my YouTube. She wants to start YouTube or chat and Society if you're, watching this girl love you, and I told that girl, like the fact that you haven't died in the right. People will love you for that. You can actually start a channel and you tell people that yo. Actually I get so nervous in front of the camera. I don't know what to say: people can relate to that people who love you for that. So just like you know all still, you know gaslighting compliment and I'm like girl, you better start your YouTube and I hope, the next time we meet I'll be depressed in August about you, like, oh girl, like I love you to channel like that's how life will Be like that's how life is. I grew up watching YouTube. I grew up watching people do this thing and I'm like: how can you do it like? I never saw myself doing it, and here I am today and I'm like so grateful and it's not about my power. I don't understand it's not by my own mind, it's not by me having a phone, it's not by all of that. If you're out there going to whatever and feeling like you, don't have anything to pick herself up or you're alone, you're I've been there like I've felt alone. Almost all my events, all my life, I feel alone. I just felt like I was on myself, I'm just saying that you could be be someone like you can't be, and you you probably will be and that's why I say every time like all the dreams, all the things God put in your head is not there For nothing trust me like you, can sit with a lame man and you find out their dreams are so different from yours. We think everybody's dreaming of what you're dreaming about. No. I should think like that everybody wants this. Like everybody wants that, like you might think like that, but stop thinking like that think, like, oh wow, God for you to put this in my head, I'm going to ask you because, as far as I can see so, shall I achieve it? Hey guys, you guys see, see, see I'm going to stop talking about YouTube. I love. When I talk on my YouTube channel. I love it the most like when I watch my Vlogs now, I'm like oh fun, cool great, but when I sit down I'm like Yay girl, you go girl, you you know. I like you, I don't know I like it man. This is so cute bro. This is fine. This hair is fine like what should I leave it like yourself out the bad guys. It feels full like it's like the volume is I I refer. Okay, okay, tell me a I love it, it's not and it's soft, so this is basically for whoever is in their bed feeling like you've gone through this. I need to break you and there's no way you see yourself being better standing up from bed or even just seeing yourself having some kind of purpose like you feel, like someone has drained you of that, you don't know what you're gon na do with your life. Like I am literally leaving example and testimony that you can do it like you, don't need so much money to start anything. I just put your mind to it and I promise the universe will work for your good. I know it sounds crazy. It'S like, oh, why do I have to pay for good to come to me, but sometimes when someone does something deep to you, you feel some kind of pain. Just be your mind that, with this pain right, so much good is going to come from me. Like that's when you're going to pray with so much passion, finding your purpose is something that like for me. I genuinely feel like my purpose in life, to serve others right and that's why, even when I do videos like this, I'm just in my head, knowing that I'm helping someone just knowing that someone's life will be a bit better or just helping them advice and stuff. Always just makes me feel better. I feel like this is my will serving people. You know when they say that things you go through right is for a particular purpose like if I hadn't gone through things. I have gone through in life. If I did start from a place where, but I had less so much less, I wouldn't be in Facebook. I can talk about things like this and I'm so grateful and glad that I can speak on stuff like this right and like actually relate to it. And when I tell you that things happening to you will build you like. It will build you in such a way that, when you think back you'll be like damn like, I know that hurt, but it was worth it. Oh, my God, like um, oh my God, I look so cute like bro. Let me talk about this right. That was important in my life. I didn't have that many wings like I genuinely was always like. Oh my God, I want a front touch. I want to travel because obviously girls play with them like yeah I'll, be like I want this. You get like and bro. I just had my closures bro, but now hey and it's not so wrong. It'S like one day actually and that's why like when things happen, I always think about it and I'm like sometimes when things don't happen for my good, I'm like God. I know why, because God loves, when you give him all the glory right when somebody's don't happen, your way, you just know, there's no, it's not the time, because when it's time for it to happen like the happiness, you feel the Gratitude you feel everything will be. So worth it like it's a bit and I'm just like no like. I want people to okay, oh, like okay, okay, so I want people to know that it hasn't always been perfect. It got here eventually anyway, um you guys, so we plant the hairs really cute. It'S giving what it's meant to give I mean come on now like like yeah, I'm so loving it. What do you guys think? Let me know in the comment section: let me show you the back, absolutely love my hair, and I'm just saying this is the point where you have to pick yourself up. I promise you it's not by your power, it's not by your minds right, but then you have to put in the effort. You have to know that things you go through are meant to build. You, like your life, is going a particular way like don't look at anybody's life, even when booties have someone else just be happy for them. Just tell yourself that you know what, like the fact that this has happened to someone. I believe it happened for me too to be happy for people in a way of you, knowing that it's coming one thing someone told me before right: it's 8pm now right, I haven't had dinner, I'm very hungry, but I haven't had dinner. There'S a way I'm going to react when I know that there's dinner downstairs, I can't tell just go downstairs and I'll have dinner or order and they shall food. There will be food, no matter what, but it's a way I'll react when I don't have when I don't know where the food is coming from when it's like. Oh my God, the food is this. Food going to come is food. I don't have food, but you know that the food will still come. It'S like you're waiting for something you know it's meant to be in your life. All you have to do is to be patient like there's a way you are when you're, anticipating something so sometimes, and things might still be coming to you like, we might not come at the duration of which you want, they might not come as soon as you Want it might not come in that one way down one more, you might never come in one year, but when it does come you just be like wow. So I was stressing about this thing and it was always meant to be mine and some people too, their life, is going faster or slower, but that's how your life is meant to be so you have to like, accept your life and, like I said, trust me In dreams, you have the vision you have for yourself, it's meant to be in your life, just have to be patient and actually put in the work. I always tell people Effectiveness and not longevity. So it's by the small time you put in today to put in some work but yeah you did one hour work wow, I'm so glad you did that tomorrow same thing, putting in that little little efforts per day to try and pick yourself up and you're gon Na do it, I love you guys so so much, oh, my God. It'S outro so long like guys, Jesus Christ, blood of Jesus and this guy. I can actually share this with you guys. I love you guys so much all the details and links to this lovely hair will be down below in description box, tap on it, love it shopping. 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